Stop taking others' pain and making it your own. You see they need help and become jealous of their fragility? Make up your own problems and blame them why don't you? Yeah that's exactly what they needed, your blame. This was years ago, it's not about you or them anymore. You're the only one holding on.

When do you believe life begins?

Isolating myself,
confined to these four walls.
Refusing to care
Rejecting phone calls ..
And no doubt about it,it is very
safe to say
....One is a lonely number....
but that's how I stay.
Beaten,broken,betrayed ...
Life attempts to teach,,refine and ultimately birth a better me
But for now...... Being that there's a free will ,a hermit I choose to be.
But mainly I'm dying.

I'll never have the chance
To tell you that
Your favorite poem of mine
I wrote it for you

from the eye wall
thoughts of imminent rain
banked clouds assemble
black and ominous
with saturated breath
will not be denied
their time to rage
against the numbness
of each little death

barometers fall
coastal fortification
futile sandbagging
forlorn gestures
against the flood
a tropical depression
jet-streaming blue
wild moon tide
to desolate shore

precipitation
gray accomplice
faithful torrent
stratified walls erode
sodden wood, bone
unbalanced homes
collapse gracelessly
no match for gravity
or the merciless sea

the songs have all been wrote before
the poems all laid down in history
every thought and dream seemingly
has been explored
to the depths
of the last word the last letter
into the bare necessities
into luxury
said  much better
sung like it was there
from the beginning
that is what intrigues me
how vast the world of song and art and words
can be
making lives better
better said
touching all is my goal
I fail
but I have to try
and I can't sing
either
on key

If
There is life after death
I
Will gladly take
My
Last breathe
But
If it’s going to be
Just
Suffering and pain
From
Which only
The
Devil will gain
Then
I’ll accept on earth
What
I have wrought
And
By all my peers
Just
Be forgot
For
There is no use
In
Going on
If
There will not
Be
Some fun
WIZDUMBs BY JA 691