I think of you sometimes as if you are something far beyond my reach
A light illuminates from you
It captivates and confuses me
Sometimes I can't believe that you are real
until I feel your skin against mine
I savor every touch as if it might be the last
I stare into your eyes trying to read minds
I do not understand
I wonder if what you think and what you say are ever in agreement
I want to believe your words because they make me feel alive
But I was never one for fairy tales
Even as a child I was far too busy hiding behind bridges I would eventually burn

When I speak
The right words
Always cease to escape
I keep the best ones
Locked up
Within barricades
Sometimes they wander
Like vagabonds on streets
Waiting silently in shadows
For their chance at the light

I am made up of vile bones
Which I have learned to hate
I wish I could dig them out
from under my skin
Bury them deep within the earth
Plant flowers atop of them
Watch them grow into something, beautiful,
Something I will never become

I don’t care who you use to be;
a  year ago, a month ago or even an hour ago
honestly, I don't give a ****
I don't believe in failures
hatred is only for the fools
If you made past mistakes
wear them proudly
because they made you who you are today
they made you strong,
and possibly insane..
enough to believe that everyone deserves a second chance at
life,
and at love
You are all just beautiful souls
If you feel lost then keep going because you're on your way
and the only thing that matters is who you are today,
at this very moment
Life is too short to judge others by their past
That’s why we live in the present
If you’re not living in the moment
then you’re missing out on the best part of the story
and not knowing how it turns out is the best part.

I think I saw you in my dream
or maybe it was
that place between awake and sleep
That place you wish you could never leave
but the truth hurts like cigarette burns
And honey you taste just as bitter
Yet  I breathe you in every time you cross my mind
Just to slowly breathe you out again
Watch you spiral as you fill the air
Dissipate and disappear

When I speak 
The right words 
Always cease to escape
I keep the best ones 
Locked up 
Within barricades
Sometimes they wander 
Like vagabonds on streets 
Yet inevitable I know
One day they'll find their way

Loving me is not a tragedy
It does not require any "settling" down
I can assure you there is nothing settling about my love
My love will not change you
But it might inspire you in ways that are unforeseen
My love will encourage you to follow every dream that has ever impressed itself upon your heart
You can travel as far and wide as you wish
But you will still feel my love in your bones
Because love is meant to be felt and it can only be felt by the courageous and the strong of heart
Love, my friends, is not for the poor
For the poor do not feel with their hearts

I have so much to say
But in my mind the words remain
I want to shout them from a mountain top
But instead I lay quietly with my cloud above my head
I die a little inside when I long to express these introspective thoughts of mine
and yet they will not leave my side
Instead they stay trapped 
inside the barricades of my mind.

Do not create me in the image
in which you desire. 
If you love me, let me be.
It is true that I am flawed,
but I still have room to grow. 
And if you love yourself,
you will long to grow as well,
and as we grow,
we will grow together. 
And what a beautiful mess it will be.

I want to see the depths of your being that have not yet been discovered by another soul.
Maybe not even you yourself are aware 
of what lies within you,
what talents you possess,
what feelings you are capable of feeling.
But I wish to discover them with you
And we can get so lost in one another that there will be no way for either of us to return to reality.

We were young, and learning to be comfortable in our own skin. 
But you saw right through my naive soul, 
and I yours.
But I loved you.
Whether it was right or wrong was irrelevant. 
Because they say love is blind. 
And we were born to fall in love 
with the broken, with the incomplete,
with those potentially bursting with life.

I didn't want to hear them say I told you so
That which has been engraved in my soul will always be mine
I can speak it
But even those who are listening will never understand it
And I will never understand their reasons for doubting me
Unless they have tried on this skin of mine
They will never feel the passions that live inside.

I've spent many nights
Mind spinning with thoughts
Twisted illusions take the place
Of my hopes of a restful sleep
The lessons
I have learned 
from all the wrong I've done 
Should be enough
To satisfy my appetency 
There have been days
I've wavered in and out of faith
But selfishly I still sit and pray
And when I get what I desire
I don't long for it anymore
And now I am left to sit and ponder
In the twisted mind of a stranger.

You don't understand 
I won't be this way for long
So if you only love me today
There is no need for you to stay
I want to be more
I want to be better
And there is only one thing I know for sure
I will never stop feeling this way

I don't have the words to express how I feel
Because I can't think of a string of words
that even compares 
But I need to get these feelings off my chest
So please excuse my uncomplicated use of syntax.. But I just want you to know that...
I think you're the best 
And I love the way your hand feels
when it's intertwined with mine
And the way your eyes glow a little brighter when you speak of something with which you are passionate.
But most of all I love that..
Well as a matter of fact, I hate that...
              Well, your eyes don't quite glow as bright
                        ...when you speak of me

I am but a collection of thoughts
Each word orbits through my mind like celestial bodies in space
Each unique and beautiful in its own way 
And I want to share them with the world
So I can see what they think
Because if I can make people think,
then just maybe I have succeeded
But when I attempt to reveal them
They seem to escape in havoc and I can't rearranged them back in their place,
once they've escaped from the tip of my tongue
How I wish the words would just flow from me like a waterfall into a lake 
But the thoughts in my mind become jumbled 
Never to be put back in their original array

I look around at all my things
My worldly possessions 
Sometimes wishing for more 
Because the old things have become a bore
Or because I've come across something a bit more pleasing to the eye

Sometimes I wish I could give it all away
I wish I owned nothing
And nothing owned me
I want to be free from all these distractions
All these worthless attachments

And sometimes I wonder what vast places our minds might travel
When we are all truly free
From these things we so carelessly say we "need."

When I drank from your cup
I did not know it was poison
An incurable liquid
That infected my blood
And flowed through my body
Until it devoured my heart
And now you tell me I'm cold
And you tell me I'm bitter
How do I stop when you haunt my every thought
And I've tried to drain the poison from my veins
But it pains me,
it stains my skin,
And I am ashamed
That when others see it 
They'll know I'm a fake
They'll know I've been loving you
This whole **** time.

All I see are beautiful faces
With eyes that hold their defeat
And I can't look away once Ive seen what I've seen
They leave me filled with bewilderment 
I wonder what it took for them to break
And what it will take to render them complete 
I wonder of their hopes and of their ambitions
And when these became only dreams
They're all just beautiful people
Who meant well at one point or another
But who got lost along the way 
And it breaks my heart to see them this way 
I wish they could still see the beauty in themselves that I see when I look them in the eye