Born to exist in a time that was never supposed to be
Stars render us helpless
Ignite each thought yet destroy each heartbeat,
knowing it will never lay with mine
Three thousand miles away
Waking next to soft eyes
yet still so far from my baby blues
A love forced to be silenced, to remember what is possible

It was hard to see you across the room,
After years of pretending you never walked in.
Hard to remember, you're here alone.
It was harder to see you walking by without hesitation
As I had done countless times before

Yet,
It was easy to call your name,
After years of keeping it submerged.
Easy to smile, and laugh with you again.
It was easy to see you hadn't changed,
And why I had to walk away.

Among the nights that came so slow
A murky silhouette is all I am doomed to know
This unknown world flowing through my fingers
Craving more as this wonder lingers

Undefinable by action
Yet definite in nature
Oh why do you haunt me
Beautiful creature

I reach for your thoughts
And fumble divinely
You've hidden them well
Ever so kindly

Fallen my palms
to the nape of your neck
Bringing you closer
Unable to see my curious wreck

I could keep the midnight sky forever
for it clasps our hearts calm.
To wait on this endeavor,
is a reality far too long.

Seven hours in the hush of the night
Oh what perfect insanity.
Will the sunset draw you in again?
The only time we are abandoned together.

Apart from this stale atmosphere
We've become so accustomed to.
In this unknown land i'd adore to call me home,
Perhaps one morning it will be my own.

Why do you keep secret when it's time to face the world?

Darkness brings thoughts of you
Over my concrete walls like fog
Cloud this mind
Move oh so slowly

Filling each valley with an unclear desire
Not a moment left untamed
Gently roaming and expanding
A thousand midnights yet, not one the same

So afraid of morning
Clean and new
But left behind, a beautiful sight
This subtle glimpse of you

Which lay upon each blade
To soak back through
To the core of my mind
So still and so confused

The tracks that change and unchain mind
as if to chase who I should have been.
The metal that has discovered me.
But through these ***** fogged mirrors,
my makeup stays the same.
Yet I realize,
I've grown to fall in love
with what I do not recognize.

I let my thoughts leave as these rails
Lead me.
Bring me anew,
if only to leave the old.
Lonesome heads on windows
and nearly exploding for words.
Grabbing onto any passing strangers breath,
desire for their unknown tales
Desire to know it as if it were my own.
Connect me.

Drive me
towards sanity with a gentle side to side rock
and a slight hum you can't ignore.
Fill me.
Melody upon melody flowing
through mind and state.
Befriend me.
How odd it is to feel most belonged
to a place not meant to keep a single soul.

You were the season I came to know
I'd watch the sky alter it's shades
From love until dusk and lust until dawn
In my ear, along my neck
with the coldest softest blades
the wind howled your name
and through my bones back again
Then eventually watch you turn away
We began to fall into tune
with the subtle melody of autumn's heavy moon
But God did I hope one winter you'd stay