consumed by pain, my eyes they close
these tears they drop as you get closer
i want you gone and yet you stay
hand in hand, we walk away
listening to you, i start to believe
that there's nothing more that i need
no food, no sleep, no therapy
just us together, you and me
you walk me closer to the edge
you push me off and leave me dead
consumed by pain, my eyes they close
only difference this time is that they won't open

stood at the stands
our hands catching the wind
we shout every word
as she starts to sing

i can't breathe, i can't breathe
mum, dad i truly need
for you be here with me
why can't you be here with me
why can't you see
that there's only
so much more that i cant take
the abuse, the tears, the heartbreak
it might become too much for me
i think it's becoming too much for me
some days, i just want to close my eyes and leave
- but i wake up the same old me
the one that i don't want to be

you see him constantly breaking me down
his words like daggers, his arms around
my neck, i drop and fall to the ground
my words stuck, i cant make a sound
i can't protest, i can't even cry
still too numb to even try
i can't breathe, i can't breathe

saw you across the room
laughing so hard, you cried
the perfect smile, the prettiest eyes
you were hiding behind your glasses
but then again so was i
but you delved deeper, tried
to find what i thought was lost inside
you sat there, listened and took the time
to really see what was behind
the face i put on everyday
no questions asked
no games were played
we spoke and spoke and spoke some more
you confirmed to me what i knew before
that i don't ever want to say goodbye
to that perfect smile or those pretty eyes

silence is the sole constant
it hangs in the air like the
suspended moment before a falling glass shatters to the ground
clinging like a toxic cloud that could
at any moment choke the life from me
it seeps into - every - pore
its qualities paralytic
i liked it that way

the fear embraces me
- the pain gives me comfort
the emptiness is all i need
and all i want
i can go without food
without water
without you -
but what i really seek is the silence