My vision is soundproof
you cant hear it at all
my words are a lame horse
they don't make movement
The sound cycle trickles
downward and through gutters
Only to create the illusion of a clear image

More like broken glass
or a thousand furry fibers
I am awake.... I think

Take one step forward
Wrap two hands around twisted ankle
Gently place foot on throat
Now put all pressure on windpipe

Like Alexander
it could be like before
A wave
of groundstomping stormtroopers

It's the way it is
when happiness was a blur
when time can't change you
but the air will **** you

It's what is inside
It's what is bleeding
hopelessness
is a shadow of a wound

I'll let this cross bleed
I'll spew out filth and fury
I will condemn you
for it is my saving grace

I couldn't measure you
to what I'd leave behind
you would come flooding back
like the sun-like a wave

To touch clean
with five fingers-how?
Reflecting into
to recommit to

To bad your old eyes
cannot see
BLINDNESS.....
this is a reaction

Dynasty in eyes
the truth is we sour
Bend my backbone
and the money harvest

God for drug
I traded God for drug
Love for ***
I traded love for ***

Human form, life,  mind
Trademark... APE

Escape on that day, I went anywhere
                                     I make motion

Tripping
my head is in heaven
We speculate and make our choices
It's time to crawl in
fall through loop hole
and make that choice

Climbing through
on backstroke on pigeon wing
this **** is thick
It's gone further, so much further
Then it ever should have
It's heavy
comes crushing
makes clear it's intent

Strongwilled,
Overwhelming....INSANE

Clearly I just cannot think harmoniously

If the land is giving
then we are finished
all we really need
is self control...... control ourselves

All that we really feel
                                      Is strain
all that we really know
                                      Is marching

Burn the piggys
We'll hold the tower steady
everyone stay focused
We'll hold the tower steady

Until birth
we will never know
Life will progressively flourish
and the gawkers will learn
That there is not much time....... maybe
I hope....... maybe?

Sink in delirium
we can sink down
into blue atmosphere

Take advice from old ways
bleed yourself
cause im dieing to meet you

It shifts sideways
amphetamine kicks in
Now they'll never find us

You covered all your tracks
drag the wounded to safety
rise past all the ranks

Subdued the  sidearms
Everything else FLASHES
into and out of
like a concussion

Perpetual madness
can misinform the weak
but we all tried
to fill the cavity

It seems broken
humanity....once bustling
full of drive and vigor
Now wrecked and sluggish

So we'll sink further
go into the caves
and underneath your ashes
our bodies will rise

This thing chokes inside,
and breathes without reason
it makes meaning endless
it puts an end to the meaningless

Through form,
and with whisper
there lay the gap
a hole was punctured
with heat and metal

Dear Lord....
if i make good with promise
maybe You could turn back these days

I must own up
to all that I have done
suture this faithless
My faceless disguise

I trust You though
I know that You are of love
the fault is all mine
and I will open for You

I am among you
we are the children of sin
the children of sin and repair

Sometimes i feel ashamed
just to be around when i get
              Doubled Over

Other times I don't seem to mind
all the faces show no signs
             Of implication

im locked between the wall and gate
I can't see much further then
                 The clearing

This time I've tried the dream
it was grey and only pulled
                  Me further

Won't you wonder where we've been
when it all comes
                 Crumbling down

Never mind, we won't see that
we are blinded by our selfish
                 Avid quest

We see it falling through the cracks
we see it bouncing off their backs
thats how its done

We hear the echo through the walls
We hear the babies down the hall
thats how we know

They feel it crawling down their throats
they feel it burning in their guts
thats how we won

Thought I saw it coming
it seemed so clean
like spoiled heads
Thought I knew you

Torn from the root
we polish our sores
we let them play
we turn over in envy

Im writhing in envy

I want to come in
I want to see your side
I want to live
like humans do

I look up...fall under
depth is shrinking
strip apart into string
touch it....so cold

I beg for sound
when I wake
honor is still cheap
time stops convulse again

These scabs, some shine
blind as the sun
I want to touch the sun
pride is reborn

Kicked to the ground
fit to the ground
this mud is mine
this mud is all mine

Picked through the killing
like an apathetic soldier
Oh it was good enough
yeah it was more then enough
I see us stretched on pavement
swimming in brain matter
constantly swimming
in and out and under
Through the calm
I watch you swim....
you swim so gracefully

Wrapped in warm arms
I can't let go
let me just peer through
the hole in your chest

I saw you the other day
but you didn't notice me
when life becomes more
then you thought it was

Into and through your eyes
weaving in and out
all eyes on the road you said
all eyes on the road again

I couldn't imagine ever going at it
all alone without you
and now my numbers are down to one
face your fears you said,  stand tall
STAND TALL

We can all just smile now
the figure head has gone
temper and relief
in dreamland

I choose the unknown
I'll walk the path with blind eye
my love, my love
I left you to the void
I left you for dead
Now it is i
I am dead inside
I am sorry
it means little to nothing
but I am so very sorry

You have squandered your talents
and you opened up
the Pandoras's box

You are not welcome here
stay out of my home
stay out of my head

It's chilling
you just laugh
At every stupid remark
that comes crashing from your lips

Your words
are a train wreck
Global infestation
universal devastation

Its over now

Hold your tiny ****
like a triumphant king
I hear you chuckle
chuckle at your little friend

How can you be so self assured
so arrogant
with everything a failure

I doubt the words
that come rolling
off of your tounge
only fever and poison

Your out of touch
you have fallen short
left us for dead
in pool of *****
in bed of lies

Your journey
through blood tube
it won't take long
like some capsule for conquest

We will wait and wait
for the horizon

The blood suckers
are all human
They are all in suits
and they grin all the time
because they know
we are locked down
they own us
Knuckle Deep

From the window
it all appears
through glass
through shard and shine
but the mind is home for now
the mind is safe for now....only for now

This will not heal
This will not mend

I'm drifting from your flourescent smile
the time machine is catapulting backwards
You are receding the shoreline
The undertow is dragging you to sea

We are scraping from the nerve
The only sense of reason
child bone and marrow

I'm sifting through your cold dead corpse
thinking of your eyes lifting myself further
I'm in to deep way over my head
breathing in their fluid,
Choking I'm your king

So I left you there
it was better for you
You have the stars now
you are in open space

I'm drawn near
and forced under
it's the subject matter
that becomes uplifting....???
Empowering,  Overwhelming, defeating

Only so often
will hopelessness
come crashing in
like the rising tide

No point in fighting

Well then
just sit in silence
let it consume the best of you

Relax
there is no rush
this will only make you stronger

Maybe one day
this will seem like a far off place
should say I care,
But I can hardly stand
I stand still in space

Some kind of burden
some kind of animal

It's too late
for so many different reasons
And time continues the count down
on unflinching clock

For as long as we can
let us be a tsunami
and crash down on everything

If only I could stand

It's ever wonder
why everyone
Including I
will never lift a finger

This time around
it slips and slides
and falls about....still....motionless
on movie screen

Thoughts of doubt
they creep about
and slip right through
every single crack....
Leading to you

I took the pill
and still i show no signs
of it helping me,
Only changing me,
Recreating me

I am better now?

These are symptoms
You cannot bargain with me
I am not the devils son
only underspoken

I am in disbelief
your constant rhetoric
generally makes me sick
You are honest words
from sharpened tounge

On some better day
when words cannot fail
when truth tends to fade
and no one seems the same

All that i remember
is the color of your couch
kind of like the universe
in some ******* way

We're sticking
with hesitation
nothing and no one
can help us now

We're ***** and swollen
but i promise
we will give back
all that you own

It's strangely deceiving
the way that you look at me
straight in the eye
I can't help but notice
how clearly you shift to one side

Do you feel elevated?
Somehow, maybe

They don't ask me
so I'll take a guess
sometimes it hurts,
and sometimes it just....

Could it be so easy
to smear my life
from wall to ******* wall

I'll take my chances
with the cold, and bitter faces
that show no signs of life

Just play your turn and take a swing

I'll take my chances
with the dead and dieing faces
that show no signs of ever returning

That's where I'll lay

So I slip away,
Turn off the lights
drown out the sun
let me slip into your skin

A sense of rejection
is no more soothing
then watered lung
But not within your skin

Where do we turn
to form the bonds of friendship
like an abscessed sore
tearing at my thigh

Overnight it seems
the world has become colder
the outnumbered lifeless limbs
are subject to the void of disregard

So I slip away
from the random ******
and I slip away
from an accute suicide

Winter has rolled around again
my shifty eyes will sting

Control factor
reports back to home
lets mother know
how the kids are doing
there is minimal damage,
only their brains
seemed to have turned milky....
short fused

It must be in the air,
or so the water carries
in flagrant disguise
so much sickness

What is left over
will only remain in darkness
in shallow water

These burials come quick
No not too deep
we want to smell
blue carnage
Scads a legion
herds of people
like cattle, drenched and soaked
from head to toe

We bury you
let eyeball peer through
so you can still see
the red mud
the many faces
contorted piles
one massive cadaver

I am a pipeline
hidden veils
i can't stop this bleeding
it will stop in time...or so I'm told

Just give yourself the meaning
to liquify your mind
your mind is a narrow cavity

For whatever reason
the dead have filled the room
For all of the terrible things
you have made us do

You are a king
in the eyes of your peasants
you mean nothing to me

You are a jem
to those who just don't get it
but you are a parasite
and you butcher all that we love

I'll never turn my back on you
I'll never force my way through you
cause your no good
your just no good

She choked me
this time it falls
this time around
my head is spinning

This thing....you
this thing....insecurity
it's coming down
on our heads

Im choking on this
aimlessly in all directions
guess I'll wander to the sea
**** eternity

I'll let her choke me
I'll let this break me

I'm floating
on back in the sea
your fine light
it's white light, like starlight

Becomes vacant and lost
gets harder to breathe
hahahahaha
I'm in your sea
your fingers are tight around my neck

Why don't you take off
all that eye can see
why don't you peel back
one more layer of i

Face to the floor *******

This is the last thing I hear

If the light of sanction
is wrapped in golden pillars
then we must step back
we must step back......and know

I felt secure
the latch was safely sealed....
from your eyes
I felt secure
in my latex suit safely packaged
so snug and fit

The sickness comes quick
and creeps up
like hungry success
have we forgotten
so easily distracted
it's easy to hide

I'll never turn you over

This time it cracks
This time it breaks open
of crevice and chasm
the device is denial

Let us horde it all
in hope and desperation
until it erupts in a bellow
wailing, devoid of clarity

They disappeared
we are not hiding them
death is taking all of this from us
I guess we shoot for greatness

To stupid and numb
to fully comprehend
even upon arrival
wide eyed and dumbfounded

Breathe truth on us
let us see through the bedlam
when truth collides
with mess we are in