I am looking into the mirror at a madman.
Fist to chest and face as fast as I can.
I was only born and forced to be a man.
It is time to reveal what is in this minds eye.
It's either you or me but one of us are going to die.
The anger builds as I isolate my self to cry.
The words the slaps they all transform this.
Now finding that my old self doesn't exist.
And there is nothing now that I will ever miss.

I don't know how I should feel today
My mind slowly drifts away
I feel lonely, lost, with no dedication
And again I am told to take more medication
Is this life what I really want to live?
I have nothing more I could possibly give
To many mistakes leads to a miserable life
Now once again flirting with this knife
I feel worthless, *****, stupid, and dumb
The depression leaves so much pain, yet numb
Suicide is the most thought of everyday
So suicidal I forget to pray
I wish someone would come and save me
With more haste than delay.
Because today I think I'm falling apart.
I'm killing myself with all of my heart.
If it means anything to you who reads.
In the end we all together bleed.
I was sick of hurting and trying.
The relief sets in knowing I am dying.

A psychedelic race has began.
Feeling this is so grand.
Walk with me hand in hand.
Show me how much you care.
Take this mushroom if you dare.
Your vision and feelings will impair.
Come walk with me into another world.
Let everything uncurl.
This summer breeze makes me feel alright.
So peaceful and non uptight.
Everything is fabulous and bright.
Come with me tonight.

Im so empty, not much left to love.
I shake my head riding of.
Oh I don't want to live this life.
Slice... with the knife.
Coral reefs and other pretty things.
Angel's with harps begin to sing.
Oh these things were destroyed.
Stab... This life I try to void.
Running coverd in honey falling to my knees.
Spoiled meat, feeling the stings of the bees.
Please... Oh God help me please.
Come and set me free.
Troubled, sad, lost, confused.
I am never happy and never amused.
This life was not for me.
Dialated pupils, sunglasses, I cannot see.
We are all made of static and tv.
Now I have lost my envy.
This life was not for me.
This life was not for me

Bashful demons shaking my insides.
I got something that dose not hide.
So come in and watch my show.
And cover me in snow. cover me in snow.
Watch as I make the time begin to slow.
I will make the greed and envy flow.
I got something you could never touch.
Never to little, Never to much.
I am something that is never to be.
Something you thought you would never see.
Now the story is written and I come fourth.
Forked tongue, and flames to scorch.
Demonic fairytales in your room of curruption
Pushing fourth the ultimate of destruction.
I am the one who will create all.
And I am the one who will laugh when you fall
If you are not perfect than turn away.
You can **** yourself now there is no new day
I am the one who poisoned you. I am your God

Plastic eyeballs, wood fingers, strings to pull.
Never ate, But I'm always still full.
Tossed in the corner left unattended.
Feeling so sad and threatened.
Colored on, made fun of, treated like crap.
Feeling the insert of nails and wooden bones snap.
Once a favorite but now nothing at all.
The strings are cut and I begin to fall.
Carved with a smile, I cannot frown.
One forced emotion, always smiling like a clown.
Behind this creativity of man made joy.
I am something special, much more than a toy.

Bashful sins keep you away.
Greedy thoughts cause you to decay.
Gasping in the air of the imagery bull.
Your body so overwhelmed and getting cold.
Traces and images roam your mind.
Careless neglect and fear is all you'l find.
For heavens pride has been laid to rest.
Sitting all alone with the red eyes gazing into you.
Felling sad, frightened and perhaps a bit blue.
Knowing when you took the devils hand.
That you have betrayed the heavens and holy land.
Now waiting for him to take you away.
God would not have wated it this way