I let you in,
You pushed me out.
I built you up,
You filled me with doubt.
I gave you reasons to smile,
You tore me down.
I gave you words of encouragement,
You were the reason behind my frown.
I have kept every secret you told me,
You betray me.
I prevented you from feeling trapped,
You prevented me from being free.
You don't care,
You continue to hurt me,
You were never there.
You pushed me away,
Slowly at first, then all at once,
More and more each day.
Guilting me into staying by your side,
Controlling me like a puppet,
Making my emotions your free roller-coaster ride.
What kind of sick friendship is this?
Am I someone you really trust?
Or is this a friendship that won't be missed?

Have you ever lost a close friend?
Not to death,
But to failure to do your part as a friend?
Do you remember the feeling you had?
Was it loss?
Hate?
Despair?
Were you numb?
Maybe you felt you should have done more.
Anything to keep them–
To make them stay?
Now you see them–
Everywhere.
And you say nothing.
You just stare,
Or look each other in the eyes
With a longing,
To be anything but this.
But you look away too soon.
You want things back–
Back to the way they were
But you know–
It isn’t going to happen.
At least not anytime soon.
You have a longing, pleading feeling
In your chest
And it hurts more each time
You see that person.
But as time goes on,
You will become numb.
Numb to the pain.
And you will just have a hollow, cold look in your eyes.
Maybe things will change,
But you’re too numb to
Know what has happened
Anymore.

I am the sky,
The girl who keeps her head in the clouds.
     I am the land of the unknown,
The girl who dreams of being anywhere but reality.
     I am the ocean,
With feelings going up and down just like the waves.
     I am the flowers in spring,
The girl who is sweet and fun to be around.
     I am the distant fear inside,
The girl afraid to do/ say or believe outside her comfort zone.
     I am a warrior,
The girl who overcame many obstacles.
     I am a bunny,
The girl whose thoughts hop around from one topic to another.
                             I am me.

I keep on calling and I don’t know why,
I was hoping the pain would be gone by now.
But I guess when there are so many memories,
Nothing is ever really gone.

Maybe someday you’ll understand—
How it was for me from beginning to end.
You took a piece of me—
One that I never thought you had;
And now there’s a hole in my heart,
From where you up and left.

And even though you’re gone,
I still think about you.
It may **** me inside,
But the pain is what keeps me alive.

I’ll cherish all the moments we had together.
Maybe someday we’ll see each other and talk,
But until then—
In my heart, your memory will live on.

You've gone away now,
and I’m left here alone.
I’m screaming,
but nothing is coming out.
I’m so lost—
I’m so broken.
I don’t know where you are,
and I am so torn up.
Please be safe.
I’ll miss you.
(I love you)