I feed the wolves with my hostility
And shred to nothing but pieces of guilt.
I make it through by a falsified truth
And breathe in the ecstasy of escape.
I’ve entered myself in a marathon
Where the asphalt has turned to burning coal
And my opponents are faceless creatures.
The sky has been painted orange and pink,
Swirled and deformed it mocks me of my pain
And clenches my lungs so I cannot breathe.
I can’t say how long I have been running,
But I know I am stuck here at the end.
The coals beneath me have finally burned
And sweltered what I should have fixed long ago.
My lungs are burned, scarred, and black from the smoke
I have breathed in for years; I cannot speak.
My ankles have collapsed on me, and I
Begin to burn and sink into the ground;
I have become faceless.
Here I burn in the *** of coals alone,
The time bomb attached to my heart will end
And I will never be able to finish
The marathon: I will fail you once again.
I lift my face from the coals and look up;
In the demonic clouds there is a light,
Translucent and yellow, I swear I can
Hear your voice amidst the sky:
“I won’t stop until I can reach and get
This off of my chest; a sense of direction
To lead you home again. You can run from
Your problems, but you cannot run from yourself.”
I throw the coals into the burning field
And ****** my body back to the beginning.
I promise you I will come back and regain
Your trust.
I understand I have promised and broken
You far too much, but I swear this is real.
I hope you can see the light that brought me home
And embrace me once again.
I’m running home.
The entire poem is almost in perfect iambic pentameter, minus a few obvious lines.