12 a.m
us
between the sheets
hunger hanging in the air
you reach for me
as i reach for you
you are the flame and i am the wick
slowly,
we
burn

together,
and yet still apart.

we count our time in
minutes
hours
days
and are envious of the ones who stay.

kissing,
touching,
loving.
always wanting more,
but never getting enough.

give it to me*
You said this as you ****** the love out of my bones and put it into another.
You left me hollow; you left me afraid.
I cannot love and I cannot fly.
My heart is too heavy.
I am nothing more than a flightless bird.

I am a shadow and I watch.
I watch you stand with another;
Knowing that you've taken my love and given it to him.
It is my love in his bones.
It is my love holding him down.
It is my love that keeps him from floating away.

I am hollow.
I am without love.
I am a bird with no wings.

the chill that comes with loneliness is like a punch to the gut
it makes me long for the moments when all i had to do was reach across the bed and feel for you
it makes me wish that you were still there to whisper sweet words into my ear
telling me the places we’d go
how we’d make them our home until it was time to move on

sometimes i’d wake up late at night and i'd watch you sleep
i’d be mesmerized by the way your eyes twitched beneath your lids
the way your long and lovely fingers would tap against the sheets in exactly the same way they’d tap their way along my legs

your smell used to be my comfort when i was lonely
i would sit in bed and wear your shirts all day long
i'd wrap myself in you and pretend everything was okay

i used to think i’d never have to let you go
but things change and people change
you did and i didn’t
it was a game
and i didn’t win

when daybreak comes
you will be a different person
you will no longer be mine

first
i bare myself whole
put my insides on display
i ask politely that if you come
you have to stay

second*
it's been a while
you came and went
i knew the risk and i played the game
i had hoped i would win
but i lost anyway

i think of you when the wind blows
and leaves me trembling in my path
the breeze feels like a caress
purposely reminding me of what i've lost

i think of you when the wind blows
and continue moving on

i see galaxies in your eyes
and when you kiss me
i feel limitless

in my dreams
we glide in the air,
as if we are birds from another world.
we wear the moon on our wrists,
the suns in our hearts,
and the stars in our eyes.
in my dreams
we exist as nothing,
and as everything.

and in my dreams
i have loved you for an eternity.