is it really love
if it hurts everyday i love him?

throughout the years
my heart has been bashed and broken
shattered and torn
dismantled and crushed
but i kept it together with nails and screws

then he came along
and slowly tore them out
one by one
until he was the only thing holding me together

he mended my broken heart
and i no longer need nails and screws to hold me together

i like his chaos
the way he blew into my life
like a storm
tearing the walls from my soul
and freeing me into the world

they say the oceans blue but its black right now
in the dark, on the sand, looking out at the clouds

depression and drowning screaming out their full parts
lightning reveals where the ocean stops and the sky starts

and a random strike of light reminds me of what is true
but right now the oceans black and the sky is too

in this sea of sorrow
i refuse to drown

i chased my dreams until i caught them
i chased my thoughts until no thoughts persisted
and i chased my heart until i found you

maybe im the puzzle
but youre still the pieces