An anonymous face.
A face I can only imagine.
Your words touch my heart like no other.
Such a warm embrace, to hear the words that fill my soul.
You have touched me in a way I can not explain.

I long to see you, or touch you.
To put a tangible glimpse of hope in my life,
that somewhere there is a person that makes me feel this way.

These are not just words, but feelings in the truest sense.
Feelings that are hopefully shared by one other.
Are you listening?

Words so powerful, can you not see?
In a world full of people, and you still chose me.



Matt Segin
08/96

A ponder, a whimsical thought.
Words pour through my head like rain.
My heart burns with desire, an eternal flame.
I long for a torch to hold my flame.
To rekindle a love that wants to be freed.
Why can no one see what is to be seen?
A one who cares about the little things.



Matt Segin
11/97

Have you ever seen the light?
It is all around, warming the darkness that lies dormant.
Be wary of the darkness.
It will consume you.
Look for the light.
Be the light that will guide the way.
Live the light.
Let it be in everything you say.
Know the darkness.
Know what it takes to let light shine.
Today is the day.
Today my light will be seen.
I will live in darkness no longer.
I have been touched by light.
The light that lives inside of us all.
It has many names.
Love, happiness, and joy to name but a few.
Learn the light.
Know it by all of its names.
Never forget where to find it.
It is the only thing that will never let you down.



Matt Segin
09/99

Daybreak shines.
The night has gone away.
Two people rest in slumber.
Not a word yet today.
Who shall awaken first to savor that precious moment?
To look upon the face of someone so dear...
Please...
Let it be me.
Let me be the one to capture the innocence.



Matt Segin
09/99

Why can no one hear my silent screams?
I speak my mind, yet no one knows what I mean.
They say that I am quiet, I say "Less is more."
The key to my "enlightenment"? Just open the door.
Open the door! Open the door! Come see what is inside.
I challenge you a question. You want the answer? Wait, do not hide...
Some ask for my mind. They ask what it is that I can see.
They ask for the truth, and when I tell them, they must flee.
Some look for answers. Some say they believe.
Some seek to have it all. And to them? Nothing is received.
Reach for the stars, let not this world hold you down.
In this journey of life, it is always homeward bound.
Do not strive for the future while forgetting the past.
The mistakes we've made and those lessons learned...without them we won't last.
Some point fingers. Some trade places. They refuse to take blame.
To them truth is benign, to me, they have no name.
What does this mean? What is it that I am trying to say?
To tell the meaning of it all, could take more than a day.
Now a search begins. A search that has no limit in time.
To find people worthy, to experience these words of mine.
Does that seem rash? Must I put them to the test?
To be a friend or lover of mine, they must stand above the rest.
They must be loving, and caring, and forgiving, and kind.
Qualities some take for granted. Qualities, that are hard to find.
Who will be the person? Who are the people to bring happiness in me?
To see me through the bad times. No more "I's"...there is only "We".
This is the quest, the true journey of what I seek.
To be myself, to share myself, to loving people any day of the week.
How long will it take? Only time and luck will tell.
To have these things in my life? That is a life lived well.
I am alive! Alive! Come one, come all and see.
Experience the best gift I have to offer, the very essence of me.



Matt Segin
12/99

Time to move on. The end has come.
Time to make amends for the things that I have done.
Time to reflect.
Time to make peace.
Time to make new this life I now lead.

Time to make decisions that lead to tomorrow.
Time for today. Leave in the past all the sorrow.
Time for now.
Time to live.
Time to bring into my life the things that I need.

What about tomorrow? What will happen that day?
Who is to know? It will not happen until I finish today.



Matt Segin
02/00

Stepping through my mind's eye, I can see clearly the things I want to see.
Visions materialize through imagination, making up the shores of my reality.
What is said of my imagination? Is my reality distinguishable from that which you can not see?
Where does that line begin? It seems to have a likeness of divinity.
What is it to be known when divinity touches my shore?
I want to be enlightened, with knowledge that I have never known before.
So many questions. So many things that are yet unknown to me.
Searching for myself. Trying to find the individual that I most want to be.
I want to be that person. The very best of what I can dream.
Sometimes it feels impossible, no matter what the odds may seem.
Still, I look for that inspiration. That very spark that will send me on my way.
I need to find it soon. I do not think I can wait another day.
Something...holding me back. I am not sure. I can not tell.
Something lingers from the past. Forgotten...left in my mind to dwell.
My sub conscience is telling me something. It is screaming for me to hear.
What it is I can not figure. It is this "not knowing" that I fear.
A time for searching begins. Time to look deep. Break down the walls around the pain.
Do I really want to know? Could be those very walls that have kept me sane.
Too many questions to ponder. Too many "if's" are holding me down.
I must prepare myself for the answers. Whatever the problem, I must turn it around.
Maybe...the problem does not lie in the past, but exists with me today.
Could it be the very thing I am looking for be in the present, formed with these words I say?
The solution seems twofold. A fork in the road can now be seen.
The past or the present? This decision affects the very essence of my being.
Perhaps, just perhaps, the answers lie along a different direction.
I should try to find another option while in this time of reflection.
What about my future? What would my future hold by dwelling in the past?
To be smothered in resentment? That is not the feeling that I want to have last.
I must not dwell in the past. I must use it for strength in today.
Without those mistakes I made, there would be no lessons to guide the way.
The solution does exist. It is hidden here in plain sight.
Make the decisions today, that will make my future seem bright.
Today is the key. Only today can I affect tomorrow.
To live in the moment...turn away from all the sorrow.
The past is the past. Can not change it. Must move on the better things.
Today is the moment. Live today so that we may not fear what the future brings.
That is the trick is it not? To forgive myself everyday for things gone wrong?
I must continue to learn. Continue to live the moment, and help my future to grow strong.
To decide for the future, I must accept that which is to be.
As long as I do the best I can, there will be no stopping me.
That is what I will do. Consider every decision as if it were my last.
Take nothing for granted. Learn everything. Life can go by pretty fast.
I have found direction. It is up to me to see it through.
Anything is possible. Let me see what it is that I can do.



Matt Segin
03/00

Wandering through the darkness, I am searching for the light to guide my way.
The light is there, waiting for me behind a door I have yet to open.
It is not the physical light that I seek.
It is but a metaphor for the happiness that lies within me.
My strength relies on happiness.
I must exercise my rights and my will to be happy.
I must never let the temptations of the world try to consume my light.
I must let my light shine.
Let it be a beacon to guide the wandering souls.
Happiness is only something that can be shared.
It must never be contained.
Where has the happiness in the world gone?
It seems I sit alone to ponder these questions.
It is not enough that I find it.
It is not enough that two people find it.
Happiness must spread.
It must be unlocked from where so many people have hidden it.
Why do they hide it?
They are afraid.
I am...afraid.
To know happiness is to know sadness.
To see in the light while fearing the darkness.
We must recognize this parody.
We must overcome this reality.
People...too afraid to be happy.
Disguising the feeling of not being sad as being happy.
We are lying to each other.
We are lying to ourselves.
What is another word for happiness?
How about honesty?
Can we honestly believe there is enough happiness in this world?
I strongly doubt it.
So what can be done?
We must all believe that as individuals; you and I can make that difference.
There is no one weak link in the chain.
It is the two links on either side that must inspire strength.
We all must inspire strength and happiness.
We are all a part of the same chain in the world.
Black or white, young or old, we are all human.
That is the root of all or our strength.
At this root, we are all the same.
It is this root that not enough people will admit to.
Without the willingness to relate, this world is doomed.
We must find a way to strip away the layers of hatred and pain.
Start fresh at the root in a world of trust and dignity.
To wake up every morning knowing that there is understanding.
That would be a world worth knowing.
I must not give up on this dream.
We must not give up on each other.
Only we can bring this world together.
I can not do it alone.
But I reach out my hand anyway.
I will lend my strength to those who can do the same for me.
I can do more.
I can make a difference.
I can take responsibility of my life instead of watching it go by.
I am a part of this world.
So let us live in a world where joy comes form helping each other.
Let us all be a part of the one root that we all have in common.
Let us be free.
Let us create a better world for us all.


Matt Segin
10/00

She asked me to write her a poem. But how could I?

How can I express the deepest that I feel?
I see you on the outside, but are you for real?
What do you want? Who is that person you keep locked inside?
I know there is something there. Please. Do not hide.
Open your eyes. Allow new vision. Prepare yourself.
I offered you the book of freedom. And there you keep it on the shelf.
So many days. So many times I have tried and tried.
I used to say "I love you." Til the day you rolled your eyes.
We used to play together. We used to have fun.
You used to be my angel, til the day you turned 21.
What happened that night? How did things go so wrong?
My angel has flown away. I feel I no longer belong.
**** the spirits. **** those people. Oh what a horrible night.
Your friends stood by laughing. And I? I watched my angel take flight.
Fly away. Fly away. Take your innocence far from here.
I said goodbye to my angel. And now, the future is not so clear.
What can I do? How can I make it all seem right?
I came to you the next morning, but all we did was fight.
You said you didn't remember. You'd swear it til you die.
I took you for your word, even though I think it's a lie.
I chose to forgive you. I tried hard to mend the way.
I tried to find my angel, but this new person is here to stay.
I think I'll change myself,  to something I'm not meant to be.
That was the worst mistake of my life, losing the essence of me.
The person I became, the very worst came out of my mind.
For you I lost everything. Friends and family were far behind.
I didn't seem to care. The world around me seemed to fade away.
I had lost my direction, and no one could show me the way.
I looked to you for inspiration. I wanted us to have a future.
By then it was too late. To you, I was this evil creature.
Even to me this was true. I could not believe what I had become.
The very sickness of it all, the worst, was yet to come.
We lived our days in silence, never once saying how we feel.
I thought my love would overcome, little did I know what you were to reveal.
I came home to you that night, just as I always had done before.
I went inside to relax, then I heard a wrapping at the door.
I looked at him with tired eyes, he looked at me as though he were sad.
He said, "I have some news to tell you Matt, yes I'm afraid it's going to be bad."
He told me to go away. She needed space and time to think.
His words cut me like a knife. So many tears it hurt to blink.
I asked him for her reasons. "Please, don't leave me hanging in the sky."
He denied me my answers. "Go to a friend's, and wait for a reply."
He gave me a hug and I cried deeply in his arms.
He said, "I consider you a friend. I never meant you any harm."
I thanked him for his kindness, and sent him on his way.
I went to gather some things, and find a new place to stay.
My body went numb. I couldn't believe that this was real.
I wanted to scream her name. To just tell her one last time how I feel.
I left by myself. I drove off and into the night.
Memories of you were left behind, as your house went out of sight.
I still can't believe it. Please, help me to understand it all.
I have no answers. Nothing to do, but wait for a call.
The call is received. Good news to be had.
We get back together, and I start to feel glad....
Wait, things seem to be different. It's just not the same.
Instead of the endearments, I am called by my name.
I try to comply. I say I will do whatever it will take.
The promise is one sided. Everything else seems to be fake.
I have reached a plateau. I can take it no more.
Things will never be the same, not as they were before.
I have made up my mind. It is time to set her free.
Be a child no longer. Be an adult. Find my destiny.
I came to her to tell her. I tried to be nice. I tried to be kind.
She took it all in one breath...offered me a hug, and left me behind.
So now it is over. I watched her leave. I said good bye.
The door closed behind her. I took a deep breath, and whipped a tear from my eye.
Time to move on. Time to repent. Time to make up for the things I've done.
I shall start a new chapter in my life. It begins with page one.
The new journey begins. It is a struggle to survive.
The resurgence of friends and family, help me to keep hope alive.
I am reborn. The wonders of joy and peace find their way back to me.
They help me to understand. Help me to be the very best I can be.
Still I mustn't forget. I must not forget the past I leave behind.
I must use it for strength. I now have a new mountain to climb.
Climb I must. I have to climb to reach the top.
The summit is my true goal. At the summit I will stop.
How far is it? What dreams shall become reality?
My dreams are ever changing. That answer lies with divinity.
I will live my life to the fullest. Consider everything that comes my way.
I will go on to the finish. I will reach my summit someday.
Now the time has come. Time to move on. The end is near.
Live in the present. Decide for the future. Time to face all that I fear.
Afraid I am not. Friends and family hold me true to the test.
I put the past behind me. At last. It is laid to rest.
What about that woman? What is to be said about her?
I wish you nothing but the best. A life "happily after".
I forgive you woman. I hope you can do the same for me.
The mistakes you've made, the mistakes I've made...lessons learned our remedy.
Now go. Live your life. Go do the things you most want to do.
Remember time is constant. It will indeed catch up to you.
I shall go on. I have my own life to live.
I'm sorry you will miss out. I now have so much more to give.
You asked my to write you a poem. I've done it. It's all right here.
Need you never to worry for me, I have a smile...ear to ear.



Matt Segin
12/99

I guess it's time to grow up now. Too many childish things are in the way.
Time to make way for bigger and better things. A new beginning is now forging today.
You see I never gave it much thought. I used to live life free and un-adheared.
Time went on with no recourse, but now, it is just as I feared.
Those childish impulses raged within me and became the routine I knew the best.
All the while life moved on. I never realized...and in these lines I must confess.
I had a woman once. A woman who's mere presence shook me to the bone.
To me her beauty goes unmeasured, on my pedestal she stands alone.
Together we shared something sacred. Ten million words could never explain.
My heart now has a void where there once was fusion. I must now try to transcend this pain.
We met by destiny's doing. It is a memory I hold close to my heart.
Since that fateful day I've know now sorrow. You and I had never been apart.
I didn't start this to tell that story. It was a chapter of life in tranquility.
Those memories deserve to have their pages, but right now those words have escaped me.
That is why I write these pages now. About a life in flux and transition.
Changing my life from child to adult. I can think of no better mission.
My reasons are twofold. I can not only make these changes for her.
These changes I make for me as well. It is a change for "ever after".
She doesn't want me to change for her. She wants me to be happy as I am.
She thought it best for her to leave. That decision left me a mortal man.
I am a man with hope. A hope for dreams laid in reality.
Those dreams have become my motivation, to be the very best that I can be.
This woman has changed my life. She brought out of me the joy and feelings of love.
I thanked God everyday, for bringing me this person from up above.
She thinks that if I change, she doesn't deserve the actions that I would take.
She believes that I would lose who I am, but I too know what is at stake.
I know that change can be dangerous. I know it also to be a wondrous and beautiful thing.
To make these changes now, only helps me realize the true importance of the life it brings.
The child in me can still exist, I do not need to lose all that I am.
The child must now come second. This I choose according to plan.
I have to keep him close. He is a part of me I can not ignore.
Yet now he can no longer take the lead. Not as he always did before.
The change, in words, seems simple. It's an adjustment that is possible when true.
This change at the moment is quite possible, but only worth it with you.
Here I go again. Saying that the change is only for you.
Please do not confuse the issue. Take a step back and watch what I do.
I will put that part of self behind me. And take a stand for the things I hold dear.
I will take my place beside you, soon everything will be clear.
Change is something that needs to happen. You may not know it until it's too late.
With out change there is only one direction. And I can't always go straight.
Fate is believed to have no prediction, something many have come to fear.
My fate is in my own reflection. Only now does this seem clear.
I am in charge of my destiny. Only I can decide what is right for me.
I have decided. Fate plus action, equals my destiny.
Never everything I wanted, always everything I needed, you've been a champion for a man in need.
Now is my time to show my commitment. Now is the time. This is something that will succeed.
Please don't just believe my words. This is something that must be seen as real.
In order to do that you must commit too, and give me strength that I can feel.
I do this for me. I do this for you. I do this for all the world to know.
But really I do this for us. So that our story may have the chance to grow.
The future is yet unwritten. Don't pretend to know what is to be.
The future is what we make it. Dreams can become reality.
So I write these words for you woman, not to convince you of what I can become.
I write these words so that I have direction. Only without you did I know what needed done.
Please show me that you believe. Show me that my new path can lead me back to you.
Hand in hand, out hearts together, there is no telling what we can do.
You must choose yourself. You must decide that which is to be.
I can only hope you choose in my favor. That would mean so much to me.
I'm going to change with or with out you. This I've decided anyway.
These changes will start a new life for me, starting with these words today.
In these words I've said much. I've told a story that is fit to be here.
A story of redemption...of how I am going to face all that I fear.
I fear you've chosen already. A path that leads away from what I've already become.
That would be a choice apprehensive. A choice made with out believing what can be undone.
Believe in your fear. It is the strength that points the way.
Makes you question what is right. You don't want to go astray.
Do not be consumed by fear. Something this has been known to do.
Look for me to give you strength. One, can be so much less than two.
We both have growing up to do. You have been the one to start it first.
I guess it's true about maturing. Girls start early, and boys are the worst.
You've only now made this decision. And you're trying hard to find your way.
Well my decision was right behind you. "Let's fight this one together, O.K.?"
We've come this far together you and I, to be able to suffer times like these.
If we can make it through this, I'll no doubt ask you a question that requires my bended knees.
This is the future I speak of. A one that is yet still a dream.
All it needs are You and I. Together let's be that team.
And now I leave you with that choice. I think I've said all I can say.
I give you all the strength I can muster. It will be you choice anyway.
Take care sweet woman. And know that I love you true.
I will accept what you decide. Do this not for me but for you.


Matt Segin
03/05

A blank sheet of paper is the means for great creation. It is a canvas for everyone to use.
So many ways to unlock sensation. I am an artist, searching for my muse.
It seems as if my times of creation appear, only when I can no longer find my way.
At times like these I look for direction. Where else shall I look today?
I look at my life and see, a person who's life goes in the right direction.
Though I have hit some bumps along the way, please excuse that misconception.
Right now I let my art do the talking. It represents the truest form of me.
There is no lie in what is created. This is my truth as I know it to be.
To read these lines is to know me true. It's the only way I know I can create.
To create something good is interpretation. All that, I leave to fate.
I do not create with greed in mind. Fame and fortune are not the things I need.
I do what I must to exhale my mind. This is the only merit I concede.
Why do I transform this piece of paper? Am I worthy of this task at hand?
I said before my intent is heart spoken. I just want to create, understand?
This is my canvas. For now, a pen and paper are all the tools I need.
With a pen in hand I release my emotion. What a long, strange trip indeed...
I started this at a point in life, when my direction seemed vague and unclear.
However things have started their turn for the better. It's not all as I feared.
Still, the fear is in me. It makes me stop and think for the right thing to do.
Making the decisions today, so that I can better my future with you.
What you did you had to do. I can still find no fault in the choice you made.
What's amazing is that through those times apart, my feelings for you never did fade.
Now that we have circled to each other again. A time for new beginnings is found.
Where we go from here has yet to be written. Our future has no bound.
The present has changed much. Things are certainly not the way they used to be.
Though we've found each other again, it's what I wanted, there's still an uneasiness within me.
These feelings I have should be there. Though uneasiness is not what I want to feel.
However this time I take heed to these feelings inside. After all, they are for real.
We've taken a step back from where we were. We've come back down from the fairy tale.
What we had was not "too good to be true", but maybe, just a little too much wind for our sail.
We've come a long way you and I. We're where reality of life has come to be.
To walk the path from here can have its misfortunes. "So what!" I say..."Want to take a walk with me?"
To predict the future is no one's talent. Only we can walk our path into tomorrow.
The possibilities can be limitless. Let's you and I turn away from any more sorrow.
Not every path will be the right one to take. Only by mistaking can we learn our way.
Though it's true some mistakes are hard to overcome. Let's just take it day by day.
Day to day is where we are right now. The sound of eggshells is at our heels.
Problem now is communication. We should both know how the other feels.
I told you the truth of my feelings once, and I thought that you had felt the same.
You reciprocated what I wanted to hear at the time, but now we're stuck in this solemn game.
I'm tired of holding back. I want to speak and feel as freely as I should.
What I get from you now is, "I still don't know..." and that's no longer any good.
My feelings are not to be toyed with. This is the same respect that I give to you.
Now it seems I'm only an option. Kept on the side for something to do.
This is not the time to do things half way. Now is the time to show all you keep locked inside.
Now is the time to commit to the unknown. This is what I ask, do not hide.
I ask this because it's important. I ask that you stop holding it in.
What you get in return you might be surprised, because what I offer, comes from within.
I know it seems I put you at fault. Please believe that this is not my intent.
Right now I find myself unrequited. For you my soul is bent.
In the beginning our roles were reversed. It was you who pressured me for more.
Now that we've regressed, we've still together, but now it is I knocking at your door.
You are scared for your future, and you have every right to be.
But now look what your fear has done. Just look in the mirror and see.
What you see is not who you are. It's just the facade that fear has put in front of you.
You may not know it yet, but this fear inhibits what you're trying to do.
I say this because I've been there. I recognize the hesitation and doubt.
Wanting to make right decisions is commendable, but to always be right, "no one" will figure out.
I know this because I've tried. I was once a man of sorrow in recluse.
Then I realized that tomorrow is another day. I had to flexible, there's always another option to use.
Options are always around us. Sometimes fear and doubt obscure the other paths that are there.
We must strive to look at every angle. Take your time, and decide with care.
I say take your time, but do not waste it in revealing a decision that's already been had.
Haven't you decided already? Because if you have and didn't tell me, that's an action gone bad.
That is not a threat. I speak only of my feelings at hand.
My feelings for you walk a thin line, and I feel I need to take a stand.
I'd take my stand at the place beside you. That is the place I most want to be.
You may not believe me when I say that, but these words come from the heart you see.
My words are all I have. You have left me no other choice.
With these words I hope to express what I feel. Through these pages, I now have a voice.
Our roles really have been reversed. What is it you try to do with the spirits and your friends?
Now it seems you're with them more than I. It's a little hare to comprehend.
You asked me to step back from that life. You said it threatened the life you wanted for you and your son.
I may have been slow in transition, but the changes I've made have been more than one.
What is it you're trying to find? Do you not see the things you already own?
When will you realize your actions are hypocritical? These are the actions I can not condone.
Maybe you're trying to meet someone. Maybe with your friends it's possible to drown your sorrows away.
I'm still trying to ascertain your intentions. Can you not see my problem today?
No matter what I do, or have done, so far nothing has been good enough for you.
At this point it really doesn't matter. I have my plan, and I will see it through.
What started out as something for you, turned into a better plan for me.
I just can't shake this feeling that sooner or later, there will be no more "we".
This is the point I'm at. I can feel you slowly slipping away.
My love for you keeps me blind to that fact. Though I do expect you to leave me someday.
If this is what I think, then why do I still seek a place by your side?
It's impossible to know all my reasons, but I just know I'd regret it if I never tried.
I don't believe this to be a lost cause. But the wall you've put up is an obstacle hard to scale.
The closer I get to you, the more it seems you want me to fail.
In that statement I hope to be wrong. I can not imagine that you would feel that way.
If I didn't consider it though I'd be making a mistake. And I am not ready to make that one today.
Is it fair to put me in this place? I'd much rather prepare for you to stay, rather than wait for you to leave.
However, my heart tells me I need to give this my all. I am still not ready to grieve.
Know this right now. I am committed to a life that will succeed in honor and good will.
It may not look like it yet, but with these words, an impression I hope to instill.
You can believe me if you want to. Or choose not to, and leave me to my life I'm trying to live.
I just wish that we can rid ourselves of complication. To each other I want us to forgive.
Forgiveness is possible no matter what happens. Though I'm sure it won't be as easy as it seems.
For you and I to not be together, that would be the opposite of my dreams.
I speak to you as a man of experience. I've been through this before.
I learned my lessons the hard way. That last time, my heart was trampled to the floor.
I refuse to let that happen again. This time I am aware of the situation in front of me.
That is why I step with trepidation. I know how dangerous this life can be.
I don't understand why you would leave me. Especially if it were for someone you didn't know.
You already know that I love you, and the life to you and your son that I would bestow.
Is it really that bad? Are you that afraid of a commitment again?
I never said that I wasn't afraid too, but we both are different than the people we knew back then.
I don't know what will happen. But I know that I will not be cause of grief and pain.
So many other things you have to worry for. I will not change the tracks of your train.
Love me or leave me? Is this the point to which we have arrived?
My heart sinks with anticipation. I think you answer is already derived.
Such a pessimistic view I have. Shouldn't I be looking at the glass "half full"?
Well I'd rather be surprised that you would stay. That day I would ever be thankful.
Need you not to worry for me. I am a man that has learned to survive.
Through the thick and thin of my life ahead, I have my ways to keep hope alive.
The hope I speak of is my own. It has nothing to do with you.
As I said before I have my plan, and I will see it through.
My plan as you know has been set into motion. Things have already started to fall in place.
It would just be nice to know that I could wake this next morning, alongside your smiling face.
My plan has room for you. And now I must ask that you decide.
Leave me now, or come and take your place by my side.
I am at your door knocking. Won't you please let me in?
Should you open the door and let me through, I'd take you to the places you've never been.
These places I speak of are metaphoric, not literal, per say.
In these places we could be together. To the future we'd make our way.
I leave you with these words. I've written them all with love in mind.
Should you decide to take my hand, a greater love I think you'll never find.
Please take my words to heart. That is the place from which I've summoned them to be.
I think we can put this mess behind us. And move toward destiny.
Destiny is just a word right now. Only our actions will prove this to be true.
Is my destiny to be at a place by your side? Well that depends on you.
My case has been stated. To you I've expressed the most that I can feel.
And though I still want you in my life, I need you to be for real.
Our situation is real enough. Decisions now will affect who we will come to be.
Is what we had or have worth saving? Or now has it become but a memory?
I'm tired woman. Tired of being the nice guy finishing last.
Watch what happens with my actions. A new mold has just been cast.
My change will not be perfect. I can already see obstacles ahead.
Left and right may not be my only options. How about I go this way instead?
I love who I am. I look forward to what I can become.
The mistakes in my past guide me. I'm not proud of all that I have done.
Still my path is solid. My future has hope, even in a life without you.
If we are no more I'd be in grief, but that still won't change what it is that I have to do.
Look at all this rambling. I've tried to end this story lines ago.
Every time I think there's conclusion. There's always one more thing I want you to know.
Thank you for your patience. This was my side of the story that I wanted to tell.
Decide now you must. In these feelings I no longer want to dwell.
What is this now? Is it I, now giving terms to you?
What do you think your answer will be? Because I really have not a clue.
Yes or no I ask. A simple answer is all I need.
Be honest and think for yourself, as I no longer will beg and plead.
You know how I feel. You know what life I want for me.
Consider the options large and small. You must decide eventually.
One way or the other. In this decision, there is no "half way".
I can no longer accept, "Let's see what happens." Just give me a "yea" or "nay".
I can joke about this you see. Either way I know that I will be alright.
My demeanor demands I look for the bright side. A little trick that helps me to sleep at night.
There's no humor in what we've suffered, but a bright side none the less.
Tomorrow is yet another day, but not just any day like the rest.
I take with me the experience, and the knowledge from the life I've lived.
Tomorrow I step with hope in mind, that the past can be "forgived".
I'd like to move on, but even now after four days I await your call.
Should I wait a little longer? It is you after all.
We interrupt this poem for some news that is late breaking.
The woman has called. It's almost history in the making.
Guess what ladies and gents? It is just as I suspected.
She has gone and regressed again. She still feels misdirected.
So here we go again. The part where she needs space and time to think.
It may have worked once before, but not this time. To explain why I don't have the ink.
Maybe that's wrong of me to say. But I have my own life to live too.
This was another option I kept hidden, but now I see what I must do.
You want space and time? You can have all that you feel you need.
I'm not angry that you feel you need it. From this wound I can no longer bleed.
That doesn't mean I feel nothing. You know the man you're pushing aside.
This time I'm going to let you. Don't say that I never tried.
I guess this is it woman. Maybe someday fate will cross our paths again.
Two different people we'll be next time. Let's see what happens then.
It's getting late now. It is time to lay this story to rest.
Things may not have worked out, but I'm sure it's for the best.
Good night and good bye. I hope one day forgiveness can be traded.
All our memories I won't cast aside. Not everything was jaded.
The time for an ending has come. My side of this story has now been told.
Thank you for everything. I now step to where my future unfolds.
I step to this unknown wondering, "Will we ever meet again?"
Who will we be? Who is to know? We won't find out until then.
Until the next time woman. Maybe fortune smiles next time for the story of you and I.
That would be a story worth telling later, but until then, Good Bye.



Matt Segin
05/05