it seems that all these city lights
were meant to guide me home
but once they finally lose their life
i am sitting here all alone

sunflowers grow in the garden
that is my mind
but sunflowers can never bloom
if they can't see the light

my friends told me
i've lost too much weight
is the mirror lying
or are they?

isn't there a way
to rid me of this pain?

you left me on read
but what you don't know
is that you left me in pieces
and i can never come home

i need to stop chasing you
because i can never catch up

i deserve better
than chasing after you
and wondering if someday
my dreams will come true

i deserve better
than looking for a way
there's this pain in my chest
that just won't go away

i deserve better
than waiting for you to notice
the way i stare at you
handing you all these chances

i deserve better
than being taken for granted
time and time again
i am not the one you wanted

every night i'm all alone
i wonder where things went wrong
i hate every part of myself now
and i thought you couldn't do any harm

sometimes
i want to open up my head
and scratch the itch in my brain
that will never go away
and it leaves me wallowing in pain
making me wish i was in a grave

instead i lay in my bed
for five days straight
and wonder why i can't move
when i know that it's all you
constantly ruining my mood
and i am only twenty-two

counting the days i have left to live
counting the beats my heart struggles to make
i know that it's difficult to love me
which is why my loneliness is inticing
all i wanted was to be something
instead i think everyone hates me