I miss you
Daddy,
Where did you go?
On my first
Birthday
My gift from you was
A disappearing act.
I didn't know
That you were a
Magician,
Four years old,
You finally
Reappear.
You cram my brain
With Starry Wars
And Nightmares
Before Christmas.
You fill my belly with
Shell mac-n-cheese
And microwave soft pretzels.
And you inject my heart
With the hope
That this time you will
Stay.
I hate you
Daddy,
Gone again.
You've been practicing
Your magic
Tricks.
Not only can you
Vanish
But you can also
Brainwash
Little girls.
I cry myself to
Sleep
And wonder where it is you've gone
And why you left me
Here
And when you will
Reappear
This time.
I'm seventeen
And here you are
Again.
And when you let me down
I realize that you
Never knew
Magic.
You never were a
Magician.
You were just a
Man
That was
Lost
With a daughter
That you couldn't
Keep
And a life that you
Hated.