Before you date me

You need to understand that I'm damaged. I get triggered easily. I have struggled with things. There are nights when I'm curled up on a ball on the floor and I won't talk to anyone. I'll shut you out. I'm not going to be able to trust you for a while because everyone has always left, cheated, or chosen someone else. I need reassurance. I will need you. I will need you to keep choosing me, I'll need you to care when I text you saying I'm getting bad again. I;m a lot, I know this.

So before you think I'm always happy, that I'll always be positive, that I'll always be smiling - know the reality before you get involved. Don't enter my life if you can't handle it. Lastly, don't you dare touch my heart if you aren't ready for that.

i fell
hard for
your love.
                                                           ­                                          why does
                                                                ­                            it hurt so
                                                                ­                   much? even
                                                            ­            after you've
                                                          ­ left. it feels like
                                                 you took a
                                     piece of me
                           and just left
              without even
saying a goodbye.

she gave me her nudes
she was bare
and naked
and so out
and open
and i willingly
accepted it
because it wasnt the nudes
that showed her body
the physical aspects
that made her beautiful
it was the words
she didnt choose
and the spontaneity
that left her
either from her lips
or her fingers
or ink

she was as bare
as her nudes
and i accepted
her for her.

love feels wonderful.
it pains when everything ends.
but,
       you do
                   find
                         yourself
                                       again.

warm sunny days. your lips brushing past mine.
            the feeling of the familiar warmth
                     the wind softly blows
                                  and
                              your eyes
                              your smile
                              your laugh  
                                   &
                                 you

                         just makes me feel
                             so complete.

you told me you'll
w
     a
         i
             t

              and i did. i waited for you.
              but maybe i  was not your type.
              and,
                        day
                                              after,
           ­             day
                                               after,
                        day

                   you broke my heart. and then you went
                   just like how others did.