We sat and I looked at the roses
Thinking avout how beautiful this moment is
How picture perfect
A young couple in the moon light
Sitting among the trees
I could spend forever with you
You asked me why I giggled so much
What you didnt know was how ecstatic
I was to be with you
This happiness was too sureal
This was a moment I only saw in my dreams
Your lips were mine to kiss
Your hands mine to hold
This forever would be perfect
Then you had this idea
To climb the billboard
And sit up with the trees............

I dive into the deep end
Water fills my lungs
As I struggle for air
A voice calls out my name
Familiar I let myself fall
Dying dreams of me in your arms
When I come back to reality
He is the only thing on my mind.

My heart hurts
My words aren't coming out quite right anymore
I can see the sun
But I'd rather lay in bed.
Liquor Cigarettes **** and Lost Love
That's what I'm now made out of.
My heart is broken
Shattered to pieces
Laying on the floor of someone else bed room
My mind is in a constant state of
Fighting Battling Conflict Confusion
And yet
Even though lost love is my new name
My mind is on newer brighter places.
Like him.
His hair.
His smile.
The smell of cigarette still on his skin.
The way life feels when he's close
Mindlessly touching my arm
His hand brushing my back
Drifting into a peaceful state.
He is both the storm and the calm.
When hes away
I'm in the middle
Stuck in a hurricane
Threatening to ******* away
But when he's near
My god is the world beautiful
Laughter fills the night.
Smiles light up the room.
I desire
With such a burning passion
To hear the soft comforting sound
Of his heart beating as I lay on his chest.
As tears fall on my keyboard
He's what is on my mind.
I feel wretched
I feel *****
Yet
I feel so empowered
So incredibly OK
Break ups hurt
They tear a person inside out
Destroy what makes up their heart.
Their feelings
Their emotions
Everything
But yet.
I'm moving on
Pushing forward
Moving ahead on a path
I only hope and wish leads to his arms.
My mind is at battle
A relentless conflict
Between the hurt and the happy
I just want to be better
For his sake.

Go ahead and laugh at my jokes.
Go ahead and think I'm just a funny person.
But behind that witty humor.
There's years of heart ache.

Is it that bad to desire love?
To desire to be desired.
For one person out of the 7 billion on earth.
Just one to NEED you.

Isn't it bad to desire love?
When a girl who gives the world her all.
She feels lost and afraid.
That lost little girl just needs love.

Why is it so bad to fear?
This little girl...
She stands too tall and resolute.
Until darkness falls.

Why is fear a weakness?
This girl is afraid to admit, she's scared of the dark.
But it isn't the monsters outside.
It's the monsters in her head.

Why does everyone have to keep strong?
This little girl...
She only wants a home.
She only wants love.

Isn't it sad when one feels alone?
This little girl has plenty of friends...
But still feels so empty.
Friendship isn't love, caring isn't love.

Why is it so hard to love a broken girl?
This little girl would do anything to feel loved once again.
She would walk to the ends of the earth.
Just to feel that warm embrace of a lover's arms.

To be the object of one's affection.
The little girl's one dying wish.
This little girl has walked through battlefields.
Just looking for a loving embrace.

She's experienced tastes.
And now she's hooked.
Her drug is love.
And now she's going through withdraws

She just want's to be high on love again...
Is that too much for me to ask for?