I look at him sometimes and I cry
I cry in a way that tears don't roll down
I cry because of being helpless
I look at those hands which were over mine someday
telling me "I am the one for him"

I look at him sometimes and I cry
I cry in a way that tears don't come out
I cry because he is still my love
I look at those arms and think about embracing
making me head towards brightness leaving behind dim

I look at him sometimes and I cry
I cry in a way that tears don't fall
I cry because I cannot forget
I look at those eyes which looked at me once
making me feel like I am the bottle of happiness filled up-to its rim.

Platter platter, raindrops sink
as I breathe along.
Like time do clouds melt,
revealing the dark of the dawn.

Grey in the blue as dreams fly,
the clock haunts the night.
Memories, like a two legged throne,
feed some devils in disguise.

Cold, as the sleep ripes,
questions finally meet destiny.
The throne now sees no might,
light remains to be my darkest mystery.

The clouds so wide
the moon so big
two hearts together
Ah! so pleasant weather

The words were vanishing
the eyes were speaking
It spread the moonlight
Brightness even in the night

The clouds so thin
the sun so bright
two hearts departed
Nothing seemed right

Words vanished again
but now in vain
It spread dullness
down in the dumps
even during day
they did'nt stay!!

How I wish to live in some island
in the middle of some sea
How I wish there lived only u and me
I wud wake up every morning
and make u tea
How I wish there lived only u and me
We wud just sit in peace
and listen to the sound of humming bees
We wud look at the stars, siting on a mat
I wud feel ur embrace and die like dat
How I wish this turns out true
How I wish there lived only me and you.

Cause I am only human
And I bleed when I fall down
You entered into my world by cutting a ribbon
Making me feel like a princess & giving me a crown

All the times you called me pretty
And did those crazy acts
Made me adore you for eternity
And our love became a fact

You were like a bee in my world
******* happiness from the flowers & spreading it all around
Every version of yours, either being a dude or a nerd
Made me fall for you again & I seriously was spellbound

Of all the times I held your hand
And walked with you barefoot in the sand
Made me want to fly above the land
And it tied us with a band

You came like a breeze in summer
Taking all the troubles away
You made problems go dimmer & dimmer
And made me shine like a sun's ray
You also make me happy
You also make me gay

You are my holy grail
Someone I will always love
In you river I will always want to sail
My boat with the heart filled dove

It doesn't matter how much things changed between us
Because my love for you can never come down
Apart of the fact that you took away my crown
Apart of the things you say now
Apart of the coldness we have started to share
I know I will always care
I know I will always care.......

I know you aren't coming back
but there is something that lacks
without you in life
as i actually wanted to be your wife

Why do you always run away?
and still why do you care?
if you still have love for me then fight for it
because all that is happening is no way fair

Make plans
and make me feel like you are my man
But if you can't do this all
then walk away and let me fall
like always you have done
making me feel like I am not the one.

Can I touch you boy?
Right through this sheet?
Can you feel me?
My love and my heat?
Can you tell me please?
Do I even cross your mind?
And have you ever struck in rewind?
Do you even miss me?
Or is it all about the illusions I make?
Do you even remember the places
we thought we stake?
Will you boy?
Will you please understand?
That my love is so **** pure
It is not just a feeling, it is wide as universe
Of this I assure!
Can you even imagine the feel
cause now I want to reveal
You transformed my life into a holy shrine
It is like being in cloud nine
I don't know what you really think about me
Or do you even think about me?
All I hope is you to see
That I am right here waiting for you
And I'll always do
I'll always do.

I had some happier days in life
When he was my husband and I was his wife
When he used to believe in us
When he used to think that we were soul mates,
though that thought did fade
When other than each-other nothing else mattered
But now he doesn't believe that anymore,
and all those dreams are shattered
and all I am left is with a sea and a shore
where despite of many people
things seem quiet and dark
I sit alone looking at the tree of apple
and hearing dogs bark
I know you won't come back ever
because you are happy where you are
And I won't always remain a broken-hearted girl
As someday I'll also find happiness when u'll be far
But if ever (fingers crossed) you come back to me
I will want to flee
and I'll come back to you
so that I get again happier days a few.

From the sky which is blue,
to the flower that is new.
From the leaf at the top,
to the red traffic light that says stop!
From the crow in the sky,
to the one that is learning to fly.
From the flag waving high,
to the scared sigh.
From the roof of the skyscraper,
to the used eraser.
From the monkey at the tree,
to the food which is free.
From the clips in your hair,
to the shoe laces you bear.
From the paint in the wall,
to the ant so small.
From the old haunted building,
to the fire burning.
From the noisy corridor,
to the neglected floor.
From the place where we met,
to the floor where we sat.
From the circus's clown,
to the chalk falling down.

Zilch gives me hope to be happy and gay.
No one wants me to stay.

I am the one in you poems
I am the one you adore
I am the one you wish to be with
I am the one who makes you write more and more

Now, I am the one whom you are holding on
I am the one you giving you coldness in return of warmth
or, I am the one you aren't letting go
I am the one making you low

Now, I am the you gave up on
or, I am the one who got tired of one-sided efforts
Yes, I am the one & being that one hurts
But I know I am the one
Getting love by none....

Infinity is a mortal term.
As the deep brown hazel,
glittering through all of my favourite fears,
seemed like a meagre sight,
once capable of blinding mine.

Once?

I'll leave my infinity to decide

It feels like a bird
which migrated to a new world
leaving everything behind
so that things do not get rewind.

It feels like a shadow
a shadow which disappeared in the noon,
It feels like a caterpillar
leaving its cocoon.

It feels like a wood
getting separated from the tree,
It feels like a baker's pain
after fire in his bakery.

It feels like a bee
when it stings on someone, it dies,
It feels like it won't be able to see
the world anymore, & there were hues and cries.

It feels like the leaf
the leaf which blew with the wind
leaving the bunch of all its friends
not with the pleasure of relief
it feels like that leaf.

It feels like ink
the ink of my pen
that got away from the refill
to create wonders through men.

It feels like the words by a pencil
which got erased by an eraser,
It feels like a wedding that got cancelled
or a sad movie teaser.

It feels like the mosquito
who was killed by human
who was taught to **** the blood and run
but this happened because he ran slow
after all, u think that, he is just a mosquito.

It feels like the milk tooth
getting away from its root
that will never get there again
he will have to bear the pain.

Runs across the boundaries
Tears itself apart
Takes all the grievances and gloom
Still smiles my heart

The lovely winter blossoms
Smiles from the past
Tears it turned into today
Nothing ever lasts

Fighting for wants
Evitable how it was!
Withholds all the petty
Illusions was the cause.

Wearing my hand gloves and wrapping a cloth around my legs, I sit here in the class attending my extra winter lessons. This shiver in me and the cold breeze does nothing but reminds me of him. I remember the warmth in our hug, in his arms, whilst embracing him. Here, I sit and ponder about him making every tissue inside me content. I tried to stop myself from doing so, but couldn't help it! I recall the times which were similar to the present, though only on the outside and not on the inside.I remember how cold I used to get after our lessons got over. I waited for him on the staircase near the canteen and he came, looking at me as if I am the only person around.I recount the speed of our walks and the way he used to rub my hands to make'em warm. As I ponder upon it,I suddenly feel or perhaps just fantasized to feel his hug and how I thought that I would cry if I ever come across his arms now. I thought of his face  when he smiled at me and said something sweet leaving a perpetuating effect in me. Whilst I think about it all, I feel a tear rolling down my right eye. It just feels as if he will be waiting for me inside the classroom after the bell rings. Thinking the same, I came out out of the class and stood still on the staircase. Imagining that he'll come to me, I stood numb at that place for about 10 minutes. Just then,  my friend shouted at me, ordering me to move and bringing me back to my senses. I just realized that the exalt I was experiencing had receded my life long back and that he was not going to come to me anymore.I just couldn't react to my wonders and moved with my sister like friends to our homes.But one thing I am sure about is that no one can ever supplant his presence in my mind.

It is inside me,
the happiest girl in the world
but you can never see
the happiness which flew away with a bird

It is inside me,
the courage of a sword
but you can never see
the courage cause you ain't the Lord

It is inside me,
a heart full of love
but you will never see
because it has gone above

It is inside me,
the joy of a laughter
but you can never see
the joy cause of all that happened after

It is inside me
And it will always be
But everything you have should not be shown to the world
Because people don't value feelings
and then you'll be left broken &
there will be no healings.

Grey dark spots of misery,
Dancing through the outreach of his fingers,
Breathing with every slice of his regrets,
Haunting the power time held .
Words can be judged, true,
If only they exist.

If I were a tear
I would never leave the eye
I would stick to my origin
and never say goodbye

If I were a memory
I would never leave the priceless moment
I would stick to my origin
and would be forever stagnant

If I were what you are to me
I would always be there
and never stop trying
I would never make a fight
and never go away when you're crying

If I were a butterfly
I would kiss all my pains away
Although, this is impossible
But without pains, I would want to stay

If I were in place of him
I would run and come to me
So that things become brighter and not stay dim

If I were in place for her
I would support me
and understand the pain inside my eye
and never say goodbye

If I were the words you speak
I would never come out of your mouth
and would remove my existence
and let the love come out

If I were the place of our wedding
I would keep our love safe in a platinum ring
I would make sure that the couple who came here
remain forever and mistakes would spare

But I am what I am today
And I know that will never be enough
Because no matter what I do or say,
loved people will stay rough
And someday everyone will leave me alone
I guess I deserve this
But all I can do is to give them a li'l bliss
And then my dreams i would weave
Cause people always leave!!

Whenever I try to heal my scars
I get one more
and happiness gets too far

Thoughts, ideas, words, actions.
People, enemies, friends, demons.
Dear life,
You've taught me a lot.
But the only thing
I'm gonna tell my children about you is,
' you will never stop teaching'.

There she stood,
a few metres apart.
Confused, tired, done.
yet trying to stop me,
one last time,
Oblivious.

**Some metres are measured in miles.

The wind that blows the flower
to the place where it is needed the most
the place where something is happening in the hour
where someone's the manager & someone's the host
It's the place where they'll meet
where she will step at the flower with her feet
The place is the happiest of all
the place where blessings fall
People have gathered to witness the love
Cause partners were chosen above
The place where she came, dressed like an angel.
Steps with the sound of bangle
He looks at her being 'awestruck'
feeling like every other thing ****
She comes with flower in her hand
She gets with the groom
and things seemed to zoom
The priest interrogates
while they are lost inside each other
Like nothing else matters
Nothing bothers their love
they are partners from above
they say 'I Do' in front of everyone
when hates them none
They kiss
feeling the bliss
Of being together forever
may harm gets to them never
They are lost,
lost inside each other
and happiness boasts
Nothing else matters.

When you feel low for no reason
When your sad emoticon is there throughout the season
Does it mean you lost something?
Does it mean you don’t have the wings?
That made you fly out of happiness someday
The wings which were the symbol of you being happy and gay

Aren’t the wings with you today?
Have they gone to some other land?
You would get them back if you may
Go to its origin with the wind and the sand
It might lead you to them
And it might tell you the problem
The problem why you are low
And all the things you don’t show
Perhaps, they could solve it
Solve the problem you have
Perhaps, it can lit
The light and the lamp of your life
And the brightness it might save
Like a caring wife.