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 Sep 2015 Mariah L Wallace
SJ
And it gets harder to say the words I want to say.
They get stuck half way up my wind pipe
And I choke on their jagged edges.
I find my fingers back in my mouth, gnawing at the finger nails I tried so long to grow out.
Where has my breath gone?
Where has my courage disappeared to?
My will,
no longer a thing,
overcome by blurred childhood memories.
So I sit quietly and observe,
In envy at those with a voice.
In envy at those with a courage and will that blazes as hot as the sun.
Now I swim until the shore is gone
A million miles away
I'm still swimming
 May 2015 Mariah L Wallace
SJ
Rage
 May 2015 Mariah L Wallace
SJ
Oh how the searing heat flows through my veins.
Filled with Passion that rivals the hottest Sun.
It blooms bright
In hues of Reds and Golds.
The snarl in my throat,
With my sharp teeth,
And my hot breath.
Yet my tongue hangs limp and heavy.
Petrified I stand.
Vibrations through my chest.
I feel my heart will seize its rapid beating.
Nails like claws,
I rake them through my flesh.
Blood creeps from the cracks,
And I can no longer stand.
A cry for help,
A cry for mercy.
I know.
I know.
I know.

Knowing is not enough.
There must be action.
There must be love.
There must be an open mind.
For Rage to fade.
I just got into this pitiful argument with my sister, and its the most irritating thing. Talk about triggers. I don't acknowledge my anger issues? Smfh. Gods, grant me peace, Gods grant me wisdom, and Goda grant me strength.
 Apr 2015 Mariah L Wallace
Apathy
Today I thought of the trees.
The redwoods standing tall.
The smell of the rain on the leaves.
The beautifully eternal green fall.

Today I remembered the ocean.
The crisp, salty breeze.
The cold and rough emotions.
The endless broken seas.

Today I heard that song again.
The one that filled my soul.
The memories I can't contain.
The one that made me whole.
After about two years, it's finally setting in that I will never be able to go back to the life I had before. My home, isn't even my home anymore. I'm terrified of the future and I just want to go back.
Her walk told stories of places
I've never been,
but suddenly felt homesick for.
April 15, 2015
 Apr 2015 Mariah L Wallace
SJ
Strands of dead cells spun in gold.
Dyed Pink and shorn close.
Punk Rock, Rebellious.
Makes my heart race.

A sweet smile,
A button nose,
Framed by strong cheek bones.
A beauty to behold.

High in her tower.
Made of strong wood,
Softened and warn.
An Owl hoots next door.
Wisdom held in its gaze.
Reflected into bright blue eyes.

Oh!
Such beauty,
Such wisdom.
Locked away so far North.

To fly on wings of Love,
To the Siren high above.

Blistering heat at my back,
The earth quakes with restlessness,
For the South Longs for your presence as much as I.
Dedicated to my pack mate, and best friend Mariah. You are everything to me, and i haven't stopped missing you since you moved away. I love you with everything i got. Just thought i'd remind you of that, and how inspiring your are to me and to many others.

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