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While loving you,
I had forgotten who I was.
I loved you with a bleeding heart clutched in cracked palms.
I let myself believe that love was all I was,
That you were the source of it all,
And without you I would become nothing more
Than a dying man next to the Fountain of Youth long drained.
You made me believe
That you were my only Galaxy,
And going beyond you would be unfathomable.
What a beautiful prison you were,
So beautiful I didn't realize
The way you caged me in with pink-tipped fingers,
And locked me away with a glittering smile.
I allowed myself to believe that you had kept me all these years,
When really I was the one who held the key but refused to use it.
When I burned for you,
You made me believe my flamers were not enough to keep you warm.
You looked at my ashes with disdain
Walking away without even bothering to sweep me back together.
It has taken me a while to realize
That you are neither my keeper
Nor my salvation.
There will come a time when you and I will be uttered in the same breath,
And my heart will stutter in a familiar pattern lost in half-forgotten memories,
But then it will remember itself,
That its beats are not meant to give someone else life,
But to assure mine.
You will become another memory soaked in sepia tones.
But God,
I hope my memory is one that haunts you forever.
(g.h.) // 12:03AM
 Aug 2017 Just Melz
Dark Delusion
They see me and I don’t see them,
They’re running in circles inside my head.

We’re on the highway,
Driving past my changes.

They’re driving me insane,
With the speed of time.

They kicked me out.
It was the only way to achieve my dreams.

I’m now running,
Stumbling and falling.

It’s too fast,
The changes that I do.

They wanted me to realize what i’ve done,
And the things I can’t atone.

I’m a book,
A book you can never read.

I gets longer, shorter.
Everything changes with a single word.

They gave me wings,
And wanted me to carry them.

I carried them over the sea of my past selves.
And wanted me to stop.

They destroyed my wings,
Making us all fall down.

I’m now lost in the sea of regret,
Making me cry tears to fill the sea and drown it all.


My sadness swallowed them all,
Merging them into my worst nightmare.

I’m now running again,
Getting chased by my demons.

I wish I could fly away from it all,
Never stop, never look back.

But everything I want will never happen,
The whole world is against me.

I have too many sins to ever be able to pray.
But I still pray for my life to continue.

And then it happened,
Wings.

I finally got my wings,
I jumped off the cliff I've been chased up to.

And I flew and flew,
Until I realized I was falling.

I only asked for wings,
Not how to fly.

I landed straight on my head,
I died, together with everything I’ve been running from.

I can never escape my nightmare,
Not even a wish can help me.
 Aug 2017 Just Melz
Tokyo
I'm fine. I really am. I'm not upset. I'm just tired. I'll be fine. Don't worry about me. I'm ok. I don't want to talk about it. Just leave me alone. I'll be alright. I'm not angry with you. Don't be upset. I told you I don't want to have this conversation. I don't need to. There's no reason to worry. I don't even want you to open your mouth. I just want to be left alone. I don't need help. That's for day dreamers. Oh, Now my heart is broken.. you fall in love, you cry for a while, and maybe you start to think like me. "How are you feeling? You don't look okay? Are you okay?"I cried for you. Where were you? Where did you go? And tonight, I'll fall asleep with you in my thoughts. Why are you letting me go? "She talks about you like you put the stars in the sky.

Yes I'm fine. I'm feeling better. Thank you, still a little out of it. Thank you though. Sorry, what was that? I wasn't paying attention. Yeah. I'm fine. You don't have to interrogate me. What's that? Oh nothing in particular. Just doing a little thinking. I was waiting for you to come.. You never came. Why didn't you ever come? I needed you. No, please don't leave me. Don't go. I don't want your help.. You're a ****. I waited for you. It's like a love cycle, and then your heart gets broken. Than you cry some more. Please, I need you. Please. No, leave me alone. I said I'm fine, just go. Wait. Don't leave. Please. Why did you leave me? What did I do to you? I don't know what to do. I'm running out of band aids dear.. It's ashame.. We've all become such broken things. You complete me. Please don't leave me. I just can't do this anymore. I don't want to do this anymore. Maybe I expect too much.. I'm gonna grab the rope, and if you try to stop me, I'll slice my wrist. Don't go.. Please stop me. I can't. I can't. I don't know. I'm so confused.
So tonight I'll fall asleep with you in my heart.
This is a conversation between myself and the thoughts that we're going through my head at one point in time. I always felt lost. Like I needed someone. But I pushed them away. And ended up hurting them while I was hurting myself.
I tried to love a boy with winter in his bones and frostbite on his lips, but I still couldn't wash away the taste of your summer.
(g.h.) // 1:50AM
 Aug 2017 Just Melz
mei
would you?
 Aug 2017 Just Melz
mei
would you believe me
if i told you
that you are the universe
in which i live in,
the air in which i breathe,
the land on which i walk?

would you shake your head
in disagreement
if i mentioned how
your smile acts as my sun,
your voice a melody
that lingers in my favourite songs,
your eyes as lambent
as the beautiful
night moon?

would you think of me
in the far future
on quiet evenings by the windowsill
as you reminisce the times
we spent together,
the memories i replay constantly
in my mind,
of days i wish will never die?

would you?

i hope you do.
i hope you do.
 Aug 2017 Just Melz
The uniVerse
words at most
are sign posts
never touching
what's real
minds watching
yearning to feel
and at least
the beasts
of burden
I'm sorry
i beg your pardon
i didn't mean those words
that cut to the bone
the words said in anguish
the words that you moan
love has its own language
that communicates by touch
you speak to me
you tell me so much
the words I weave
are a cry for help
please don't leave
this is what I felt
fault lines through and through
cracks in my sentences
words no longer the glue
the endless relentlessness
of thoughts
circling like sharks
they haunt
my deepest parts
the weakest heart
pumping out words
of dread
this is what I said
you said
the words that line our bed
sleeping on novels
we are apostles
of language
tell me how you manage
all your words
how do you discard them
with such ease
no gratitude
no need
your smile
sells more
empty words
than I could ever write
I'm never right
how could I be
when words are all I see
so please
use your lips
to silence my sentences
wrap your tongue
around my words
i promise you some
you've never heard.
words words words
what are they for
I don't want words
I want something more

https://www.instagram.com/p/ByQesvrH0_q/
 Aug 2017 Just Melz
CP
Star gazing
 Aug 2017 Just Melz
CP
I know you loved looking at the stars
Sitting outside and admiring at what's ours
Shooting stats and cigarettes
I'm full of regrets

I should have come to see you
But I didn't have a clue
I know you loved looking at the stars
Sitting outside in the humid night
Where everything still felt bright

You seemed so happy I came to your side
It's still so raw inside
I look at the stars alone tonight
And I know it will eventually be alright
Because instead of looking at the stars, you're now a part of the constellations you used to describe to me  
You're up there, finally free.

Stargazing with you means that now looking at the night sky
I don't have to say goodbye.
My pappou passed away and I miss him a lot right now
 May 2017 Just Melz
Ramsha
And they have no respect for the status quo. You can quote them, disagree with them, glorify or vilify them. About the only thing you can't do is ignore them. Because they change things. They push the human race forward.
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