The way you smile,
when I walk in the room,
makes my heart go wild,
and it changes my mood.

The way you laugh and giggle,
when I say something dumb,
makes me love how we,
are always having fun.

The way your fingers fit,
right in between mine,
always make me grin,
with the biggest smile.

The way you rest your head,
on my bony chest,
makes me understand,
you're not like the rest.

And the way you look at me,
and smile endlessly.
It makes me realize,
just how I really feel.

I'm not good at expressing my feelings,
considering my heart is still healing,
but I just wanted to tell you,
I love you,
it's true.

I've been up
And been down
I've travelled the whole wide world
I've been lost
And been found
Searchin for love all around
Yet nowhere I have tread-
Found loneliness instead,
YOu were in the last place that I checked

Love isn't always easy to find
A heart speaking poetry to the mind
Just as a lock to chains iT will bind-
You Remain one of a kind

Home they say is where your heart waits
A house is merely just a place
But Written all across your open face
I long to hold you in an eternal embrace

Love isn't always easy to find
A heart speaking poetry to the mind
Just as a lock to chains it will bind-
You Remain one of a kind

And here I have found I belong
Its you that makes me feel I'm strong
Strong enough to trY and tO carry on
You are the melody in my song

Love isn't always easy to find
A heart speaking poetry to the mind
Just as a lock to chains it wiLL bind-
You Remain one of a kind

YeS love isn't easy to find
Poetry to the Mind
JuSt as a lock to chains it will bind


You Remain one of a kind

You Remain one of a kind

here is what i think we need to realize;
it isn't about ANYTHING
everything you see, what is it doing there?
did you put it there? did they? did he?
did you want to? did you want them to?
it isn't about the pretty colors, the texture, the softness, the lightness, or how big it is or how fat you are or even how crazy, right?
just keep your eyes closed, your mouth shut, curl up in a ball, go to sleep.
will you wake up when i call your name? is it too late for anything, for everything?
i told you i was bored and you told me to entertain myself so i'm drawing on your face with my eyeliner while you sleep. you'll tell your friends i was the craziest girl you ever slept with but that doesn't mean you didn't like it, wouldn't do it again, that you didn't do it again, because you did.
you told me the humans were becoming machines and you seemed excited about this but i was terrified. no, i wouldn't believe it, couldn't believe it and i got mad but then you held me with your huge arms and i was so small and the textures, lightness, softness, hardness, smoothness, i felt with my small hands and we were sculptures, not machines and not humans either for a moment until you moved me on top of you and looked me in the face for so long and didn't say a word.
you never said a word and that said it all,
that this was not about anything at all and you had no idea how i got there either.

An old beat-up couch
and an antique desk
were the only furniture we had
We slept our first nights together
had our first kiss together
had our first come together
on a plastic air mattress
on the living room floor
The carpet was a thin industrial
floor mat
barely thick enough to keep out the splinters
We hung candles on the walls
and watched them glow
and watched the shadows dance
and let the wax drip spires on the floor
We built an altar
and a playspace of blankets
and quilts
piled high in the corner
by the door
We spent so many hours there
days and weeks all-told
in that corner
on those blankets
in front of our altar
playing
Playing with friends
Playing by ourselves
feeling each other out
figuring each other out
falling in Love
over and over again
and pouring it all into our life together
building it piece-by-piece
shaping it to hold our desires
to hold us together
Later on
all our friends
and family we Loved
would gather around
to watch us swear ourselves to each other
on that same spot
where we played
and Loved
in front of our altar
I can honestly say
I've never been happier
than I was
Loving you then
in the empty home we made together
in the place where we played and Loved
and built our altar

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That it's only a memory now
is so bittersweet
So much joy to remember
but remembering only reminds
that those fantastical days are gone
Our altar is just a table now
the blankets packed away in storage
Even that corner of the apartment
where we'd built everything together
is gone
Where we'd made our Love and played
so carelessly and free
now cluttered with piles of boxes
full of junk
accumulated from the years of our lives together
Everything we had no place for
we stacked in the corner
filling in the space
where we used to sit side-by-side
and play
and Love
and weep and sing and dance and scream
until it was gone
until it was lost
and almost forgotten

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I won't forget
The memory is all I have left
And even just the ghost of those times
means more to me now
than all the piles of junk
we clutter our hearts with these days
I won't forget
And I won't grieve
and I won't regret
I will remember
and I will Laugh
and I will look into your soft blue eyes
and I will remember how I saw you then
and I will be grateful for all we ever had
because it was so much
though we didn't know it then
So much more
than we ever needed
So much more
than we ever deserved
though we didn't know it then
now I cannot help but see
it was more than enough
More than enough
to fill a lifetime