He lays within my mind almost dorment everyday and chooses when to come out to send my mood the other way. When everthing is going well I'm chemically content, he comes out makes my brain dry all my seretonins spent. He changes skies from light to dark puts weight upon my chest. I have to take deep breaths to keep my heartbeat at its best. I am forced to quiz the point of life frightening thoughts come flooding back, The memories of all my good times I then start to lack. He may stay there for a few months maybe a few days. This all depends if my minds tricked by what the false man says. I battle with this evil man and think of what ive got, thinking of all the good things in my life the ones that I'd forgot. The good mood then starts flooding back, the dark skies turn to light. Ive won the seretonin slayer there in all his might. The point of life this now returns with happiness, a smile. Im scared to think how long this will last it may still only be a short while. He will be back to slay my seretonin pool the same, I will summon up some positive power to beat him at his game.    M.j.d

Is the passive monster alive tonight ? Born for peace then forced to fight. While a just war win brings slight delight I oppose for my preference whist I'm in control of my rights. Will he illegally police those who try to cease peace ? Again they'll  get what they deserve they will lye at his feet! They are void of thier consciences and try to take control . A Nefound obsolete consciousness for them and alike will be his goal. Why do they brandish dishevelled mental faculties, disturb happiness, love and sincerity ? Bringing out the darkest in me ? why should they remain "the free" ? . The evil cause ďestruction and seem to live in peace whilst "the best" and all our loved ones become deceased in what always seems to be an ungodly release . Will i Swap my freedom for inner peace and make way for the writing of a
piece ?Contradicting my beliefs so all evil will ceace .  To exist I will beat it from dark souls il defeat until my maker will meet me pass judgement discreetly . I know that in heaven il meet "the best" and I will be free.

Sat upon the sandy stones I see the horizon reach. The pale blue sky and a bright gateway to heavens stoney beach. A mirror image just the same lives on the other side. My sisters sat in the same spot with nowhere left to hide. A thousand waves are drenched with sunlight trying to block the way, for me to get across and see her really have my say. To walk across them stones on her side then look across and see, just what she sees and feel what she feels when she's looking at me. I would take her hand and bring her back from heavens stoney beach. I would fight the winds and powerful waves. I would use my heart to reach, through the horizon swim the waves I would fight at any cost. I would bring her back to this side. I would show her no love was lost. We could walk across this beach of life on this side she would see. How much she is missed and what she means to us, to me, to me ! I would feel her feel just what its like to walk along this side. Without the power to swim those waves and without a strengthened guide.