How is it that you don't think I know?
Acting completely different,
This isn't you.
The more you do this,
The more you get under my skin.
It makes me angry.
You are only looking for attention.
I have only one thing to say.
Be careful,
My friend,
For you will eventually find
The attention you were looking for.
And it will be different than you thought.

I stumbled,
And I fell down a dark hole.
I ended up with plenty of bruises,
As I hit the jagged edges on the walls.
I fell for a very long time.
But,
I finally hit the bottom.
It was the worst pain-
I had ever experienced.
But all that mattered-
Was that I was alive.

My favorite time to go to the ocean-
Is when the crowds leave,
The umbrellas go away,
And the darkness of night falls upon the sand.
The stars glisten like the diamonds they are,
And I just sit,
And listen to the waves pound against the shore.
Because no one else is around,
They tell me their secrets,
And speak to me stories of long journeys.
I listen for hours until I become tired,
It makes me sad to leave,
But I can only wish,
To come back tomorrow.

I swear to you-
Go to any ocean or mountain view,
And I'll be there.
I might be sitting in a chair,
Or perhaps upon a rock,
Or maybe I'm just standing,
Admiring.

You will know it's me,
By the way I am looking at the beauty.
I will be smiling.
My eyes will be shining.
I might even close my eyes,
And just listen to the songs of the world.
You will recognize me immediately.

Join me.
Join me and we will admire together.
Come find me,
And sit beside me.
We will love the world together.
All you have to do is recognize me.

I promise you.
Go somewhere beautiful,
And I'll be there, too.

Sometimes-
I wish you would look behind my eyes,
And listen to me when I'm silent.
I wish you would pick through my thoughts-
And automatically know how I feel.
I wish you could see the view I have of the world-
That I cannot explain out loud.
God, I wish you could see what I think,
When I'm silent.

Sometimes when I feel sad
I go outside-
And I look at the stars.
I can always trust in them,
For they will always be there
Day and night.
The billions of diamonds in the sky.
As I lie on the ground and hear what they have to say,
They tell me beautiful and heroic stories,
And sometimes if I listen to them long enough,
I forget why I'm sad,
And tell myself to be brave
Like the stars.

Will today be the day?
When I try to be better,
Do better?
When I become who I always was
The person I am supposed to be,
And not an empty shell?

I can remember,
How good it felt-
To be the old me.
How I wish I could go back,
Will today be the day?
The day I change?