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699 · Nov 2013
The Just Dandy Lion (2013)
Sometimes I need to be crazy.

Make no sense.

Have no senses.

Sometimes I want to be lazy.

Sit in my bed.

Etch the words in my head.

Sometimes life is a daisy...

I am the world.

The world is mine.


The sunny daze
Summer laze
Needy craze

Of Sunshine.
695 · Mar 2014
breathe me out
The mystic mind
defies my land of mines.
{{and detonating bombs}}

Shells and sand
push on through the man.
[[to bring the mist, calm]]

If i could just recall the ways.
Maybe i was born to play.
Follow me, i know this day.
((Yeah, they could be away today.. ))

Quiet me and shush.
The appetence is dangerous
and I don't know what to say.

< < I'm just a choked up amber
In your smoked out ashtray.• > >

~~~~~~~~~~~~~
love sunshine
693 · Feb 2022
Bad Bliss
Fire burning red hot.
Who will be the next to burn?
Ignite a soul and light the way.
Okay.    Now it's your turn.

In my mind like spring time.
Dew drops steam off the soft
Flowers they became upon.
I evaporate to high skies from
The ground I'm standing on.

Something of a bad bliss.
I stumble into your forbidden kiss.
And I feel like myself again.

For I am no Saint.
These words may be faint.
But to you, I'd lend my hand again.
It's you who I will lay again,
In the dangerous alley ways
Of my hidden places.

And when you come looking,
Just search in the shadows.

This is where I'll meet you.
692 · Mar 2015
Unruly Wayward
I'm drawn to the centre of you.
This is where I'm being pulled to.
With the help of the winds pushing me too,
I could not escape my astonishment of you.
My will, I give away.
I've fallen endlessly to the sound of your voice,
and now I have to stay.
I'm only getting hotter every moment were together.
You can feel it on my breath.
"Maybe just one..." and I pulled in really close.
Seal the deal with a kiss.
Oh, my angels told me I'm gunna get addicted to this.
647 · Jan 2022
Timeless
The waves tickle the shore,
Kissing the earth, reminding her
That she is loved.

The sand lives between
The rocks, gently holding and
Keeping them safe.

The trees whisper
Sweet nothings, that ring the
Chimes in my old soul.

And the mountains hug what I cannot.

The sun brings life to the day, and
Comfort in the dusk...
When it melts into oranges, pinks & golds.

Beams of safety coat the ocean.
Golden light washes over me, and
Penetrates my body.

That is when I see you there,
Letting the light lift you;
Dissipate you.

Right now, we are 𝗼𝗻𝗹𝘆 energy.

We are timeless in our golden hour.

I never want to leave this daze.
Let's stay in this golden way.

'Cause it's pretty cool,
That we can stop time,
𝘐𝘴𝘯'𝘵 𝘪𝘵?

▪︎ mica light ▪︎
640 · May 2014
spacefloater
Am I going crazy ?

Is this the mark of a genius?

My words and lines
Earn their wings,
As I keep with trying.
The flow is hiring,
And I'm one of her workers.

Suffering, enjoying, loving, and depising,
This all time reality.
Stuck hard to gravity.
Spinning and on...
& I'm spinning and on...
This cosmic dream goes on and on...

*Just lay me down to sleep now, love.
My dreams are hard and the eyes above,
Cast to me what I'm thinking of.
I'm working with a Transdimentional Truth.
What do you do when you've smoked your last cigarette and your love walked out the door?

What do you when the **** don't make you feel like it did before?

Solid rock to sand.
Slipping through my fingers,
yeah, he's my liquid man.

Standing on a floating cliff, it's hard to run from vertigo.

Spin and spin the dizzy trip, a mind like this, I'll never know.

I need to land my sinking ship -- I will not up and float along.

With all the other bits and bolts I need but can't hold on.

Yeah, solid rock to sand.
You're slipping through my fingers,
because you're a liquid man.

Oh mountains fall to canyons.
And clouds will fall to dirt.
The rain will carve the rivers,
for the cycle to rebirth.

Oh what do you do when you're entire heart could crush with just the wrong kind of look? [at the wrong kind of time]

Oh what do you do when love makes you blind?

What if i can no longer find

the grains of sand

that make you mine.

What if I lose you?
What if I lose you?
What
          if
             I
               lose
                      you?

Solid rock to sand.
Slipping through my fingers.
He's a liquid man.

Yeah, solid rock
                            to sand.
"'Cause I can't chase the potent ounce of malleable you inside the ever lasting elements of the mother."
628 · Apr 2016
Chaos
I love you and all of your broken hearts.
I love all your post-apocalyptic thoughts.
I love every cigarette **** in your ashtray,
that stands for every self-reflecting moment you've had.
I adore the scattered truth of your bedroom.
And I love that your emotions haunt you so elegantly.
Break the thinking that imperfect is a thing.
And exit this dream.
**You were born to breathe in every bit of this chaos.
626 · May 2014
when the daze is over
And it's right now, that I would grab your body in astonishment of its existence. Screaming for me to touch it. Love it. Kiss me. Hard. And you would. And we would, play. Laugh. Feel. Grow. Become, one flowing unit of constant embracement. Everything is perfect here and I never want to leave this place. Can we not grow up here? Grow old? Grow fine and grow molds, of the rest of our life? From this.
This is the perfect state of existence...
In your arms.
I ******* miss that.

But its not even you anymore. Whatever part of us that had this is slowly fading, and it's tearing apart my deepest scars. For now, what are they for?
My resentment to love has a firey core.

*And its ashes are on your lips.
621 · Jan 2017
The Forgotten
It came again.
Breaching any boundaries
I was able to build since
the last time.

It shook me down.
Reminding of rampageous
Ways I had thought
I abandoned.

I lost control.
Misplacing my mind
with no idea where
to find it.
614 · Jan 2021
Centuries of Shadows
She carries the weight,
As she tries to walk straight.
She cannot help but seethe.

Treading through mud,
And emotional blood.
Constantly trying to breathe.

The pain that she felt,
From the cards she was dealt -
Not knowing the reasons why.

The tears she would weep,
From a sadness so deep,
That echoes and amplifies.

For the rest of her life,
At the edge of a knife -
The slightest movement will ****.

"Keep calm. Keep steady.
Get with it already."
Or all that's distasteful will spill.

Behind all her mystery,
Is sadness and misery -
A truth she wants no one to find.

"She's magic" they'll say,
Before they run astray.
To this madness they won't be confined.

She will never be risen,
For her body's a prison,
Her mind, a bitter disease.

But they have a choice.
Without her, they'll rejoice.
They can live however they please.

Her soul is tired; heart is spent.
- Generational Torment -
Seeping from the past into each day.

Sifting through; righting what's wrong.
Hoping that her love is strong,
Enough for all the pain to be repaid.

Maybe one day, finally
A healed being she will be.
It's all she ever wanted all along.

She can't run from this existence,
But perhaps with some persistence,
Maybe she can finally belong.

She cries for you, she cries for me.
She cries for every long lost being.
She just wants the suffering to end.

A lineage of damage
On her plate to manage -
A lifetime of work to transcend.

Look past the hurt, beyond the pain.
It is clear what still remains:
The beginnings of a budding lotus flower.

This is nature, seeking nurture.
To this earth she needs an anchor.
This is the beginning of her power.

~ ☼ ~
To healing. To responsibility. To connection.
614 · Nov 2013
do you know?
cause i can't tell.

your tongue said it once,

now i'm lost in a spell.

it's a switch flipped .

a dazy trip.

falling through the fingers

of your last hard grip -

*contemplating the compliment that comes with you.
605 · Oct 2021
Ill at Ease
The ground is always trembling.
Bound to break beneath me.

A constant storm is brewing.
Don't know when it could release.

My body seeking safety.
There is no where to go.

The energy within me
is shaking, screaming "no".

Pressure from the inside out.
Skin bursting at the seams.

No wonder I am overwhelmed,
If this is how it's always been.

Mica Light
When there's nothing to do, no where to be, nothing I truly need... Why is that such a hard state for me to be?
601 · Nov 2013
There's lots in my mind.
But really only one thing I want to think about.

It sends a familiar, yet vast, rush.

I like to think about it.

I like to think of this soul;

Similarly unknown, as I.

There's something about the complement that comes with you.

Strikingly posing modesty,

And all the crystal waves...

Then you kiss me in a crystal daze ~
591 · Nov 2015
Goddess of Madness
Of madness, I am.
I don't have a plan.
I fall for my own tricks -
For the feel of a sweet bliss.
It entrances me with
a taste of a soul's kiss -
One of which
makes a fire in the midst
of a melting chaos.

Just when I think I have it all,
Along comes another reason to fall.


How might I go
about knowing you?
In my head I suppose
I know the truth.
A thousand love stories
and they're all new,
to me. They're all true,
to me. They're all blue.

For love is a sad and intricate thing.
Love isn't bad but a beautiful ring,
of the chimes that hang in my old soul.
This is the sound of eternities colliding.
There is no hiding from this great pull.

The Angels might call me the Goddess of Madness.
For I like my tea hot but my coffee cold with poetry.
588 · Nov 2013
Softly Unknowing... (2013)
How can I address,
That which I wish to express?
My love is such a mess.

How can I give you,
That which I wish to come true,
When my heart is split in two?

I probably did this to myself sometime along the line.
The line of time, it lies.
And shakes up what was left behind.

Said I probably did this to you, too.
The line of time, it's blue.
All the chaos, and I still miss you.

And I'm feeling like a run-a-way,
Would say the words I can't seem to say.
My heart, so carefully crushed.
I'm riding on this broken rush.
My path is all but clear,
And my love is no where near.

And I'm breaking to pieces,
Through these different releases.
All these moments got me blue.
It just don't feel right without you.
That skin-on-skin.
With you,
Within.

Will you **** anything that hurts me?
Simply hurt anything that kills me.


And how can I tear down,
Walls that weigh a million pounds?
Stopping any love from being found.

How can I go on?
Will my pro's outweigh my con's?
I don't think so if your gone.

And I wish that these words somehow cradle your heart.
Cause these words are my love, my feelings in art.
A flow of raw emotion right from the start.

But beyond that, beyond all the facts.
This is nothing but truth, I assure you that.
So please forgive my mindless acts.

'Cause love is but a beauty creature.
Most special to me when resting in your eyes.
A feeling I can't compromise.

I swear I'll **** anything that hurts you.
I'll hurt myself if it's me who kills you.


Said I probably did this to you, too.
So much chaos and missing you.
The line of time, now becoming new.
But it's all this chaos, that **makes love true.
577 · Nov 2013
Love the Sun (2013)
No, not me.
As I understand what,
All the reasons be.
I hold my own hand.

No, not you.
As you understand why.
The reasons are few.
Your hand stretched out high.

And please let me tell you,
I am not defined by,
The Sun, the Moon, the Ocean, nor Sky.
But by the love that I am.
By the love that is Sunshine.

And yet, with love
My craze in knowing blinds some.
My daze in light can look numb.

But I can be felt, can't I?

This modesty is key,
In all, in none, and knowing me,
And the freedom in the breeze.

Stories are built in this mess of love.
Into the dark, up above.

Everything, except what I know, comes with me.

The mystery is felt.
Be that known, my soul is happy,
Feeling all the threats melt,
In love's Aura.

Just don't forget to feel the Sun.
It's in your soul, the true one.
Not for anyone to take.

Just don't forget to love the Sun.
Source yourself, and worship none.
And with that, you'll know...

*I'll always love to feel you.
558 · Nov 2013
Another Transition
Mission, on through.
A nostalgic presence holds me now.
Another cycle completed.
Layered amongst many.
I wish I could see the coming.
It's beginning, the time to manifest,
My spirit in the physical form- expressed.
I know I am me.
And I do and I choose.
But bring me to where I can offer myself.
And all the tranquil manifestations of my soul.
I wish to step into my offering.
And recognize all without fear,
of becoming them. Without the need,
Of becoming them.
Just to be what I am to be.
*Carry me to peace.
552 · Feb 2014
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Deep.
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          Rooted tone yet a lifting treat.

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dark roots dubstep dedication
551 · Jan 2022
SIDEREAL
Two stars collide.
They're beautiful -
Moving in,
Towards eachother.

You'd think it'd be a beautiful sight.
But when they touch a spark ignites, and
Up in flames goes everything we know.

𝘐 𝘨𝘶𝘦𝘴𝘴 𝘐 𝘴𝘩𝘰𝘶𝘭𝘥 𝘩𝘢𝘷𝘦 𝘵𝘰𝘭𝘥 𝘺𝘰𝘶...

My edges are crooked.
My corners are sharp.
My skin can be rough.
My heart can be dark.
For I am a mourner,
Of all of my lives.
Of all of the pain
That this heart has gained.

𝘐 𝘢𝘮 𝘴𝘰𝘳𝘳𝘺 𝘐 𝘥𝘪𝘥𝘯'𝘵 𝘩𝘢𝘷𝘦 𝘮𝘰𝘳𝘦 𝘧𝘰𝘳 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘢𝘵 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘵𝘪𝘮𝘦...

I do miss you, and I hope
That you can see,
Behind all the trauma...
There is love. 𝗧𝗵𝗲𝗿𝗲 𝗶𝘀 𝗺𝗲.

▪︎mica light▪︎
Choose company who can hold space for your demons, and you theirs, while you banish them together in solidarity. Know your tribe.

Sidereal, (adj.): determined by or from the stars.
542 · Jan 2022
A Story Well Told
I open the book.
The first word reads,
"Destined."

Afraid,
I turn the page,
And I rest into restless text.

Lines and curves
Come together
Making the letters
That make the words
That make you, and
I start to fall in love with your adjectives.

As the story writes,
This astonishment I have of you
Was inevitable.

"𝘛𝘩𝘪𝘴 𝘴𝘵𝘰𝘳𝘺 𝘪𝘴 𝘮𝘺 𝘮𝘶𝘴𝘦." 𝘐 𝘵𝘩𝘪𝘯𝘬 𝘵𝘰 𝘮𝘺𝘴𝘦𝘭𝘧.

As I read on,
Collected shapes
Come together
Forming the symbols
That create the words
That tell the story
Of what it's like for us to touch.

Seamless sentences
Flow through the pages
Floating our love
Down the river that is
This book.

This story is not for the faint of heart.
For there are rapids,
Rocks,
And falls
Along the way.

There are even times
When we both tried
To write ourselves
Right off the page.

But every time,
The pen just comes around to the other side of the paper.

"𝘐 𝘬𝘯𝘰𝘸 𝘵𝘩𝘪𝘴. 𝘐'𝘷𝘦 𝘣𝘦𝘦𝘯 𝘩𝘦𝘳𝘦 𝘣𝘦𝘧𝘰𝘳𝘦." 𝘐 𝘱𝘰𝘯𝘥𝘦𝘳, 𝘣𝘶𝘵 𝘐 𝘤𝘢𝘳𝘳𝘺 𝘰𝘯.

Our love,
It separates and
Circulates before it
Gravitates us
Back together again.
And again.

Realizing now that this book is a constant.
That we've been written into the same story.
That we float down the same river.

And even when it
Splits in two
And I can't see you
I don't worry,
Because I know you're just
Some pages over,
Writing a part
Of your story.

"𝘐 𝘴𝘸𝘦𝘢𝘳 𝘐'𝘷𝘦 𝘳𝘦𝘢𝘥 𝘵𝘩𝘪𝘴 𝘣𝘰𝘰𝘬 𝘣𝘦𝘧𝘰𝘳𝘦." 𝘐 𝘴𝘵𝘢𝘳𝘵 𝘵𝘰 𝘳𝘦𝘢𝘭𝘭𝘺 𝘸𝘰𝘯𝘥𝘦𝘳, 𝘣𝘶𝘵 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘭𝘦𝘵𝘵𝘦𝘳𝘴 𝘵𝘶𝘮𝘣𝘭𝘦 𝘰𝘯...

They talk about the times
When I couldn't find you
In the same chapter.

Periods when your name
Had not been seen next to mine
For so long,
I thought maybe
You found a way
To get the pen
Off the page.

Then just as I would
Conquer my rapids
And approach a place of calm,
Out of no where
You would float along.
And just like that
It felt like
You were never even gone.

United we float,
Our names in tow
Each with a pen
On the page
And a row
In the boat.
Writing the story that writes us.

"Where does this river go?"
You ask. And suddenly,
I know.

"This is where we have been headed along."

We silently drift to the end.
But the water does not fall,
Instead,
The river runs into a rising sky.
Flowing ribbons of crystal lace.
This is our meeting place.
We have been here once before.

Have we been enough?

Two souls,
With a thousand stories
Lived and told.

A thousand timeless masterpieces.

"𝘐 𝘳𝘦𝘮𝘦𝘮𝘣𝘦𝘳 𝘯𝘰𝘸." 𝘐 𝘴𝘢𝘺,
"𝘛𝘩𝘪𝘴 𝘴𝘵𝘰𝘳𝘺 𝘩𝘢𝘴 𝘣𝘦𝘦𝘯 𝘵𝘰𝘭𝘥 𝘢𝘭𝘭 𝘵𝘰 𝘸𝘦𝘭𝘭."
And that is when her heart began to swell.

Ancient stories locked
In our DNA, released
Into the universal sea.
And finally,
She could see
All the lessons
That she needs
To at last
Complete
Her healing.

𝗦𝗵𝗲 𝗴𝗹𝗼𝘄𝗲𝗱 𝗶𝗻 𝘃𝗶𝗯𝗿𝗮𝗻𝘁 𝗴𝗿𝗲𝗲𝗻.

And so it seems,
Our fountains are filled
With masterpieces
Lived and killed.
We will move into eternity.
This I know certainly.

𝙔𝙤𝙪 𝙖𝙣𝙙 𝙄 𝙝𝙖𝙫𝙚 𝙗𝙚𝙚𝙣 𝙚𝙣𝙤𝙪𝙜𝙝.

▪︎ mica light ▪︎
An Ode To An Ancient Love Story.
535 · Sep 2023
When We Kissed
There was much of you my
soul found it already knew.

The rest of you downloaded
into my bones and flesh.

My ancestors hugged yours
and our traumas wept.

▪︎ mica light ▪︎
531 · Feb 2014
<~*~>
there's something
about not being
able to think
of something.

cause your left
with nothing

and nothing
likes to take
your everything
away.

or perhaps, its just that
in nothings presence,
everything disappears.

and now everything
that could have been
has become just

some

*thing.
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529 · Nov 2013
LOVE SUNSHINE (2013)
I kissed your soul.
You touched my heart.
We do grow old.
Don't remember the start.

Time travels like wind.
Love sweeps me down.
The places I've been.
The faces I've found.

Don't leave me now.
Don't take my crown.
I don't know how,
To love in this town.
But it's so hard because it hurts.
And I'm afraid I might scare myself from the great love in front of me if I think too hard about the hurt living on in love. But this is my art. To take a feeling and dissect it. Bring its most unspoken parts alive, and say them. Sometimes I hesitate because like me, people don't wanna hear about the hurt either. My words - my art - sometimes creates an uncomfortable sensation in people. Or reminds them of an old belief they haven't let go of. Or of forgotten moments of self consultation they had probably consciously released, because, let's face it. It is really hard to take some of these feelings of hurt and learn from them. Embrace them fully. To devote life to understanding them. To innerstanding them. It can be very difficult. Sometimes nothing else matters but my urge to dig in the fabric of life and create sensation through words. This addiction has me often sick with emotion. Continuously & fully taking on surrounding energies. To learn, to calculate, to feel everything available to feel. I can't shut it off. And my brain may go wild and my chest fly too high with anxiety. The anxiety of a tornado of unprocessed emotional junk, spewing from the cracks of the world's ego. But it is in this feeling, that I came to know my calling. And it is this, that lays out the lessons I know I must learn, in this lifetime. It is this, that has bread my direction. "

..............miss..............mica.................. <3
A blog post for today .
514 · Nov 2013
Hand-in-Hand (2010)
I want to be alone- but I don't want to feel lonely.

I want to be alive- but I don't understand living.

I want to love someone- but I don't want to break.

I want to be spontaneous- but I don't want to end in regret.

I want to know I'm beautiful- but I don't want to be taken by ego.

I want to be loud- but I also want to be heard.

I want to be mysterious- but I also want to be understood.

I want to be unique- but I want to be accepted.

I want to master something- but I don't want to miss out.
507 · Feb 2016
Begin Again
Ocean tides bring breeze in to air.
The life of us is always fair.
Air pacing all around us, for us.
Inhale nature at its finest.
That's the purpose.
So live it.

Don't question why once more.
Swim your way to the shore.
Rest your head for it is sore.
And lay it on the earth -
This is your re-birth.
Drink from the well of yourself and begin again. - Charles Bukowski
502 · Feb 2017
The Question
Who am I?
Why am I here?
What am I doing?
When is the big break?
Where should I be?
And how do I get there?
501 · Nov 2013
Sunshine's Poem (2012)
You made it better, like you always do.
Sunshine life - there ain't no other way to.
It's the wise words of all I know..
And you are always ready to show,
Exactly what is needed.
You are the key to proceeding.
You are the light that's always shining.
Answering; listening; minding.
Having the direction to go,
But only ever saying 'yes', or 'no'.
And then those special times.
I scream, you *****, I whine.

Everyone is a mirror.
There's no way to see it clearer.
I am you, you are me.
Together with Sunshine,
we could be *free.
495 · Jan 2016
at life's entrance
I stand at the edge of the earth.
The outside looking in.
I tremble at the art
this world has to give.
I shiver at the sound
of love so profound.
This place so beautifully daunting.

Was I ever really ready?
487 · Nov 2013
Senses (2012)
We have all been deaf.
We have all been blind.
And we have all tasted,
eachother's own wine.
And with that we combine,
Our own flavour to mind.
Our own drink to share.
And maybe someone just might dare,
To take your whole bottle,
And drink it bare.

We have all been wrong.
We have all been right.
We have all accused others,
for the **** we've done twice.
But Sunshine knows one day we might,
Release the grip and stop the fight.

We need us all.

**For together we cannot fall.
I don't know anything about the depth we shared.
Running through time, I pass through it all.
Kind of sad; rather mad.
And a whole lot of scared.
But it's stripped all down & bare,
In front of you...
That is my softest landing.

So why does such stop me from soaring?
Like a bird told not to chirp in the morning.
Her sounds will come anyway...
Just now have you ever got a sad song.

Tales of a faerie with too much magic.
Running out of room in the cage of your love.
476 · Dec 2021
Mágoa
On this day
That you left
I find myself here,
Feeling like
I'm not enough human
To fill this space.

Today marks a day
That we both let go
Of the parts of eachother
We knew we couldn't hold.

How I miss your soul.

And the comfort of the chaos,
In our eternal push and pull.

Today marks a day that
I chose right by myself.
It was the hardest thing to do,
Because it means I'm losing you.

But...

You forgot your shoes.

You know -
My favourite ones.
I wear outside when
I smoke in them.

▪︎ micalight ▪︎
To goodbyes.
To healthy endings.
To learning lessons.
473 · Jan 2018
Coming home
I'm coming home soon
I promise you.

I almost there.
I am almost bare.

Cracking back open
Every part of myself.

Taking my love back down
From the shelf.

I miss you and I need you.
I'm coming home soon.

Cause I miss writing my soul to you.
A letter to myself. To missing writing. To coming home again. To clearing those blockages.
447 · Nov 2013
one truth (2013)
The roots of connections made,
we carry through our lives.
Every bit of every person fades.
We choose to, eventually.

But in my time with you,
choice was made-
though truth is fate.

~ So deeply etched into me, are you. ~

And I carry all I know is true,
within my root,
as I float into the dark.

With me,
will you be,
then & always there?
The dark can have me scared.
But the life of us is always fair.

For before & beyond this time,
forever
we're a perfect chime.-.-.-.-.-

of good love --- bad love
something way above love.
Resting within our soul.

Two outlets of expression.
Double learning every lesson.

Yet we fooled ourselves again.

Walking on, as if it's gone.
How could I trick myself so wrong?
How do I fool me? Fooled true.
Fooled a hundred times in kissing you.

But we don't have to suffer anymore.
We'll rest forever in earth's core.

*Thank you, for without your love,
I'd be etching my soul a sad story.
440 · Nov 2014
Once Again
Sometimes I simply hate beds.
All I want is to curl awkwardly in an odd shape
on the couch and there is where I'll rest my head.
I really don't understand a regular day.
Because my mind flurries hurricanes at 1 am
and that's the only time I have things I want to say.
But no one is awake.

Sometimes I truly dread this life.
All I want is to finally fit into the shape of something
But I'm so crooked, broken, and full of strife.
I really don't understand how the rest of the world does it.
Someone please explain their ways of escape.
But I guess the goal isn't to escape, is it?
I've gone and lost it.
Once again.
438 · Nov 2013
Dopplloverr* (2013)
Like a poet... He sings through the sun.

Resting a knowing...

On this ever centered moment.

The existing answer is we.
Lifted chests of love, we breathe.

And like an artist... He paints his way.

Resting a knowing...

On the ever changing moment.

**Journies to original truths.
410 · Mar 2023
heartsore
It's been a while since this,
feeling,
came to visit.       This,
all too familiar...
crawl-out-of-my-skin,
feeling.       This,
boulder-in-my-throat,
choking-not-breathing,
feeling.       This,
isolate-and-hide,
I've-been-compromised,
feeling.       This,
     𝗳𝗲𝗲𝗹𝗶𝗻𝗴...
     that if you go now,
     my heart might stop beating.

▪︎ mica light ▪︎
403 · Nov 2015
.
.
Sadness is but a wave in the plentiful ocean of life.
336 · Mar 2020
Dormiveglia
It is here, in this space,
When I feel most at ease.
I am not quite awake,
Yet not quite in a dream.

There is warmth around my body.
There is quiet in my mind.
My feet, they rub together.
Your lips, my mouth will find.

This is our querencia;
A place so safe for us.
I worry not of troubles.
I am only filled with trust.

It is here, I am at peace.
It is here, I am most safe.
Because nothing can break through,
The dream space we create.

I want to stay forever.
Please, can we never leave?
The sun is sure to come,
But with you, I want to be.

It is here, I am insouciant.
It is here, I can escape.
All the hardships of my life,
There is nothing it can take.

For here, I am protected.
I am safe in your embrace.
Together, falling in and out.
This dreaming-waking place.
Dormiveglia:the.space.that.stretches.between.sleeping.and.waking.
Querencia:a.place.where.one.feels.safe;a.place.from.which.one's.strength.of.character.is.drawn.
Insouciant:free.from.worry.concern.or.anxiety.
333 · May 20
Evanescent Presence
𝗜 𝗳𝗶𝗻𝗱 𝘆𝗼𝘂 𝗶𝗻 𝘁𝗵𝗲 𝘀𝗵𝗮𝗱𝗼𝘄𝘀
𝘄𝗵𝗲𝗿𝗲 𝗻𝗼 𝗼𝗻𝗲 𝗹𝗼𝗼𝗸𝘀,
𝘢𝘯𝘥 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘥𝘦𝘤𝘰𝘳𝘢𝘵𝘦
𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘤𝘰𝘣𝘸𝘦𝘣𝘴
𝘪𝘯 𝘮𝘺 𝘤𝘭𝘰𝘴𝘦𝘵.

𝗬𝗼𝘂 𝘀𝗮𝘆 𝘁𝗵𝗮𝘁 𝘆𝗼𝘂 𝘁𝗿𝘂𝘀𝘁 𝗺𝗲,
𝘀𝗼 𝗜 𝗵𝗮𝗻𝗱 𝘆𝗼𝘂 𝗺𝘆 𝘁𝗵𝗿𝗼𝗮𝘁
𝘢𝘯𝘥 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘴𝘩𝘰𝘷𝘦 𝘪𝘵
𝘥𝘦𝘦𝘱 𝘥𝘰𝘸𝘯
𝘪𝘯 𝘺𝘰𝘶𝘳 𝘱𝘰𝘤𝘬𝘦𝘵.

𝗬𝗼𝘂 𝗱𝗮𝗻𝗰𝗲 𝗮𝗹𝗹 𝗮𝗿𝗼𝘂𝗻𝗱 𝗺𝗲,
𝘄𝗿𝗮𝗽 𝗺𝗲 𝘂𝗽 𝗶𝗻 𝘆𝗼𝘂𝗿 𝗿𝗵𝘆𝘁𝗵𝗺.
𝘠𝘰𝘶𝘳 𝘴𝘰𝘶𝘯𝘥
𝘢𝘳𝘰𝘶𝘯𝘥 𝘮𝘦,
𝘰𝘷𝘦𝘳𝘱𝘰𝘸𝘦𝘳𝘴.

𝗜 𝗳𝗼𝗹𝗹𝗼𝘄 𝗶𝗻𝘀𝘁𝗿𝘂𝗰𝘁𝗶𝗼𝗻𝘀
𝗮𝗻𝗱 𝗺𝘆 𝗯𝗼𝗱𝘆 𝗼𝗯𝗲𝘆𝘀.
𝘛𝘩𝘦𝘯 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘮𝘶𝘴𝘪𝘤,
𝘪𝘵 𝘨𝘦𝘵𝘴
𝘢 𝘣𝘪𝘵 𝘭𝘰𝘶𝘥𝘦𝘳.

𝗧𝗵𝗲 𝗴𝗿𝗶𝗽 𝗶𝗻 𝘆𝗼𝘂𝗿 𝗵𝗮𝗻𝗱𝘀
𝗿𝗲𝗺𝗶𝗻𝗱𝘀 𝗺𝗲 𝘁𝗵𝗮𝘁 𝘆𝗼𝘂 𝗵𝗮𝘃𝗲
𝘮𝘺 𝘵𝘩𝘳𝘰𝘢𝘵,
𝘸𝘩𝘦𝘯𝘦𝘷𝘦𝘳
𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘸𝘢𝘯𝘵 𝘪𝘵.

𝗕𝘂𝘁 𝗼𝗻 𝘁𝗵𝗲 𝗱𝗮𝘆 𝘁𝗵𝗮𝘁 𝗶𝘁 𝗿𝗮𝗶𝗻𝗲𝗱,
𝗜 𝗮𝘀𝗸𝗲𝗱 𝗳𝗼𝗿 𝗶𝘁 𝗯𝗮𝗰𝗸
𝘢𝘯𝘥 𝘵𝘩𝘢𝘵'𝘴 𝘸𝘩𝘦𝘯
𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘵𝘰𝘭𝘥 𝘮𝘦
𝘺𝘰𝘶'𝘥 𝘭𝘰𝘴𝘵 𝘪𝘵.

𝗜 𝘁𝗿𝘆 𝘁𝗼 𝗮𝘀𝗸 𝘄𝗵𝘆, 𝗯𝘂𝘁
𝘁𝗵𝗲𝗿𝗲'𝘀 𝗻𝗼 𝗮𝗶𝗿 𝘁𝗼 𝘀𝗽𝗲𝗮𝗸 𝗶𝗻.
𝘐 𝘴𝘵𝘢𝘯𝘥 𝘩𝘦𝘳𝘦
𝘸𝘪𝘵𝘩 𝘵𝘩𝘪𝘴 𝘭𝘢𝘴𝘵
𝘦𝘯𝘤𝘰𝘶𝘯𝘵𝘦𝘳.

𝗜 𝗾𝘂𝗲𝘀𝘁𝗶𝗼𝗻 𝗺𝘆 𝗶𝗻𝘀𝘁𝗶𝗻𝗰𝘁𝘀.
𝗜 𝘀𝗵𝗼𝘂𝗹𝗱'𝘃𝗲 𝗸𝗻𝗼𝘄𝗻 𝗯𝗲𝘁𝘁𝗲𝗿,
𝘸𝘩𝘦𝘯 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘵𝘰𝘰𝘬 𝘰𝘧𝘧
𝘵𝘩𝘰𝘴𝘦 𝘱𝘢𝘯𝘵𝘴
𝘸𝘪𝘵𝘩 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝙛𝙡𝙤𝙬𝙚𝙧𝙨.
331 · Jan 2022
Mental Monsters
A riveting fracture
Of my current existence.
Clenching my throat,
Trying to squeeze out the dread;
The panic.

I've lost myself -
I don't know where I am, or
Where my body is.

Tense. Because
I'm trying so hard
Not to let go of myself,
Again.

"Keep straight.
Keep focused.
No.
Not like that.
Don't think 𝘁𝗵𝗮𝘁
About 𝘵𝘩𝘢𝘵.
Don't be that way
About 𝙩𝙝𝙞𝙨.

It's okay.
Try to breathe.

You have control
Over your mind.

𝗬𝗼𝘂 𝗵𝗮𝘃𝗲 𝗰𝗼𝗻𝘁𝗿𝗼𝗹
Over your mind.

𝗬𝗼𝘂 𝗵𝗮𝘃𝗲 𝗰𝗼𝗻𝘁𝗿𝗼𝗹
𝗢𝘃𝗲𝗿 𝘆𝗼𝘂𝗿 𝗺𝗶𝗻𝗱."

And it's okay
For a moment,
But the busy hands
Don't shield the silence
For long.

And through that
It comes spinning,
Entwining amongst
My conscious hardwiring.

"You are not welcome!
I don't want to believe it."

But I've been deeply imprinted
To believe
These emotional rules
Are bound to me.

So, often I break;
I give in.

The sheer loneliness
Of the thought
Consumes me.

I wait in the rain,
For when the storm dissipates,

𝘔𝘢𝘺 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘳𝘦𝘢𝘭 𝘮𝘦 𝘳𝘦𝘵𝘶𝘳𝘯.

▪︎mica light▪︎
303 · Feb 5
Uninvited Guest
Today an old friend came to visit.
Not completely unannounced, but
not particularly invited.

The kind of friend
that once served you well,
but their ways grew outdated
when you made it out of hell.

When the pain settled to trauma,
it became entirely something else.
But your friend thinks they know best
and give involuntary help.

The kind of friend
that's over bearing
and embeds into
the skin you're wearing.

Stitching in bad habits.
Manifesting your mistakes.
The friend you try to distance from,
but you can't seem to shake.

The kind of friend
you grow apart from
once your time there
is done.

Even though you're better off,
you still wonder where they are.
The kind of friend you dearly miss,
but must love them from afar.

Well, that friend...

Came knocking at my skull today.

(They told me they might be in town,
but I didn't bother to reply.)

Quick, shut off all the lights.
Quiet, try to hide.
Maybe if I'm gone,
they won't try to come inside.

But resting in the silence,
is a small child's cry.

And they know exactly,

where,

to find

me.


▪︎ mica light ▪︎
295 · Jan 22
Swallow
Salvating at the scent
of *** in the room
as you linger
in the back of my throat,
on the edges of my tongue,
and in the purse of my lips.

▪︎ mica light ▪︎
279 · Apr 2022
Cognizant
She walks out
and bears her soul
to the unknown.

Step by step.
Trusting that the path
Will continue to form
Before her.

It's a feeling.
An instinct.
A drive.
A knowing.

It's malleable.
Create-able.
Magical.

It lives.
It relates.
It changes.
It grows.

And when I get lost,
I always know
This feeling will take me
Where I need to go.

So i listen carefully
For the calls in my soul.
And go the direction
That i feel pulled.

Mica Light
261 · Aug 8
The 5 W's
𝕎𝕙𝕖𝕣𝕖 did you go?

Please can you tell me,
𝕨𝕙𝕪 are you
now
so estranged?

𝕎𝕙𝕒𝕥 happened?

Please can you tell me,
𝕨𝕙𝕖𝕟 exactly
did
everything change?

𝕎𝕙𝕠 are you now?

Please someone tell me,
𝕙𝕠𝕨 my mother
can
reclaim her name.
The first piece to finally make its way out of my grieving heart.
220 · Feb 15
Redamancy
My love unfolds only,
where hemlines meet.

In the space between skin,
and black satin sheets.

▪︎ mica light ▪︎
216 · Sep 2022
Pulsing
Your breath invades me.
Consumed in full.
I cant evade you.
Escape this pull.

Your lips are tender,
But your teeth will bite.
Your tongue is wet,
And your grip is tight.

Your eyes see through me,
And our skin combines.
Ive become your offering,
And you've become mine.
189 · Mar 2023
♡《Garden of Venus》♡
This is my time,
to be released.

To leave behind,
midaged beliefs.

Uproot the past
& plant new seeds.

Tend to my garden
& water my dreams.

I grow flowers from visions
& pick wisdom off trees.

Thoughts ripen in the berries
& I harvest the seeds.

I sow kindness in rows,
next to seeds of belief.

I grow herbs sown from hope.
Harvest love from snap peas.

I offer my confidence,
to dandelion seeds.

To grow in the cracks
of the sidewalks, between.

Intuition, year-round
grows on evergreen trees.

The depths of its roots,
sink as deep into me.

Wild-smile flower-fields.
Lilac kisses, serene.

Lavender loves laughter
& the scent of dopamine.

Sexuality is ripened,
Nestled in the tangerine.

Creativity grows on vines,
& blooms into epiphanies.

I found grounding in the basil.
Infused rosemary with peace.

& what I find in thyme,
exists purely spiritually.

I rest my soul in the garden
& I feel her cherish me.

She accepts my every fragment
& I listen to her needs.

I learn to tend the darkness.
& to keep my temple clean.

To water everything with love
& divine light frequencies.

To nurture the new growth,
by snipping off dead leaves.

To invite source inside.
& be open to receive,

The cleansing of my spirit
& its ancient history.

Taking shape, we make form
of what we choose to believe.

Bringing forth new flowers,
Into our reality.

So, I tend to my successes
& pull out all the weeds.

I lay gardenbeds of seedlings,
that from feelings, I reaped.

Every outcome is concocted,
of whats currently perceived.

So stay up here with me,
& please, don't go to sleep.

Don't run in the dark,
chasing what's out of reach.

& if I seem quiet,
then Im not asleep.

I am tending my garden,
Bringing life to my dreams.


.................

▪︎ mica light ▪︎
181 · Jan 2020
The Work
It is often said that the light shines through the cracks to illuminate the darkness. While this is true and is the first step in identifying the darkness in oneself, that is all it does - simply lifts the veil. To transform, you cannot just bring the light to the darkness.

You must drag the darkness into light.
One of those thoughts.
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