She's searching for something,
to satisfy her thirst,
to end her desperation,
to end her craziness,
but she doesn't know what.

Shes searching for something,
to make her feel a whole again,
like shes not empty,
like she can jump to the sky with no limitations,
but she doesn't know what

Her heart aches and longs to find out what.
It hurts but she'll fight through this pain,
until she finds what is.
no matter how long it takes, she'll find it.

Please don't judge me,
and I wont judge you,
cause it could get ugly before it gets beautiful.

So please don't judge me,
and I wont judge you,
and if you love me,
then let it be beautiful.

-Chris B

i wish we started differently
and ended just the same

The space between YOU and I tore my heart apart.
The sound of the rip deafened my ears.
The blood gushing out blinded me,
and the sharp pain attacking my soul left me paralyzed.
All because of the space between YOU and I.


Three years later I healed.
I could hear again,
I could see again,
and the pain in my chest,
the one caused by the ripping of my heart,
sealed shut with tape and chains with locks around it.
Until a key is found, never to be opened again.

Today, I'm here,
standing, not worried,
with the key unlocking locks carefully.
I found it.
No I found him.
No we found each other and today is the day we promise to be forever.
Thanks to the space between YOU and **I