Sprained my neck,
the second he twisted my heart,
I froze in that moment,
while i recalled his words.
Of course, the space seems better when filled with a couple or Lovers,
But the heart seems better just by itself.
How can emotions, touch and kisses,
make someone excited, happy or even possessive.
Of course, I am better off being alone,
I don't want a second person to know how I feel deep within.
I don't want to depend on you,
my pool of emotions, is full of emptiness and anxiety,
the sudden downfall of my heart's graph reflects my unluckiness in meeting someone again,
but well, I 'm glad my life is coming back to my old static life.
No emotions, no love, no happiness ,no curse.
Me, people I meet sometimes, my thoughts, my ideas, my space, my life is Good,
So, Why do i ever need to add OUR / WE?
The last few days, my heart has been filled with some unknown emotions,
it felt beautiful, I never felt alone, my eyes twinkled(or so the people said)
and I wanted to become whole again.
The heavy breathing, the butterflies in my stomach, the melting feeling,
Everything performing at the same moment in my body,
i.e. The moment I see him.
We both hate talking about emotions,
we both want to break distant,
we are scared to trap each other
and we are scared to set each other free.
Life alone seems too long,
but life without a second emotion is hard to follow.
I want you in me,
stay there, longer than eternity,
don't leave me or better, never start this false reality.
Yesterday ,when people were teasing me,
I was blushing ,joyful, a teenager with rosy cheeks,
and felt myself being friendly and extremely funny.
I felt I was the queen and no one could every destroy or rule me.
Today,things seem like a mess,
everything is wrong,
people making fun of me,
me, i'm getting mad,
nothing makes sense and my body is screaming.
How, What, and Why? do all these things happen?
Better, forget about the last 4weekends,
better not look back in the past.
20...,open the doors and let me rejoice in life and the happiness of just being alive.
grateful for everything that i have lost and what i MIGHT find soon.
just some scribblings from the past.