The tingle of your whisper sends shivers as gently you try pulling my body near.

My breath escapes me momentarily and a quite moan is all that you can hear.

My heart begins to race as thoughts of passion creep into my head.

My body, no longer fighting,willingly going wherever  it is led.

Fueled by softness of your hands as they caress, wanting takes over me

Your intoxicating lips, with each well placed kiss, allows my imagination to run free.

Our bodies now intertwined causing my senses to burst to life with desire.

My body yearns for what's about to be, begging for you to take me higher.

In my life there existed a relentless feeling of anticipation that was buried behind a mound of lies

All along it was just me wishing that HE would have made an attempt, but instead he cowardly continued to hide.


To hear the first part of my story told by him and see if truth ever lied behind my daddy's eyes.

At least a chance to ask the questions that, for far to long, I have kept locked away deep inside.


  I know that my sharp tongued and quick wit was maternal but I wonder who's smile I wore?

A whole part of me is hidden   and ,without him, the answer to these riddles I shall not find.

  My long slender body and this smooth copper skin he gave to me, only in this I am able to be sure.

  I crave to feel the warmth of his loving embrace but I fear it will fail compared the picture I keep in my mind.

He never gave me a chance to be daddy's girl, a chance to fight  and see just what kind of life a life with us would be

  That chance is gone now, you left this life with no goodbyes, I won't get the chance to look into someone's eyes and finally see me.

Inspite of all my efforts, I do not  know not this reflection, I and we have slowly begun to blend.

In my quest to be your rock I left my identity upon the shelf, so now quietly  I must pretend .

Our fates became intertwined  and to give you what you needed I willingly put  myself last.

I try to shield you from the haunting demons that have swelled up from the past.

On the outside I seem  invinciable, impervious to the pain, but secretly I walk with haste.

I lock  my fears and sadness deep  inside my soul and pray they won't be traced.

I'll continue to keep up my charade so all will see your smile shine brighter then before.

There is a price, you see the more brilliant  you shine the dimmer I grow & soon  "I" will be no more.

Recently it's as though my mind, my body , but most of all the entirety my soul, are confined within a perpetual limbo, they're suffering, neglected and abused.

My thoughts are smashing into each other while fighting against one another, amidst a whirlwind within perfect storm, ripping at my emotions, which by themselves have been confused.

Beneath my skin there lies this undefinable rage, a monolithic knot of sadnness and fury with an insatiable hunger I can not stifle, so it just keeps growing.

With my eyes wide shut I lock away my voice and continue with my facade, in my stillness and silence a smile is worn, in hopes of no one knowing

A small part of me utters, in an almost breathless whisper, for help, boldly but softly I cry " hurry, i have lost myself again, please come and set me free".

But those whispers, they are drowned out and beaten down by the more dominate constraining force within, and it's motive......merely is to hide me.

I am wandering, meandering aimlessly around what once was the most familiar path I've ever traveled... my life

Unrestrained thoughts and memories that I tried to rid my mind of, in a awful frenzy race in... each one cutting like a knife.

There's an emptiness, a massive void is now spreading through out the place I would lock away the sadness, as it now is flowing free.

What a beautiful disaster it will make, when these sullen clips of my trouble mind are played for all the world to view and like a plague take over me.

Once upon the memory of the most intoxicating dreams.

While strolling thru the starlite forest, there stood the fairy queen.

A magnificent shimmer flowed from the tips of toes  to her firery red hair.

Such majestic beauty was there in her eyes I found myself lost in her stare.

She whispered of tails filled with fairy magic kept hidden but still in plain sight.

She told how she kissed awake the stars and brought life into the night.

I was enchanted by  the sweet sounds of lulabyes that the fairy queen sang.

Don't let her size fool you, beyond the edge of the forest her fairy voice rang.

In awe I watched as she whisped thru the sky as if she were dancing with moon beams.

Once upon the meomry of the most intoxicating dreams.

Barely above a whisper I hear a calling to me

Drawing my body near

The seductive voice that beckons belongs to the beautiful sea.

A gentle kiss by the waves sprays across my face

As slowly I dip in my toes

Refreshing is the coolness captured in our first embrace.

I'm in awe of her power each ripple she makes is so bold

Exploring  myself as I dive

Deeper and deeper I sink releasing my secrets untold

My senses may burst from my journey tring to take it all in

A memory eched in my soul

The wonder inside me when the sea washes over my skin.