Words
pregnant to birth meanings

I'm alone now
like every
****
day
Nobody cares me
But I do
try my best
I'm always talking
sweet talk
nice words
But you
look my eyes
and say
"You have to be in there"
"All alone"

They don't care you're alive or not

Please,
Black coffee
as my darkness
without sugar
as my life

Previously
People live for honor
People die for honor
BUT
Today
honor kneel on the ground
FOR
Promotion
Step
Rise
Every **** things

They still stay being death
But
We live with their burdens
And
carry on with them like peon.

Newton can't calculate
my heart's speed
Hawking can't squeeze
eternity
in my love
Freud can't explain
my passion
Mozart can't notate
my love song
Time can't wreck
the beauties
of my darling

Rain start again
I'm still in there
in a house
that I built
There's everything
for me
My...
         fears
                mistakes
                darkness
         ­        memories
     life
Every feeling
hurts me
There's no light
for me
But I wait
Wait for something
I don't have any idea
what it will be
But I wait
I drink my coffee
and I wait
Rain stop again
like always
I know
It start crying for me
For my least favorite life

Happiness goes in my presence
Sadness follows me
Death waits me

Death waits for us
We can not escape
We can not live forever
But
We can love

An old man story
A life in ruins
I was born blind
A life comes from darkness

I'm always in there
No light
No person
without
loneliness of darkness
for me

Some of them called
Yin and Yang
Light and Darkness
White and Black
.
.
.
Good and Bad
Paradox
Meaning of eternity
in each
There's bad in good
There's good in bad

Freedom is nonexistent
Liberty is a lie
Independence is fiction
Emancipation is a death

I couldn't get off the ground
as the unit vector.
I couldn't find my own spark
as the quartz.
While I was walking
in the gathering darkness.
I got to reflections
every time.
I thought I found
but I was wrong
again.
I cling to despair
and
continue to walk
in the darkness.

Sorry for
disturbing you
continue to your life
Sorry...

Suicide is the key of emergency door of life

Hour sets me
Minute pressures me
Second escapes from me

Oh my lady
Your hair
enlightens my world
as sun drawing water
Your smile
makes me blessed
as a newborn child
Your eyes
I get lost in the blue of eyes
as depths of ocean
You
keep me from
my darkness
my death part of life
my lostness