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Jun 2017 · 174
Untitled
Maddie Paige Jun 2017
Before my eyes I see girl in blue
As tears to recognize
Anger, frustration in glue
Now we jeopardize
She may have issues
It doesn't mean that she is insane
There were a hundred times I miss yous
Who´s to blame
Children despises her
She went to a hospital for having to cause herself to die
Knowing that it will never be the same ner
They now want her to talk or priy
Can't tell if it is the answer
She told me that she killed someone
Most of the people in the prisons have mental issues it is somewhat cancerous
Blinding fears  of a ton
Now she runs with anger and sadness
The police is trying to get her
She can't hide in fondness
Now we lur
Telling by her eyes she was abused
I couldn't tell by the news
Knowing that she was the accused
The mischief brews
We are all human
I know she was in love with her
The parents refused in truman
When she was with her the reality was blooming furs
Love is a powerful nature
She knows it's not nomenclature
Believing in no matter what they will still love you
I noticed that she hung out with boys  when she was two
The winds that blew had whispered a secret in her ear
She knew that marriage to a woman is what she wanted
Fear
She cries that the wind was harsher than said
When the girl was in her room
I see that it will be too late
She boomed
Maybe it was fate
She tells her I'll be there soon
As she waits for me to glee
Talking to others  don´t see
Now the story is in toon
Many people argue about same *** marriage
She tells me that she was the one
I fidget on my chair see a carriage
What tone
Mirror image that reflects it twisted in red
She sees the pain that I feel
The plans are in thread
I feel a shock from an eel
Why so homophobic
I mean love is love
people bullying is critic
She sends her letters marked with a dove
In the day you were killed
Now that days have changed we erase the bad ones
She was willed
Now she is talking up on her phone
Her parents still beat her in rage
Somehow the girl is in my frame.
She was in a cage
She was not the one to blame
We are all human
The kind of reason that was changed
She tells me about the crewmen
Now her life is rearranged
No need to make it worse
Blood won't **** her first
Bang, Boom,Bro I see a hearse
She is blessed with a curse
She is her flower
The passion in counting
Meowing
It wasn't funny sounding
Oct 2016 · 345
Not You
Maddie Paige Oct 2016
see the only problem with her is that she's not you

not you when she smiles
not you when she wakes
not you when she cries
and not you when she breaks

I don't want to hurt her but..
she's just not you..

I mean she's a beautiful girl who's into me but i'm just too busy on looking back....
and the way she looks into my eyes.. i'm pretty sure anyone would **** for that...
just not me..
because it's not you
i love her but i love you more...
ugh im so confused
Sep 2016 · 236
Love is like the trust fall
Maddie Paige Sep 2016
My history of love kinda *****...
i've been abused
accused of things I didn't do
left in a mess
and broken that led me into loneliness

I've tried giving second chances for them to change
but I guess the thought of changing their ways, hurt their brains

Although once I became blind
they said they've changed and I believed
well stupid ******* me...
I should've known they'd leave me again all alone

I guess I should have listened when I was told..
I was told love can ruin your life....that love is a dangerous thing... and to be careful
well at the time I loved the sound of dangerous and I thought I was a daredevil
but now that i've become broken...
I hate it and i'm scared to fall in love again

Love is like the trust fall...
You fall in love with someone and you trust them
As you're falling you think they're going to catch you
but in reality they've turned around and ran and left you
but instead of falling and maybe laughing
You fall and shatter into tiny pieces that you can't put back....
Sep 2016 · 794
The poem you wrote for me
Maddie Paige Sep 2016
Remember when you wrote that poem for me?
titled " My poem for her "
It says...
" From the beginning of time,
I was destined to fashion these lines into this cute little rhyme.
So my feelings for you can shine
No longer can I act like a mime
I am for you, like red is for wine."

and after all these months i've realized that red isn't the only color for wine... and that's what tears me up on the inside...
yeah, I tried making you jealous by getting with someone... it worked on you when I was with Jazmine but it didn't work when I told you I was dating Madison..
Instead of you being jealous, I got jealous
because you said you were talking with someone and it got me upset... i'm sorry... I just can't stand it..
and I can't help the fact i'm still deeply in love with you even though you don't want me to
I just want you back... really, really bad
Sep 2016 · 428
Weird? hahaha no..
Maddie Paige Sep 2016
I'm such a ******* ****** you say?
hahaha no.. i'm insane
Yeah i'll admit I got ****** up thoughts in my brain
Like for example my last writing I wrote 15 minutes ago
yeah, that's ****** up but I was sitting here doing it while writing about doing it...
I don't word things correctly, but who cares?
I sure as hell don't unless i'm giving a speech
If I don't word things correctly then, i'd freak
oh yeah did I mention I'm an idiot too?
My ex-girlfriend called me that and I agreed to that and also me being a fool
wait those are the same things, right?
Hahaha i'm out of my ******* mind
Sep 2016 · 186
Mhmmmm
Maddie Paige Sep 2016
It's either cut and bleed and die quicker or use a sharp pencil and cut a little deeper, bleed a little and get led poisoning and slowly die...

I think I'll do the second one, It'll build in my body and make me sicker and sicker till I die...
yeah, second one.
Sep 2016 · 169
Untitled
Maddie Paige Sep 2016
Everyone walks, talks, works, breathes, and sleeps
they do it with ease
but it's not that easy for me
I fall when I walk
I stumble my words when I talk
I can't concentrate when I work
Breathing feels like choking to me
and I never get sleep

But I can do one thing with ease and it's crying
I've been filled with deep sadness and I can't control it,
crying has become a daily routine for me

Instead of sleeping I stay up all night weeping
Hell, I even do it while cleaning and eating

oh yeah eating....
I need to stop...
I'm so fat I feel like if I continue to eat, a button from my pants will pop off..
Sorry for rambling on... I just usually write bout the problems about myself when I'm down...
Sep 2016 · 164
Breaking up
Maddie Paige Sep 2016
The way you said my name and called me babe
calmed down every violent thought in my brain
even a part of me sang..
but one day the sky was filled with grey clouds and rain was pouring down
We were in the hallway
I turn around in the empty hallway and see you looking me in the face
You said,"we need to talk about something" so I said,"Okay"
You told me that you needed some time alone, as you walked away, my heart was beginning to break
I later asked my best friend why you broke up with me and she said," Because of Kaylie"
i already knew what she had done
She told you she had liked me..
Kaylie always got mad when she saw you with me..
She even ripped up the apology letter I gave you.

Ever since then we've been on and off like a light switch
One of us likes the dark and the other likes the light
So I left town leaving you with nothing to say but,"Goodbye"
Sep 2016 · 143
What If
Maddie Paige Sep 2016
What if i move back to town?
What if I wrote you a book on why I love you?
What if I gave you a rose everyday?
What if....
I should stop cause I know you'll never love me again..
Sep 2016 · 536
My demons have won.
Maddie Paige Sep 2016
I have constant battles throughout the day
but I have to say
I can't keep living this way
I fight battles that I don't want to fight
It driving me crazy and making me hate my life
I never win so what's the point
I'm done
Demons... once again
You have won
Sep 2016 · 149
The Same Story
Maddie Paige Sep 2016
I may smile but on the inside I'm frowning
I honestly feel like im drowning but it's just the same story everyday..
A girl who's in love with another girl
She knows she can't have her but she still wants her,
She has problems at home,
she just wants someone to hold,
She never sleeps
She thinks she's fat so she tries to not eat
It's just the same story stuck on repeat...
Sep 2016 · 304
Im a fuck up
Maddie Paige Sep 2016
sorry that I **** up a lot.... it's the only thing I know
and when I say sorry and no one takes it, I never let it go
today, I hit my last peak... i'm becoming so fed up with myself, I want to leave
I have sleeping pills that my doctor gave to me
I wonder how many you can take for you not to wake up in weeks..
Maddie Paige Sep 2016
You would think after 5 months of being away from you, with us barely talking i'd forget about you, right?
Wrong, I think of you every second, minute,hour, and day, i'm not ready to throw my love for you away
I just can't seem to move on so easily like you did
and I forbid
I don't want to feel pain from this heartbreak but I don't want to forget your name either...
Yesterday your scent crossed my sheets, it came by as punishment for me
It still lingers around my house
but I still don't understand how..
My heart is still burning from the fire that you had lit
I keep thinking there's something between us two
but I forget,
When I told you I was leaving town you said you were down because I wouldn't be around, you said that you were upset because I piece of you left... but then one day we were texting and you directly said," I love you babe" but then after that you never texted me back and that's when your love for me left
Sep 2016 · 269
I love you
Maddie Paige Sep 2016
It's the truth
I love nobody else but you
You're my lover
You're my friend
I never want our love to end
But it has to and you and I know why
This reason makes me cry
I never want to leave you
I want to stay by your side
But no matter where I go
You'll always be in my heart
Even though we'll be miles apart
I'll still love you from light to dark

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