Walking along this winding path makes her  feels isolated and the absolute loneliness makes her more afraid.

Each move is made so carefully in the anticipation  that the pandemonium will surely invade.

When will she know which way  to go, when will it be clear to her which turn she must take to be  free.

The courage that will guide her home is there buried inside but sadly she just can't see.

A force much more powerful than she may ever realize is flowing thru her body now.

She struggles to be all that they expect her to be but her problem is she can't even begin to fathom how.

Sharing stolen lust filled kisses covered by the darkness  of the night.

His teasing whispers caressing my neck underneath the brilliant star-lite.


Enticing the fire raging inside him with the cunning look within my  eyes.

A heated passion unable to restrained but alas must remain in disguise.


The anticipation of each rendezvous is more intense than the one before.

Giving in to our hearts desires even if for just a second more.

The need for our bodies to feel as one is much too hard to fight.

This secret love full of intoxicating emotions is hidden in plain sight.

In the games we play our imaginations are allowed run wild and free.

Refreshened by love and new passion are why husband and wife we will always be.

When I needed some one to lean on
You stepped away and watched me fall.

You said you would always lift me up
When I was crashing down you did nothing at all.

Any time you needed a sholder to cry on
I was the first in line to be there.

When tables turned and I had to cry
My sorow was too much for you to bare.

You cut me deep, my soul left to bleed
With your lies and wicked schemes

I don't need your fair wheather friendship
You take two-faced to a whole new extremes.

You left me, with no notice no warning, in an instant you were gone and now I have no home.

You were the one that could, at least for a moment, make me forget all the interference and now I'm all alone.

How selfish am I to cry out for you to stay, to beg you not to leave me despite the agony you must feel .

I watched you softly release your last breath, as the life left your beautiful green eyes I kept thinking this can't be real.

You think you will feel like all the cliches, so much to say, so young,  so much time ahead, but as for me I felt this hole.

This wretched space within began growing, consuming everything ; my heart, my passion until it finally reached my soul.

You taught me to be strong, you showed me that I can endure anything but my heart aches with despair and inside I feel empty and forlorn.

The nights mesh into the days but I keep pretending I'm ok, I will be strong,  between my sad reality and my false bravado for the moment I am torn.

In the grander scheme of all things in this world  my worries seem so..... inessential or small, almost foolish and self involved.

My sufferings are no more extraordinary then those of a stranger, but I feel like I am being whipped around inside a monsoon of sadness, while nothing gets resolved.

I can't let myself burden others with the sorrow I tightly lock away,so I shut myself inside my head and face them all alone.

I conceal my angst, and  if I continue to wear a smile the truth will be safe behind my magnificent wall of stone.

I feel like I'm going insane,  I can't find the words to articulate the chaos that is  dominating my mind.

Each time I find the courage to try and open up fear pulls me back, all the while it is boasting ...."relief you shall not find".

The fear of what they will think if I lay it all out and  let them pick thru the horrid memories that I have hidden away.

Will they bother to try and understand the real me, will they still love me unconditionally, but more so will they even stay?

Please Stay

If only for just one moment longer

Stay and

Hold me, till inside I feel stronger


Just Stay

So we can watch the night turn into day

Stay because

With you I can chase my thoughts away.


I need you to Stay

Without you here my soul grows weak

Stay let me

For once, be the comfort that you seek


If you Stay

I can drift away to your heart's rythmic tone

Stay for inside

I dread the idea of going thru this all alone


You must Stay

In your eyes I have found my way home

Stay and save me

From my broken soul doomed to blindly roam

No matter race,  creed, or  color
A brother is a brother,
    I must admit the mist ova ya eyes is
         Drivin me crazy
You say your sight is
To hazy.
        

       Crimson flowin thru us
          We all bleed the same
   Blood
           But you got on blinders you
         Can't see thru The flood.


         Being abused , mis-used and jaded
         Turned
               Something so    
         Simple
          Into something
           Complicated.


        Many out there all alone  
      Steady beat'in down  
    Their own soul
         Fight'in with themselves
   Not carin that
        That lives gonna be    
  The toll

Struggle'in thru this reality
      Addictions they must  
    Feed
Same restless cats be the Ones
       Don't even know there
     Own seed

         We need to open our eyes
        Start take'in charge of
      Our minds
       Right now we're search'in For an anwser
          That we ain't truely  
        Try'in to find