I remember when I was a little child that all I wanted to do was go outside and play
I was so happy and free with no worries about waking up to a dead mother or an alcoholic father
I was so naive and I was so blind to the ugly truth that my family is
I understand that no ones perfect but, my mom was once trying to leave me when I was so young
How'd I explain that to my future friends?
What would I even tell myself?

there you were
dark brown eyes that let me see inside your mind
i can always tell if you’re upset but, you’re too proud to admit that you could ever be in distress
oh that stubborn personality only drew me closer
i’ve always been attractive to front-forward guys
you were just something new
something that i would soon fall in love with
again and again
you’ve always been the thought bugging me
the thing i never could have
the forbidden fruit

i’ve fallen in and out of love with you a million times
and
each time i fall harder then before

She doesn't love you.
She only wants you for the looks.
She is toxic and I don't get why you can't see that
"I'll deal with the ache"
Is it really worth it when you'll see her with her next victim soon enough?

Just remember my love, she'll always kiss you with her eyes open.

Once upon a time
I was in love with your quirky smile
  Once upon a time
   I thought we'd last forever
    My naive brain led me in the wrong direction
      You see, you were poison
        You had left the most awful of tastes in my mouth
       Making me believe that you were the only thing I needed
      You damaged my heart to the point of no return
     As sad as this sounds, I'm okay with it
    You taught me that love is a cliché
   That, love is never true and pure
  That, the only point in love is heartache and misery
And, you broke my heart

i am not a good writer
nor do i strive to be
this is a way for me to express myself and get out all of my demons
they haunt me every day
from the time i wake up to the time i go to sleep
sometimes though, i’m able to get away
and those times, those very rare times, i am able to be free and happy