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Feb 2014 · 780
mia Feb 2014
I watched her smoke her cigarettes,
Outside her bedroom window;
All day long.
Morning, noon and night.
Her records spinning,
Projected the sound of,
The Smiths, The Doors, The Beatles.
She never left that room,
Until one day.
That last day.
I never saw her since.
Jan 2014 · 490
mia Jan 2014
Remind me of my past.

Sometimes, when I'm alone sit down
and view every scar on my skin.

This was caused by a kid in high school
this was because of my parents
and this was for when you didn't love me back.

They're still there.
Forever I will be reminded that you was here and what I went through.

Yes, I made ‚Äč‚Äčthem myself.
And unlike the majority of regret,
in those moments everything felt right.

I'm not in it for the upset, or to create regret.
But just to get it done. I was going to do it. I needed it.
mia Dec 2013
As I was lying there
on the empty mattress
that had been wandering lonely
in the middle of the room,
the phone rang.

In a matter of seconds
my dreams had been crushed
and I mean crushed
dropped from three thousand ft and trampled on
by people who couldn't care less

those ******* heels ripping the holes into my dreams.

''you'll never be good enough.
you're never going to make it.
you're wasting your time.
are you really that stupid to think you're going to be a star?''

The words that escaped his mouth
repeatedly hummed through my mind.
those words were ingrained in my memory.

I wouldn't allow it to become a reality.
I had lost my mind that night.
and all I did was sing.

Nobody can ever take away my dreams.
Dec 2013 · 677
May 2014 be better
mia Dec 2013
All those feelings you read about
have hit me all at once
and I feel emotionally, mentally and physically drained.

Being home helps some, but does not
fill the void left in my heart
or the loneliness when I walk in the door.

Tears flow without reason, smiles are hard to come by,
and love will be lost for what I am sure will feel like eternity.

I have never been a perfect lover,
way too many faults
but I have always tried to be the best I could be
I am afraid my well is dry.

I am broken, and there is no quick fix to mend my heart.
Dec 2013 · 612
mia Dec 2013
I lay alone in bed
Thinking of everything you said
And it makes me so sick
That you gave up that quick

Fell for someone who
Doesn't think things through
Now I'm paying for it
With my silver, I slit
My skin in two
Just like when you
Grabbed the sharp knife
And ended my life

My heart is broken
But the lust is still there
I hate you so much
But I love you and care
About you and your health
Your disgusting self
You kept me so strong
For so **** long
It just hurts that you moved on
It feels so wrong
Dec 2013 · 892
Please Don't Surrender
mia Dec 2013
My bambi baby
My adorable honey

I love the way you kiss me
I love you, don't you see?

Your eyes are so lovely
Your words are so tender

Don't let me go, please don't surrender.
Oct 2013 · 2.7k
mia Oct 2013
You say I'm infatuated
But it's much more complicated
These feelings I get
Aren't normal I bet
It's not infatuation
If when there is no communication
Between us two
I thinking about nothing but you
Not only is it that
But without you I feel fat
I feel worthless and poor
Like you're the only cure
I watch the blood pour
From my limbs to the floor
And if you're saying I'm infatuated
Then explain why it's so complicated
Aug 2013 · 1.1k
Second Best
mia Aug 2013
If I was a cigarette
I'd be menthol
If I was a flower
I'd be a daisy
If I was a pair of shoes
I'd be converse
If I was a weather
I'd be rain
If I was a liquid
I'd be water
If I was a school grade
I'd be a B
If I was yours
You'd think about her
Aug 2013 · 27.7k
mia Aug 2013
Grind it
Pour it
Twist it
Lick it
Light it
Inhale it
Swallow it
Exhale it
Share it
Feel it
Finish it
Adore it
Aug 2013 · 683
Self Inflicted
mia Aug 2013
It's not just a burning self hatred
It's a lot more than that
A lot deeper than just that
It stretches to wishing your parents never met
It stretches to almost despising your grandparents
Although they're in heaven
You have a guilty hate
That they were once in love
They were so in love they made children
Who made you
Made you
And you were born
And YOU have to live with that until the day
The day you pluck up any sort of courage
Courage to stop being a coward
To do it
Everybody would be better of
You belong in hell
You're worthless
You shouldn't be here
Aug 2013 · 527
mia Aug 2013
I can't describe it
Every time you speak to me
I lose all my feelings
I become numb
My fingers tingle
My toes curls
And my stomach does somersaults

I think about you
Every second
Minute, hour, day
I tell my friends about your smile
I imagine you holding me
Every once in a while
Makes no sense
Aug 2013 · 904
Mirror, mirror
mia Aug 2013
Mirror, mirror, don't you see,
What you show is destroying me?

Mirror, mirror, on the wall,
Why cant I be thin, skinny and tall?

Mirror, mirror, I do not eat,
So why am I so fat, from my head to my feet?

Mirror, mirror, you're doing it again,
Is this you or is it in my head?
Aug 2013 · 1.1k
mia Aug 2013
I suppose maybe I should sleep,
To rid of these crazy thoughts.
Maybe I should take a shower,
Paint my fingernails a summery color,
Run myself a nice warm bath and light a scented candle,
Pick up a pencil and sketch my surroundings,
Dial my lovers digits and have a meaningful talk,
Read my favorite book for the 213th time,
Put on my glasses and count every sparkling star shining bright,
Perhaps I should even name those stars,
Maybe I should bake some cookies,
Maybe I should do something I absolutely adore doing.
Yes, I suppose I should.
But the one thing that tops all of those things and wins every time,
Is the one thing I shouldn't do.
Something I don't love to do.
I pick up the gun,
Silence myself by wrapping my swollen lips around the tip,
My finger barely slips,
And the wall behind me is stained crimson red.
Aug 2013 · 1.1k
mia Aug 2013
Snowflake skin,
Vivid red lips.

Eyes wide like grandfather clocks.
And bottled blonde perhaps platinum locks.

Fake beauty spot,
Silky skin burning hot.

Bats her eyes,
Gives John butterflies.

Everybody loves her,
The men all pay her.

Government ******,
Overdose, Surrender.
Aug 2013 · 1.0k
mia Aug 2013
2AM, where do I begin?
Can't get you off my mind again.

How do you continiously do that?
You're incredibly perfect.
You were broken and so we sat,
We talked about how you were worth it.

You told me I was your rock,
I fixed you... Now I think about you.
You were a like broken clock,
Stuck on the time I'm always up in the morning, two.

It was like I was a rock on the beach,
And once you were whole again, you threw me in the sea.
But because to you I didn't preach,
I sunk amongst the waves, one, two, three...

And little is what you knew,
That I needed my rock too.
My rock was you,
But you found somebody new.
Aug 2013 · 1.3k
Vincent Van Gogh
mia Aug 2013
A cultural giant
Though his life was short
Full of talent
His work never caught
The eye of the public
Anybody who understood
Because he was indeed
It wasn't just talent
Or love or art
It was emotion and passion
From his beating heart
He was an artist
With a burning desire
Hardly lived just loved
His own works melted in fire
Aug 2013 · 480
mia Aug 2013
Your timid words
Escaped your plump lips
"I love you, Cady"
You were desperate for a kiss

I have these guys
Falling for my love
But when you finally get it
You send it off like a dove

You took those words
Which escaped my pumping heart
"I love you too"
You threw them away
Like a childs art

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