In the second part of my thoughts about Purity,  would like to observe the different stages and levels of Purity. I accept the statement, that here "in this world" we can't be "perfectly pure", but also we should clarify what to understand under term "pure". We can't aim something impossible to achieve, but we can observe simple rules and make definition of "pure". Of course anyone can be "pure" person, if he want that, and it's not hard to be achieved.  Purity does not mean to be "perfect". The fact that we are all in our human body and "here" means automatically that we are not perfect. It doesn't mean we can't be pure. Now I'll determine what i mean with that. First of all, all people are born "pure" or as some kind of "tabula raza" (clear table) and the different circumstances, the different social level and the different connection with God/ or with self-consciousness make them go to a different path. We know very well that children are "innocent" and pure, they are not guilty as far as they are not able to show and express their real "self". they are in stage of innocence, but not of wisdom - which is the choice of will. (Swedenborg *). They are example of purity of heart - they talk and act from inside without any hidden intentions, or if they seem to have any, it's just by "outside" character. They have strong intuition an ability to feel the others heart. That all qualities of children we try to achieve again in our parts of life. What we have to learn and achieve is "how" to be pure. Even it's easy, it requires qualities and patience, and on the first place "will".

I. - Purity of heart :
How to achieve purity of heart? There are several rules you should observe, if you want to have pure heart. First of all the heart is center of the body, it's connected with our emotions, feelings and provides blood to all body. The heart represents actually:
1. truth (to be connected to the truth. Try to always speak out your real mind, show your real self)
2. love (have pure love to others - as first christian principle!) love others and love God
3. believe (when you believe without to want proof, that is the true faith) Believe in yourself and others.
4. God (connection with God, represented by prayer)
5. forgiveness (learn how to forgive and do not seek for revenge! that makes your heart pure of evil feelings) We can conclude the 5 principles inside the understanding of "purity of heart". They are well known and widely spread in all religious principles of Christianity, Islam, Buddhism. First of all, never conceal the truth, which you know, means do not tell lies, no matter if that will harm others or not. Truth is the first step to purity. If you feel very hard to say the truth, as you feel you are harming another, you should first heal your heart, and see that truth never can harm. You should say the truth about others too, if anyone has their "own truth", be aware that the truth of God is one, and he can see any moment your spiritual body. If you know something, which is harmful for anyone, so you don't want to say it, that will cause problems later in your life, for your health -your heart or your throat will suffer, or to the same person you wanted to "protect". In all religions the truth is one of the basis for good life. Do not hide your real face, as that is also equal to lie.
2. Love to others means - do not harm others, do not ****, do not make suicide, do not harm anyone's body or soul -by words or physically. Any human has right and it's here because of God's willing! If you take life for anyone on the planet -no matter the reasons, you play like "God", and that will send you to the bad end and out of spirit. It will remove from you all power. That is one of the biggest sin. You can not play to be God, and all his power will return to you, as there is justice but in "Spiritual" world. Don't seek complete justice on earth. There is not how it works - as all we are in the test, while we live. Can the teacher give all answers for the students, while they are in exam? of course no, but teacher can help for some willing students with clues. So the second principle for pure heart is "love the other - your fellow as yourself. - (as Jesus said) It's really hard to achieve, but if you do, you will be rewarded , because that is the real love. and not egoistic love. When you love your fellow, you allow all negative feelings to "him" and connected to world to flow away from your heart, do not allow anger to possess you, or any negative feeling, as they make your heart "unclean" for a long time. Also it's not good to hide your bad feelings inside, as they will harm you again and again. Release them forever.
3. Believe in God, trust others, and don't be very doubtful, because that will also harm your heart only. The one who really believe- as the most simple and ignorant people - so he is really pure in heart. So try to not be suspicious too much, and doubt in case that is the normal reaction. Of course it doesnt mean to believe in "any craziness' or fantasy, it means simply to choose to "believe" if you have this choice! for example there are many stories of jealousy, burning the heart of someone, when he reach to this point to **** or harm his beloved, and after that the truth reveal he didn't have reason to doubt. But so he lost all!
4. God = faith in God. that is a basis in any religion, and that is how people, who believe get strength from the source. Prayer is the most beneficial and fast way to God, and the only practice to purify your heart. If you do not believe in any God, that doesnt mean you can't pray inside yourself, or to find way to heal your heart. Anyone can find the way for himself. The prayer is the most intimate relation of human with God. - and also with the higher-self and with his pure heart. that how the prayer makes you pure. (if you want to achieve results pray at least 3 times a day, it maybe short prayers inside you, but from heart.)
5. Forgiveness - it includes all above elements of the "pure heart" - truth, love, believe, faith, but also allow your heart to pour out the bad feeling of "revenge", anger, sorrow, impatience, egoism. We should avoid all this feelings and claim them as source of bad energy. If you are "in fire" or in argument with someone, if you have different views, opinions and directions in life, dont allow anger to possess you, as then you are the one who fall in trap. If you are sad from anything, dont allow your heart to be fully in sorrow ,as that is harming you. If you need something fast and your desire is good, dont allow yourself to be impatient, as that will harm your heart. All these feelings are mentioned because of forgiveness. No matter what, you have to forgive others, if they ask for that! if they dont ask, so forgive them inside yourself, because that how your heart will be clean from the evil. If they don't want to forgive you, then their heart will suffer, and it's unfortunate.

observe all this principles, and you'll have the first basic step for "pure heart". Speak always the truth, that will make you happy and confident, don't hide your real face, will release you from the fear, Love your fellow, will make you more open-minded, believe and have faith in God, the prayer will strengthen your heart connection and make you free of bad feelings, be forgiving, don't keep the bad emotions inside you, pour out of your heart anything not necessary for it. In this way you will be very near to be pure!

-nour-
July-013

Copyright © Nina Nour

In this entry, I would like to underline the big importance of the "body", and why we have to accept it as an element of the material sacred being.

Body has very long history of acceptance and "rejection", specially concerning religions and different sects in many cults. Since the history, the living body is accepted as equal to the living being (means soul) and the dead body is accepted as the dead being - in materialistic point of view. In all religions though, we can see totally different view. The Body is not eternal, but it doesn't contain the limits of the being, as long as we believe in eternal soul. In course of religion understanding and history of religious practices, no one could accept the person as equal to the body, and only body. We can see some elements in the this direction, which are significant for the term body :

1.... it is not eternal - it's subjected to the changes of time;
2.... it's growing and developing in time;
3.... it has specific needs, in order to keep it alive (water, oxygen, food)
4.... it has inner instinct of survival;
5.... it has inner instinct of reproduction (****** desire)
6.... it has unique characteristics in every individual ,special genetic code;
7.... it has system of accepting, and system of "cleaning" products;

I'm sure there is a lot more to be said, but as I want to be short, I will continue. Now from all we can't come to the conclusion, which is one of the most important in aspect of God and religion : namely- the Body is Sacred and It's gift from God.
If we assume that the spirit and soul is center of the being  and life does not finish with the death, we have to take in mind the special role of the body -as a sacred ark, or unique box, which is made to preserve the inside. In this respect, Body is sacred and all actions made to harm the body is equal to committing a great sin. The actions, which we have to absolutely claim as Sinful and against God, as well as against the essence of being are also sinful in all religions:

1. Killing someone (which is act of taking his freedom and his essence forever)
2. Act of conscious suicide (which is also the same as "killing" but you don't have right on it)
3. Act of harming or "punishing" anybody with aggressiveness, beating or any other way.
4. Act of cruelty (which is the special list of sins) of harming parts of body by cutting it.
5. Act of any cruelty to human and animal.
6. Act of forceful ****** ******* to any human being;

As we can recognize, all possible black sins are connected with the body. The kind of some punishments in some religions (as stoning in Islam, flogging, cutting a head of and others, very close to the Medieval times of tortures) are also equal to black sins and provoke Inevitably bad Karma on anyone who is involved in them. Take care, that the act of suicide, no matter what the reason is - is also sinful, as this means total disgrace of God's will.
There was one case (or rather many cases in my country) in XXI century : a woman, depressed from the poor and miserable life throw herself under the metro, but she didn't succeed to die. Instead her both legs were cut off. As we ca think, this act of cruelty against herself is sinful and will bring for her even worse karma. That means, the suicide is egoistical - except from some special cases, connected with strong unbearable pain or illness, which is out of recovery). This woman should have children and husband, or any relative, who would need her help. Now she makes them not only suffer with her action, but also burden of herself and her body. It may sound cruel too, but it's the fact. Here we come to the next important conclusion:

We don't won our body! The same as we don't "own" anything connected with material things around, so we don't own our body too, as we don't own our destiny. It's very easy to think that: as in first place we born not in the place we choose to, we born not from the parents we choose to, and not in society we choose to! All that facts are enough (plus we don't die also in moment we choose to.) to be certain, that we don't own our body. First of all, the force, which create it own it only - God. Here is time to say also : nothing and totally nothing is our property, except what this Sacred body contains! (spirit, soul, thoughts, aura) that is only what we really own. If we think deeply, we could see that's the truth. We don't own our children, no matter that we are responsible for them all the time! We are also not property of our parents, or anyone else. The wife is not a property of her husband, as well as the opposite, but she belongs to him in the way of heart and love.

As anything in the world is changing, developing and degrading by the time, so the human body has it's own changes. Even so, we need to know : we don't own our body, but we are it "caretakers", guardians, and take our responsibilities on our body. And that is without a doubt Obligatory. It means the following: if my body is in bad health, or I suffer from something, no matter of that I didn't choose it, but I choose if I can change that condition or not. If I smoke for example, and feel something is not well in me, and I have cough- just that- I'm obliged to stop smoking, as that harms my body, Any other act - of not taking care -will be a mistake - if we don't use here the strong word-sin. Body- mine or of others- is a sacred gift. We have to cherish it all the time, since birth. Most of all the children are vulnerable to anything, so we have to create in them love to their bodies, and not opposite. We have to protect them, as we want later on they to protect themselves and their children. but most of societies are too ignorant about that.

Examples of alcohol and aggression in the family are millions. Examples of **** and abuse in any country - specially of more poor and ignorant societies - are millions. Example of slaughter, cruelty and anti-humanity actions, extreme movements, covered by religious /Devils masks- are millions and growing.

As the world is going wild, without to have any idea of sacred things, what about sacred body and life, we become so little responsible for our actions, as we forget the law of karma in the nature.

We are much behind, than we were some centuries ago. And the reason is the change of living order and what is "priority" for all human societies. We are much behind, going backwards. and just a few individuals could see the light, even less- to touch it.

:: In conclusion I would like to say: as the whole body is sacred, it's a precious box, containing unique code for us. We have to take care - and it's a real obligation, not to possess, but take care of our bodies, the same as our soul. Each part of our body is sacred, means if I have pain in an part and I don't take care of it, the fault and punishment will be only mine, and the suffer too. By taking care of body means very simple things : live in natural way, take care of the foods you eat, as that is substantial for the body. Take care of each part of our body, and if you notice any sign of illness, take measures to prevent it. Do some simple exercises and rules for having the good shape of the body you want. Purity of the body reflects on all your being. (the same for ****** life).

Be familiar with needs of your body and provide them in any moment! Be aware of pains and the week points, don't accept harmful ingredients (drugs, alcohol, cigarettes, strong medicines, chemicals), and try to live as close to the nature as possible. That is the only way.
As many Chinese wise men say, "Healthy spirit in a healthy body" and that is part of the purpose.


:: mermaid  ::
:: September-08-013
:: 3.36 pm ::

my lonely pigeon,

forgive me, I didn't

let you in the warm,

I left you all alone

in the frozen cold.

I was afraid from your

soul-whispering wings.

you wanted to come

near to me -

so desperately,

But i was afraid

from the touch

of the Death

in your tired wings

On the balcony

you stayed -

motionless and sad.

My heart was like

well of hope -

How to make you live?

God's hands hugged

you peacefully after

some days,

you remained lost -

little cold feather and

bones on your place.




.......No♥r .......

          november -12-

We are both not of this world,
my brother of fate, my bhai
my heart roaming high in the angel crimson down,
your eyes looking eagerly to discover mine -
your world is there, but both we are on the same side
the same universe and sorrow of life, we are two birds in cage
and wanting to fly, while our wings are bleeding
my lips reflect the need of yours to meet mine,
my cheeks so flushed adored by you as the sun,
your cage is there, but we both caged on the same side...
Melting in my look, sweet pain of desire in you,
igniting the fire and love, I am the last saved bird
with white feathers of light, yet still closed
when you'll take me from here, my fate?

my brother Ami,
from the land of
Pineapples and lemons
wanted to write to you
in late hours,
to wish you good
travel tomorrow
to the desert land with camels,

Please, be safe on the road,
may Allah protect you
in the weather hot!
in endless sand dunes
the time is so slow,
even letters from your
lovely sister are
out of the law.

Take care with the guns
and weapons
and how you wash
your blue jeans...
I pray Allah to help you
in that distant place
i'll miss you as always
drawing your portrait
with black ink.
i'll think of you and write,
and dream to be by your side.

My brother
mon frère,
mio fratello,
saudaraku,
kardesim,
akhi, bhai,
you know
I love you,
waiting you
back
after may!


....nour....
    may-013

Give me just one innocent touch,

My lovely sister of compassion "

I just need your blushed cheeks

Like an apple in time of harvest

To caress them as the feather

Fondled by gentle wind,

Don’t step back, don’t go away!

Leave me just a little innocent kiss

My lovely sister of memories,

to refresh my blurred senses

to feel the warm sun of your heart.

Leave me just an innocent kiss

On your honey lips,

Kissed so many times by your lover

To melt in your sweet nectar

Endlessly longing for your look,

My lovely sister of childhood,

To hold you in an innocent hug

As I'm your bhai from land of sugar cane

Where the vast lakes merge with horizon...

I want only that from you,

Is my desire not innocent?



© n.nour

In the room of dusk

           Waiting for the sun to dive

Into the space behind the sand hills,

Your fingers embracing the white cup of tea

In the orange blush of warm light,



You stare at me,

my eyelashes flutter

I look away " the window steamed from inside

Orchids in a glass looking at us

The twilight is coming, and fading

Your arms stretched to me -

But who stole our memories,

My brother?


Going to hang out your shirt

Your arms tremble again with longing,

Why you need me always more,

Even you know I'm forbidden?

The cat is meows outside,

Branches of the willow shivering

In the caressing wind,

You stay behind me, hugging me silently

Your voice is frozen long ago "

But who stole our memories,

My brother?

It was a willow tree once there
   At the land of lake and mist,
   It was standing lonely on the shore
   Waiting for a beautiful hand to touch
   Its shining leaves.
   It was a woman in green, wrapped in
   A scarf with autumn leaves,
   Her hair was with honey color
   Her eyes were magnetizing and dark,
   She came to the willow on twilight "
   Rainy clouds gathered with above
   With gray shadows,
   She weeps under the tree and talks to it
   “Oh, willow, where is my beloved…
    since years he went to the land of
    pineapples and sun,
    and then he never returned..
    I promised to wait him every night,
    And every day I light candles and pray.”
   The woman's tears fall from her beautiful eyes,
   They touched the ground of the tree
   And dropped on its leaves…
   “Don't cry, dear “ replied the willow,
    I'm here beside you, I hear and feel,
    I was also a maiden one day in life
    Waiting my beloved I came here to cry
    Near the lake and mist.
    Years passed by ,he never returned
    And my longing increased
    One day I just woke up and found
     My hands transformed into green leaves
     My body " to stem of a willow tree.
    God gave me peace , I'm still crying
    But I don’t wait for him.
    The woman in green was amazed
    She felt suddenly quite inside herself,
    She stood little with opened eyes
    Gazing the lake, then kissed the tree
    And turned away.
    The willow saw her smile, she never came
    Again to the mist and lake land,
    But her autumn leaves scarf is still there…

He was so still, as frozen
tough he was alive,
his rough skin had color
of mud and rain with dust,
his eyes looking
helplessly obsessed
by the taste of fresh blood,
mirrors of the prey -
like ancient God of Evil,
master of the Nile,
he swam calmly hidden
in the mud and sand...

His open mouth -ready
to **** had sharpness of knife,

A little girl in pink came
in front of his sight,
looking with curiosity
his deep empty eyes,
"Can i take him at home, papa"
she almost cried...
'he isn't alive now, sweetie,
he is just -- paralyzed"

-nour-
June-013

All I want to determine, to think out, is your perception about Purity and cleanness.
You could find so little written about them, even they should be most important part in someones life. Purity has many levels of existence :

- Purity of heart
- Purity of mind
- Purity of body
- purity of spirit
- Pure aura/ energy

As we can see they are all connected. Nowadays everyone want to be "pure" in one of these levels, but rarely someone think about all of them, as constant essence. You can't have so high level of purity of mind, heart and spirit, if you allow yourself to have any kind of "uncleanness" of body. That doesn't mean to not "take shower", even that is something too simple, missing from some part of humans...But it means - realize what harms your body and avoid it! For example smoking and alcohol and drugs, they all harm your entire body energy, that why if you want to be pure from outside, be pure also from inside! The sinful thoughts are also included, they can be avoid by participating in right and good activities, which decline your mind of them...For example, we cant expect from one smoker, or alcohol addicted person, to have full image of "good and bad" means "right and wrong" actions. What we see many times, is not what is the essence. We can see a beautiful woman, but she is nothing, if she is not pure inside. The energy of harm affect all parts, and one day she will wake up as a little monster...If she allows the evil to grow inside her. It's about all kind of restrictions - from harmful action.

- nour-
June-013

When I'm in my house
near to the lake,
I love to watch
the blue rain drops
swirling in quiet circles
on the lake surface,

As if your fingers
touching my skin,
provoking feelings
and colorful spin
in my stomach...

When I'm in my house
near to the lake,
I watch the little stones
in my zen garden
imagining the silence
of the high Planets
listening the cooper bells
gentle voice singing,
somewhere a sudden
noise of bird moving
the green leaves with her wings

As if with you on the grass
relaxing, with closed eyes,
your silence is melody which
melts my heart inside...

-nour-
June-013

Rose petals mixed with
   cherry
   blossoms
   scent
radiates my hair
Leaves of apple tree
covers my deep eyes,
   Wild
   strawberry
   juice
is squeezed on my lips
even slight strips on
my cheeks,
   Jasmine
   flower
charming perfume
covers my shoulders
and neck,
my ******* are made
of tasty
    purple
    grapes,
Down my stomach
swirling sweetness
of peach
and orange-
forgetfulness for
absent-minded head,

I'm a composition of
many tastes and fruits.

You shouldn't eat but
only look,
you can satisfy your
hungry eyes and senses,
but not your empty hands,
the love-fruits is for you
f o r bi d d e n.

....nour....
     april-013

Close your eyes now,
feel the warm wind
embrace you all around,
breath deeply,
move your purple wings
The stars are watching
over you in this lavender
night. How everything
seem so quiet and bright...

The magic of field
is touching your soul
don't look to the crow,
the darkness covers all.
You are alone -little fairy
in whispering lavender world
Now is the time for you-
not to cry, just to
spread your frigile wings
and fly with the breeze.

.........no♥r ........

The snake: Since the end of the times,
I'm dreaming for this trap, the children
Of God to tempt and possess with my
Evil plan!
But who allow me here to crawl?
The tree of knowledge has all the power
In world, but God can not order it
Where to grow…


:: © Mermaid ::
:: august -13

You are there in the centuries,
standing on the hottest sands

face of illusion, higher civilizations
everyone tried to understand,

For you they wrote so many poems,
books and pages, history archives

the unbearable block stone can't hide
what you have inside your cold womb.

Pharaohs, kings and dynasties are
there to come and go as shadows,

Embraced by you their faces remain
deep in underground finding the truth,

but you still live proudly with the time,
until existence of the earth and sun
return you to the ashes of greatest love song.


-nour-
June-013

When I look into the mirror,
I see myself in million parts
Of me " as some are unknown,
From my far away past,
Some are shining and sweet
As memories of childhood,
  Some are covered with dark "
(but when I see them turn my
head aside) " and some have
my face with your eyes,
some have short hair as a boy,
some have long silky hair of a doll,
some have wildness and insanity,
some have romantic lonely dress...

How can I simply look, observe them all?
Forgetfulness is growing in my soul,
But your image and your piece of puzzle
Here missing, I want to find it in the night
With your red kisses,
I want to hold you in my heart,
To feel the timeless breath of love,
Of my need, of silence and eternity
And look again deep into your mirror core.

- nour -
  June-013

You cant sleep if you are far
From me,

The bells of church wake me up with
First morning down in pink,
Here in the Melancholic town.
The adhan voice for prayer
Had woken your mind long ago…
But your eyes are so tired with
Longing to see me…

You wake up with thought of me
And every time you sleep with
Secret, precious picture of my face
Your eyes are looking to the world
There in the burning sun of Ramadan,
But they see just my blushing cheeks.

You cant sleep if you are far
From me,

You need me just inside of you
In your hot burning arms ,
Full of sparkles and fire you are,
Your need is never satisfied.
You just want to hug me tight
As if you swallow me completely
And me to live inside you..

How do you see me in your eyes?
As little fairy in a dress of tulip white.

But am I not so dangerous for you?
While coming in my Melancholic room
In moon full night,
You want to breath my smell,
To inhale my essence, all of me,
You want to touch me and embrace me,
But I coulodnt be enough for your
Hungry senses.

And i'm still asleep in peaceful dream
With stars, while you whisper again "
“ I adore you, sweet sister of mine”

Introspection of time,

      Floating gracefully

      Until the dawn

      Until the moon rise,

      Until the star fall

      Until my dream light

      Appear in the orange

      Bright passion glow

      Of your eyes "

      Eternity is there,

      In your warming arms.


      - nour -
        June-013

Memories are melting in me
In my mind as an old book pages,
With smell of timeless dreams,
Of ink, fingers, love and breath
New generations are going and
Coming again on the scene,
Just you and me remain the same,
As pair of green parrots in our cage.

- nour -
  June-013

Introspection of time,

      Floating gracefully

      Until the dawn

      Until the moon rise,

      Until the star fall

      Until my dream light

      Appear in the orange

      Bright passion glow

      Of your eyes "

      Eternity is there,

      In your warming arms.


      - nour -
        June-013

Time is restless train,

the more you travel,
the more it irritates
your senses, you see
the changing views of
nature, trees, fields
with wheat and corn,
sunflowers and memories,

Time is restless train,

until you go to the end
you forget what was your aim,
you forget what rest from you,
in which fast wagon you are
how long time did you travel?
who you are and where do you go?

Finally is all the same,
the train is heading to the
last station of endless lake.

- nour -
  June-013

And suddenly…
The darkness in the sky
Thunder once more the
Voice of master
Full of anger, sadness and
Disaster,
“What have you done!
Children of Eden…
Not knowing shame in my
Fantasy realm
I've loved you all the time,
Why this that fruit?
Was for you forbidden
Did you forget?

Eva : dear master, we are
The one to regret, please forgive us!

No, not forgiveness, but punishment
Forever you will accept!


:: © Mermaid ::
:: august-13

Angel Moon,
come in my dream,
let my soul touch
your blue light stream!

Angel Moon,
open my eyes,
put stars inside,
make the night shine.

Angel Moon,
embrace me with love,
see the white sparkle
like snow in my room,
make me forget all
the worlds gloom...

Angel Moon,
come in my heart,
cast your moon magic
on me, let our souls
never be appart!

......no♥r ......

I lost my memory,
All around returned to shadows,
Ashes, little sparkles flying on my
Mind, just I remember a view:
Sitting on a balcony with you,
Cup of coffee, sadness in my soul,
Melancholic air hardly we could breath "
It was something as pressure in us,
But holding our porcelain cups with
Fresh made coffee and milk,
We managed to realize through the
Train of time, this moment will be frozen
There in our minds. Forever.


- nour -
  June-013

Exquisite stranger

Your system is breathing
With a high speed winds
Mysterious nine rings
Swirling continuously
Around your face
With dust, rocks and ice "
Particles of isolation,
Heavy dreams, strong
Heartbeat. Pieces of blue,
White, yellow and violet
Sixty two moons orbit you,
So to feel save, harmonious
Love, for sixty two years in space.
We love you, Saturn,
Your atmosphere of ammonium
Crystals in pale yellow hue…
Attracts our mind, what is behind you?
Deep metallic heart of hydrogen,
Of helium and gases " beats inside
Your giant body…
Where your existence started,
While our dust will vanish millions
Years…ahead.

I'm a child of Saturn,
  With power and grace
  I'm turning in the Space
  Timeless, vast, sprinkled
  With stars, moons and suns

  I'm always alone,
  In the mirrored universe
  I see my father Saturn
  From far away, sunk in
  Clouds of dust.

  So many galaxies died
  Until I reach him finally.
  His rings of rocks and winds
  Embrace me with his love,
  His heart of liquid hydrogen
  I feel from distance how it beats
  With pulse of pure loneliness.

  I'm Rhea, dressed with light
  Of little moon, tulle and lace.
  You couldn’t see me now,
  My shadow is ahead,
  I hide my face behind my father.

© n.nour

The sorrow grips my senses
I'm drinking from the poisonous apple,
Now my eyes are suddenly opened for
The new light of the earth, and my mind,
Still dull, expecting punishment of hell.
In my innocence I never knew,
What is that Time, and space, heaven and hell.
Truly I was living in Eden?

My body has tempting curves,
And my skin is so soft,
My hair has the color of wheat…
My eyes seem like mirrors of lake,
Just in this sadness I could notice that!
Oh, Adam, you will adore my new essence
Of woman and Goddess of love!

Since than my price will be
To suffer birth pains and ages
To go, my life is not an endless joy,
But as a lonely flower I'll grow…
From the knowledge apple seed
Spreads its shining spirit inside me.


:: © Mermaid ::
:: august -13

Little drops of
consciousness
in my hair,
morning rain
of your sorrows,
You're longing
for the white me-
unknown me,
untouchable me,
your need comes
as a late cherry
blossoms on a
spring tree,
i feel your tears
on my cheeks,
your heart-
in my hands.

When your silence
covers my shoulders,
I feel the thrill of breeze,
blowing through my broken window,
smell of flowers, devotion and dreams,
Your smiling face is stamped in my
mind, colorful night, no sound around.

Just your pure presence,
your rain, just your arms,
your scent,
your look,
moving me inside deep.



-n o u r-
june-013

I received your letter, my heart,
It was late when it arrived "in the night,
And all the time I touched the paper,
So strange smell it radiated, touched
The ink letters with your handwriting
Written so fast, with careful hand,
Kissed it, as I would kiss your gentle fingers.
But it was late,
My blood couldn't stop now flowing,
I'm not afraid to die,  just now as if in
Your hands, holding your letter I was
Dying.

- nour -
  June-013

Sunrise appear in
Golden glowing cirlces
in front of my sight -
Splitting surreal sound
of whisper and hope
all inside my mind..
Golden sky opens
its cloudy arms,
taking the doves in
mystical asylum-
Morning pure shine.

..........no♥r ~...........

All I know is the sense of being

Growing butterfly wings
in the shimmering sky
I raised my head,
looking
At the long
autumn hair
Of the poplar tree,
Leaves trembling
in the cool wind
Until my lavender hair
wraps around
the trunk of tree,

My source of energy.

I would like to discuss ...
- space - breath -
with myself
- space - smile -
what is poetry
for me and what
for you it could be?
This is not poem,
but a column, just
with you and me -

for me - poetry is
not a competition,
smiles or pictures
or reviews, or
sweet compliments
for your pen skills...
Poetry as i see and feel-
is a pure pleasure to write
and to live in this verses,
poetry is essence and sense
of life, it is philosophy and
deep understanding of
eternity of soul, and
could be more -most of all
poetry is Love for world,
for God and human beings,
it's sensual, or calm, streaming
in the high or law spaces,
but always in the turn of time,
poetry is Eternity of your eyes
and sound, melody of the past,
present and future, mixed
with you own heart.

-nour-
June-013

I would sleep,
just to wake up in your arms
and my eyes to look at you
as for the first time,
I would seep
in Full moon nights,
even with Venus and Saturn
in the skies,
just to see your honey smile
in my dreams,
I would sleep on the grass,
on the cold ground,
if you'll be around,
I would sleep and
even not wake up again,
if you could come with me
in my deep dream-land,
if we could stay there
forever in love,
I wouldn't wake up anymore.


-nour-
June-013

There were three brothers,
once upon a time,
in a far away land
living with all memories
behind -
They had just one treasure
in the world -
little cute sister
as miracle of all girls,
She had long golden plait,
she was delightful and fine
in snow white dress,
they called her Lina,

One day with cold rain
and darkness from skies,
the evil witch spelled on
her magical cast,
transforming her body
and soul in the single
apple tree, she hoped
the magic forever to last...

The tree bears golden
apples with scent of love,
The witch didn't want to
take her cast away,
she looked her in the
crystal ball,

Her three brothers were
sick from deep sadness,
with her the sunlight was gone,
and their mind sank in madness.

The witch felt pity on them
and turned them into three
mysterious dragons, who flew
and fought in the night -
They were red, yellow and green,
They slept under the tree,
where her sister's soul was in,
started to cry with dragon tears
for her loss, even to die they
didn't fear, just to have her
again in their arms.

But most of all the Red dragon
missed her, from his warm
painful teardrops, a golden apple
turned into young beautiful girl,

There she was again!
with her golden long plait,
made of love and jasmine scent.
She appears and covered the sunlight
with her magical smile...
The witch was so old and helpless
in this time,
So it was the moment for the
Dragon fairy to come -
she sprinkled her dust
on Red Dragon, until
of charming brother prince
he had his form...

And then on Yellow and Green,
Never such fairy wonder was seen!

since all the time we knew
from the tells of fairies,
We could easily guess
in the end, they both
were happily .......
married.


.......nour......
       may-013

My brother Ali,
I'm writing you
in the silence of
the star night,
when the air around
is so clear and bright -
while you're in your
remote student house,
I'm safe in our home,
locked behind many
doors,

Dressed in transparent
white night gown,
with light blue bundle
around my *******,
around my silky hair
tied,
I want to dream about you
this night -
Remembering your sweet
forbidden kiss,
when you came
so close to me once
when we were in fight,
You couldn't stand your
anger pain and need,
then lost control, you took
me in your arms so tight,

I can't lie -never wanted
to escape from you,
just pretend, now the
image in on my memory
like stamp,
how you kissed all my
face, my cheeks and my neck
.......
All your body hugged me all,
as if in dance,
my senses sank in fog
and dizzy I almost faint.

In this late time, I miss
you, think about you,
love you -
stamp my blood-red lips
on the envelope for you
to kiss, wishing you
to study there well,
good night and sweet dreams!


.....nour.....
     may-013

I remember when I was a little girl,
Every time I was crying, they couldn't
Relief my fear, even they showed to me
a mirror " my face all in tears,
I couldn't recognize myself " but
They were telling me “see yourself
Now, do you see how you are
Ugly when you cry? You never should!”
And I started loudly…

now I never cry, hardly look myself
into a mirror, but with smile,
I couldn't cry, as your hearts do now.
I couldn't laugh as your hearts now.
But my tears flow every time, when
I see his face in front of me. I just cry
and smile in the same time.

-nour-
June-013

I always saw her smiling
at me and at the people
in pure way of a child,
as if she just woke up
to go to school,

She was so optimistic
with shining face of sun,
whatever I was feeling,
her voice makes all my
darkness, fears gone,

She was so wise as fairy,
and all I could say is
thank you, my sweet
granny, for all you been to all!

I always will remember
and keep you in my soul,
You were the silver fairy,
with little silver hairs
and pure heart of gold.

-nour-
June-013

How many corridor views
I could imagine and see
How many ways and stations,
And turns in shadows
In a distant highways,
I walked on a dusty roads,
Where many steps in black
And white I could follow,
But I choose myself, flying
In my tiny ballerina shows "
Just dancing in the air of hope,
Without to find the real you…

How many roads with flat and
Shining pavement of stones
I walked " to see unique crowds
Dressed in elegant fashion coats,
In grey, red and beige "
But I just turned away to the bridge
Just to follow myself, in my so
Old fashioned childish tutu dress.
without to find the real me...

How many forest paths, covered
With mud and thorns and rose hips
I had to view, to search,
But roaming in myself,
In my only body, my own legs,
My own arms, my own *******,
My own face, my own eyes
I finally found you "
Your unique self "
Waving to me from
The other shore…

- nour -
   June-013

Her gentle naked arm,
With color of the peach,
Stretched in the sun
To the magical fruit of freedom,
in her eyes - curiosity,
on her lips - lust,
on her tongue - desire
to taste the forbidden.
Time and tree were frozen,
No sound, no voice of bird,
No slightest move from above.


::  © Mermaid ::
::  august-13