i like you, like a lot
too much to be honest
but you barely look at me
at least not in the way you look at her.

i like you too,
but you've hurt me, so many times
and every time i think things are going good,
you let me down

i also like you, and you're the best
everything is perfect about you but you probably only see me as a friend

but im still standing alone, not trying to shoot my shot,
because i think if i ever get you, you'll get tired of me,
and i don't want to get hurt

spring is cool
but you know what the best part about it is?
feeling the sun on you're skin,
while a light breeze passes by
taking your first swims after months
eating frozen yogurt with your friends
weekends are always better
buying a new pair of denim shorts
and a cute top
spring is cool

love yourself
love everything about you because no matter how many people compliment you,
no matter how many people like your posts,
or comment nice things,
you are the only one who can truly make yourself happy
either way,
you're beautiful and ily

when will he realize that words hurt
when will he realize the stuff he says matter
when will he realize he has to change
when will he realize im not perfect and the **** he says affects me
when will he realize i want to be smart like him
when will he realize i don’t understand things like he does

everyday it’s the same thing;
“your grades ****”
“make friends”
“you’re so stupid”
“no one cares”
“you have no friends”

he’s my brother
how can he say this **** to me
we grew up together
this isn’t a joke anymore it’s not silly comments and small, innocent pranks
it hurts
it really hurts
it hurts he can’t realize that i'm not being dramatic and that this ******* kills me
does he care?
everyone says he does and eventually it will show but,
when is eventually?

i can’t take it, i can’t stand it, i can’t act like it doesn’t affect me
but i have to
i have to pretend im fine because if not i’m the one who’s being a baby
will he be like this with other people?
no, it’s me
no one gets this much **** from him everyday

what did i do to deserve this
why can’t he let me live and be happy
i've always tried and tried and tried
but no matter how hard i try,
it’s never enough

will he ever realize?