Young and free
That's what they call us

Happy
But they don't see
We have pain
So much pain

We have scars and depression
We have so many unhealthy obsession
We smile and laugh
But just to hide our tears

We pick up drugs just to get away from here
Our parents yell at us and say we have it easy
But they don't see that times have changed

School is harder
Mentally and physically
We try to change to fit in

We cut our hair
Paint our faces
Change our names
But only for people that do the same

We go to classes but for what
We aren't learning about what's real
They feed us lies and leave us defenseless
They call us useless and tell us we are bringing down the world

But they can't see
they made us this way
They made us change

We were once young and free
Till they said that children are only meant to be seen
We were once happy
But only in play school

Then they took away our nappies and real friends
They told us what we should be
said it was like a game of pretend
They don't understand and they never will

But they were once kids like us
They had dreams but like us they were taken away
They try to make us like them

They want us to feel what they feel
See what they see
This world has become nothing but senseless drones
Ticking away like time bombs
Waiting to explode

You hear a scream
As the clock strikes 12 on the clock of life
Another person goes

Where?
Well,who's to say?
But that's just how life goes
And it seems we're stuck

Till our last day

For so long I've wonder what it would feel like to be stabbed
To feel the knife in my back as I fall slow

For so long I've long to be normal and to know how others feel
I just wanted to be okay

For so long I wanted to stop crying or lashing out because that's not okay

My mom told me it's not okay

You see my mom didn't understand that when I come home and go straight to my room

I'm not okay!

But when she did that wasn't okay.
I was crazy and defected
That's how she saw me
That's how I saw me

For so long to her I was a shadow unless she needed to vent
You see we weren't related we were friends
At Least that's what we pretended to be

So for so long I didn't understand love
But when I did I didn't get enough

Maybe that's because I wasn't enough?

I didn't understand that people care for no reason
That when someone says I love you it wasn't because they had to
I didn't understand that people could just be happy hearing just a name

But when I did
When I did
I was scared

Who could love me
Who would love me
I was broken

I am broken

So I hurt people
I was my mom for so long because who else could I be
I couldn't be me
She didn't want me to be

So I became her
I was just a dream
Someone  made up

At least that was till I was real
But no one knows
No one knows

I want be me again
I miss her so much
She misses me too
At least I think so

She doesn't answer anymore
She just stares and lays there
Or she just cries

But when the drugs hit she is alive
She is here
She is happy
She is free
But when they run out I'm back to me
Who is me
Who is me
Who is me
Who am I

I want to die

HURT ME
Please hurt me

Break me
Please break me

Leave me the way you found me
Stuck
And alone

Because it's one of those days
Those days where I wish I wasn’t here

I wish we weren’t here
But you should be here

I wish
I just wish
Sometimes I just wish

But I know
I ***** up
We ***** up

Where do I go
In circles
We are running in circles

Lets run
We can get away
Then maybe we’ll be okay

Maybe will be fine
Maybe we’ll be different
Different this time around

We are going down
This time I don’t know what to do
This time I can’t make it better

Why can’t I make this better
These days I’m wishing
That these words I’m spilling

Maybe they’ll reach you
Touch you
Like the way I use to

But that's not the case
Why isn’t the case
Why can’t it be the case

Love me
Love me the way you use to
Smile at me
Touch me
Wanted


I want to be wanted

I’m just not sure