I am waiting for the day
my heart lets you go.
In my mind I picture myself
saying no over and over again.

I am not strong enough
to be rid of you.
I let the memories stay,
even though your heart doesn't ache for me.

Weeks without anything,
the silence is becoming normal.
But the pain is overwhelming and new,
breaking more everyday.

When it's all inside you in a cage
all that fills up is rage
I read ,write and turn the page
now you're a thousand miles away
I think about you everyday
I'll never be okay..
Every journey has a beginning
Every story has a start
Every memory has a special place in our heart
it's been so many years
I tried to control my fears
for every moment my heart skipped a beat
for every time I couldnt stand on my feet
The feeling is overwhelming I can barely breathe
its like everytime I see you I simply freeze
Or at least that's how it shows..
what you don't know is that
every time I see you I literally glow
Everything inside me is like a rainbow..
With no words to say I just walk away,
I guess today isn't the day
But the day never came and I just kept walking  
Now I'm a million miles away and it feels like Choking.

It hurts more and more everyday
keeping this inside

I'm dying to tell you but I can't

I want you to feel the same way
but I don't know if you do

I want to tell you that I love you,
that I only want to be with you
but I couldn't bear the pain of you not saying it back

I couldn't put myself out there
only to be crushed

I can't tell you,
I can't deal with the chance of rejection

why can't we work together
to fix the wounds we've created
fight the urge to continue to battle
let it end and move forward
there's no point in holding on

starting so innocent, your skin brushed against mine
I knew it was wrong but I wanted it to be fine
I tried to deny my feelings inside
but I couldn't because I urged to be by your side

you said you wanted me to fall, fall for you
but then you left until that wouldn't do
you came back for me but not how I thought
you stayed with me until we fought

you let me go easily, leaving me in pain
we had gotten so close, there was too much to drain
I tried to let you go but there was no point
I was too far in, it was in my joints

I never thought I'd admit the way I feel
but I can't keep it in, I have to be real
yes I'm young and many say this can't be true
but this feeling inside was something new

every time I am with you I fall even more
loving you is nothing like a chore
you got your wish, you reached your goal
but I wish you'd play your role

I could love you forever if you'd let me
but I can't force you, I can't plea
one day I hope you'll feel the same way
but until that day I'll continue to say
I'll love you more and more each and every day