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Oct 2020 · 201
Birthday Wish
Euphoria Oct 2020
I swore I wrote my last poem for you
But here’s another out of the blue.
On this day, I hope you are filled with love
From yourself and the people you have.
I hope joy now reaches your eyes.
Through time, I hope you grew wise.
I hope you cherish people more,
Built relationships stonger than before.
I hope you have peace
In every aspect there is.
I pray for a love that that accepts and is faithful,
Forgiving, patient, and truthful.
I hope the clouds aren’t shrouding you anymore
And that the sun is warm as it reaches your core.
Know that for years I’ll remember,
To be thankful for your life every twenty-third of October.
Jun 2019 · 332
I Looked at the World
Euphoria Jun 2019
I looked at the world and said it’s beautiful
With eyes bright and days of laughter
My hands were held and I feel warm inside

I looked at the world and said it’s beautiful
My heart on my sleeve, I was never afraid to share love
People are good and kind; yes, everything’s alright

I looked at the world and said it’s beautiful
I poured myself to passion, showed kindness and compassion
I chased my dreams and felt that nothing is impossible

I looked at the world and said it’s beautiful
Shared sunset and night skies
We went on adventures and stayed up all night

I looked at the world and say it’s beautiful
Betrayal and lies had left my heart broken
Tears watered my soul but I’m still breathing alright

I looked at the world and asked, is it still beautiful?
The flowers I love had withered
I walked on the stony path alone and wounded

I looked at the world and it was not beautiful
Pulled at the bottom of the ocean, I cannot breathe
It was dark and I felt numb; is this what the end feels like?

I look at the world and hope I can say again that it’s beautiful
Out of breathe I struggled to reach the shore,
But my head is above water and dawn is breaking

I look at the world and know it won’t always be beautiful
Like the two sides of the same coin, I have to see what doesn’t look pretty
Because beauty may also mean continuing even if it’s messy and ugly.

I look at the world and hope to always see its beauty,
To find light in darkness like the stars in the night sky,
To remember that the most beautiful flowers bloom even in adversity.
Apr 2019 · 6.0k
Baka Sakali
Euphoria Apr 2019
Hiniling kong bumalik ka
Nagbabakasakaling maging tama.
Ninais kong manatili sa tabi mo,
Umasang mapansin mo rin ako.

Lumbay ng kahapon,
Nadama nang ako'y itapon
Tayo'y isang maling akala
Nagbakasakali't hiniling ko sa mga tala

Sa pagsulat ng mga titik at salita,
Nagbabakasakaling pagmamahal ay mawawala,
Pero tila hanggang ngayon
Pag-ibig ko'y sayo pa rin nakatuon.

Ayaw ko na sanang gambalain ka.
Alam ko namang ayaw mo na.
Tulad ng alon ay magpalaya,
Bakasakaling tayo'y maging maligaya.

Pagod na kong lumaban
Para sa mga taong nang-iwan.
Lugmok at luhaan,
Tulad nila'y isinantabi mo ko't sinugatan.

Sa aking pagbabakasakali
Baka sa tamang panaho'y magkitang muli
Tulad mo'y ipauubaya nalang kay tadhana
Ang pagdating ng taong magmamahal sakin ng tama.
Jan 2019 · 11.8k
Akala
Euphoria Jan 2019
Sabi mo, "Biktima tayo ni tadhana"
Teka, hindi ko ata makuha
Tayo ba'y mga manika
Na sumusunod lang sa galaw ng kamay ni tadhana?

Tila sa gitna nag-umpisa,
Mali ang naging simula,
Minadali natin ang lahat
Kaya ngayo'y may mga pasa at sugat

Patawad ang sinabit
Bibig ko'y napuno ng pait
Akala ko'y iba na ang magiging dulo
Pero marahil nga, masyado tayong naging magulo

Mga puso'y hindi pa pala handa
Tila mga bata pa ring hindi nagtanda
Sa mga turo ni tadhana
Kaya ngayon nauwi na naman sa akala

Salamat na rin siguro
Dahil sa'yo napaalalahanan ako
Magpalaya upang makalaya,
Hilumin ang puso't hayaan ang sarili'y maging masaya
Para sayo na dumating sa hindi inaasahang pagkakataon, akala ko talaga'y ikaw na.
Euphoria Dec 2018
Will you still love me in the morning?
When you see all my scars
Inflicted by others and of me.

Will you still love me in the morning?
When you've heard of my demons
Loathing me for all the sins I've done.

Will you still love me in the morning?
When you learn about who I was
And the person I will never become.

Will you still love me in the morning?
When all I have become
Is hate and misery.

Will you still love me in the morning?
When I'm in cold sweat, frightened, and crying
From the nightmare of what was.

Will you still love me in the morning?
When you see my hand shaking, and as if I cannot breathe
Because of my anxiety attacks that I seem to hide so well.

Will you still love me in the morning?
When all has been said and done
And you've discovered the person behind the facade.

Will you still love me in the morning?
Or maybe the question should be,
Did you ever love me?
Euphoria Jun 2018
There's a lot who asked
The girl who's masked
What does anxiety look like?
Its hard but let me try to tell you what anxiety looks like
It's the smiles she fakes and the laughters she makes
They sound so loud, her attempt to drown out the crowd
It's the way she walks with her arms around her
It's her telling herself to get it together
It's her eyes full of tears
When all she can hear is her fears
It's her flicking that rubber band around her wrist
Her attempt to bring herself back to reality that seem to twist
It's her dropping things with her shaky hands
It's her funny way of talking that no one understands
It's her biting her lip til it bleeds
When she's thinking about what she really needs
It's her spacing out and her blank stare
It's all the rest she didn't take and wouldn't dare
It's her hesitation to make that call
it's her doubting herself if she's given her all
It's her needing affirmation
Asking you to give her some kind of validation
It's her in the bathroom one, too many times
Rethinking everything like all she's done are crimes
It's her pacing back and forth
It's her seemingly funny retort
This is what anxiety looks like
And I can't even begin to explain what it feels like
May 2018 · 566
An Acrostic
Euphoria May 2018
Just between what we thought we were
Or another dream that seem so far
Shattered pieces of the memories we've shared
Haunted my heart and made my mind scared
Under the same sky, I'm left to wonder
About what went wrong and how my heart grew fonder
I was reminded of what it felt like after reading this piece a year after. I wrote this after a painting dedicated to the one who broke my heart the most but am still thankful for being under the same sky.
May 2018 · 301
Unchained
Euphoria May 2018
I can barely remember the first time we met
I can barely remember the sound of your voice
I can barely remember the feeling of you warmth against mine
I can barely remember the last time we genuinely laughed together

I can't remember the exact moment I fell in love
I can't remember when I started holding my breath with the sight of you
I can't remember when the butterflies started flying around in my stomach
I can't remember when I started seeing you in a different light

But I can remember how your voice sounded when you shunned me away
I can remember the feeling of my heart crashing, breaking
I can remember the taste of my tears, bitter in my mouth as I choke in the words "Please don't leave"
I can remember the sight of you walking away.
I can remember every painful night after that
I can remember every poem, every song, I had written
With the hope that it will let my love run dry.
I can remember the agony of mornings I had to endure
I can remember how the clouds won't seem to go away

I cannot remember how or when
But the day came where I was set free
From all the hurt and pain you've caused
From all the memories that made me nothing but lost
I am free from the love that seemed to have bound me
It felt like forever but finally, I'm unchained and am now free.
May 2018 · 270
Not Mine To Have
Euphoria May 2018
I hold my breath as your hands run through my hair
The thought inside my head, "Oh god, this isn't fair."
The way you gently pat on my head
Makes me want take back what I said.
When you handed the keys and held my hand,
God knows it's all I want but I have to take a stand.
For you are not mine to hold nor to keep,
You are not the one who'll be there when I fall asleep.
You are not the man whom I can love
For you're already someone's and not for mine to have.
Jan 2017 · 97.5k
Ako Na Ang Magpapaalam
Euphoria Jan 2017
Hindi ikaw ang aking mundo.
Ikaw ay parte lamang ng aking kwento.

Hindi ikaw ang kalawakan.
Ikaw, tayo, kahit pagkakaibigan ay may hangganan.

Hindi ikaw ang buwan
Na nagbibigay liwanag sa aking karimlan

Hindi ako isang puno
Na aasa, mananatili, at maghihintay na mapansin mo.

Ang mga sugat na dulot ng ating mga sala
Ay hindi maghihilom basta- basta

...

Kaya ako na  ang hihinto, lalayo,
Ang magsasara ng pinto.
Ako na ang susunog ng tulay,
Ang puputol ng nag-uugnay.

Ako na ang bibitaw
Sa pagkakaibigang nasira ng pagmamahal na nag-uumapaw,
Ng bugso ng damdamin,
Ng tukso at mga tinagong saloobin.

Hindi naman maayos
Ang hindi sinusubukang i-ayos.

Kaya tama na nga siguro
Ito na ang dulo ng kayang tanggapin ng puso ko.

Paalam na sa mga tanong na kailanma'y hindi na masasagot,
Sa puso kong puno ng takot
Sa paglisan at pagbitaw
Hanggang sa ikaw na mismo ang umayaw.

Paalam na sa mga pangakong napako,
Sa mga katagang "walang magbabago",
Sa mga salitang binitawan
Ngunit hindi mo napanindigan.

Paalam na sa titulong "matalik na magkaibigan."

Paalam na sa lumabong pagkakaibigan,
Sa mga hinanakit at hindi pagkakaintindihan.

Paalam na sa sakit at pait
Na dala ng pag-ibig na hindi maaaring ipilit.

Paalam na sa labing-apat na taon.
Masasakit na alaala'y aking ibabaon.
Iiwan ka na sa nakaraan.
Papalayain ang sarili sa gapos ng nagdaan.

Sa pagiging estranghero nagsimula,
Estranghero rin akong lilisan.*
Ito na ang huli kong paalam.

-41-
This is the last poem I'll write for you for we will never have our goodbye. We were connected in a level unknown to us. We understood without words. Thanks for the memories.
Sep 2016 · 2.7k
Hindi ko alam
Euphoria Sep 2016
Hindi ko alam kung masama ba
Na hanapin ka pa rin matapos ang trahedya,
Na alalahanin ang mga sandali
Na ang luha at sakit ay iyong napapawi.

Hindi ko alam kung masama ba
Ang manatili kung saan mo ko iniwan,
Nakatayong naghihintay na iyong balikan
Punasan ang luha at ako'y hagkan.

Hindi ko alam kung masama ba
Na umasa sa tadhana,
Na paulit-ulit na manalangin
Sa pagdating ng araw na ako'y iyong mamahalin.

Hindi ko alam kung masama ba
Na hindi ko na alam ang mali at tama,
Na bulag na umaasa't sumusuntok sa buwan
Hinihiling na sana ang piliin mo'y ako naman.
Sep 2016 · 362
Untitled
Euphoria Sep 2016
If you only knew
How much I am missing you
Will you still leave me?
Jul 2016 · 390
Gray
Euphoria Jul 2016
We were so engulfed in the idea of gray.
The area where everything is safe,
Where no boundaries are crossed,
Where there is nothing definite,
That we forgot to draw the line,
That we forgot black and white,
Where there are decisions we have to make,
Where there are lines we should not cross,
Where there is pain and happiness.
We were so enthralled by the idea of gray
That we lived in a monochromatic world
That we forgot that life offers us a lot of colors
If only we were brave enough to leave the gray.
To you, who has been so in love with gray that you forgot there are times you have to draw the line between what is and what's not. To you, the person who forgot that this world has a palette of colors for us.
Jul 2016 · 649
Seeing Through
Euphoria Jul 2016
What's with those eyes?
They once reflected the skies,
The sunsets, and sunrise.
Look at me.
Are you still in agony?
Is your soul still in misery?
Your eyes don't seem to follow
Your canny act and bravado.
They're so sad and hollow.
Am I the only one to see
The way your soul bleeds with melancholy?
My heart aches to see those eyes  like that.
May 2016 · 478
I Found My Voice
Euphoria May 2016
They tell me,
Just keep your mouth shut,
Tell no one, just keep it down.
You're just a woman.

I'm all surrounded
And for sometime, I admit
I listened and let them dictate
What I can and cannot be

But I found my voice,
No, I won't shut up.
I'm never just a woman.
**I'm a masterpiece.
May 2016 · 34.4k
Kaibigan ng Kahapon
Euphoria May 2016
Pagod na ko sa kakasulat.
Hindi ka naman ata namumulat
Sa sakit at hinagpis na iyong dala.
Na sa puso ko'y nagsisilbing bala.
Mapapatawad pa ba natin ang isa't isa,
Sa mga sala nating nagawa na nagpatung-patong na?
Kailanman hindi ito napunta sa aking hinuha
Na tayo maiiwang may agwat at sirang-sira.
Kaibigan, ako sana'y patawarin
Sa pagpayag sa mga bagay na maaaring sumira satin.
Patawarin mo sana ang pusong nagmamahal
Na sumira sa pagkakaibigan nating kay tagal.
Nalulungkot, nasasaktan ang puso ko sa ideya
Na ang minsan kaibigan ay isang estranghero na.
Patawarin ako sa pagbibigay ng hinagpis
Sa iyong kaluluwang takot at puno ng pagtitiis.
Kaibigan, ito'y hindi pagmamalabis
Ang tanging hiling ko lang ay huwag kang tumangis
Sabihin mo lamang kung ika'y nasasaktan na
Huwag kang mag-alala, handa na kong iwan ka.
Kung ang pagkakaibigang ito ay hindi na masasalba
Sabihin mo lang, wag nang magdalawang isip pa
Dahil sa pagtakbo ng oras, lumalaki lamang ang lamat
Unti-unting nababasag, nasisira ng hindi naman dapat.
Kaibigan, sana'y sabihin mo
Kung gusto mo pa bang ipagpatuloy ito.
Pagkakaibigang puno ng tawanan
Nagapos ng pangakong walang iwanan.
Pagkaibigang pinahahalagahan
Hindi sinasadyang masira at mayurakan
Sa paglipas ng panahon
Nagbago na ang noon at ngayon
Ngunit umaasa pa rin ako
Na hanggang sa dulo'y magkaibigan pa rin tayo
Kaya pa ba natin patawarin ang isa't isa gayong tila lumalayo ka na?
Apr 2016 · 429
04.20.16
Euphoria Apr 2016
I miss you
in the most earnest possible way
I wish I could stay with you
But our circumstances left us astray

I'm waiting for you*
To let go of the burden of the past,
For you to stay true,
And make this friendship last.

I'll be here for you
A promise I'll never let go
Because to me you're worth more than gold
A friendship that was never left untold
I just miss having my best friend. I know it's complicated and there are many things we chose to ignore but right now, I'm feeling so much of the distance. To protect what's left, I don't know how to do that but I just honestly want my best friend back.
Apr 2016 · 3.0k
Sino ka?
Euphoria Apr 2016
Hinahanap kita paulit- ulit
Patuloy man ang iyong pananakit
Hinahanap kita sa lahat ng sulok
Iwanan man akong luhaan at lugmok

Hinahanap kita, nasaan ka na ba?
Hindi kita makita
Kahit na ako'y nakatingin na
Sa iyong mga mata

Sino ka? Hindi kita kilala.
Malayong- malayo ka na
Sa taong aking naaalala
Mukha'y iisa ngunit estranghero saking mga mata.

Sabihin mo kung nasaan
Ang matalik kong kaibigan
A poem for the stranger in front of me, the person who seems to be a very important part of me
Mar 2016 · 2.7k
Apatnapu't Isang Salita
Euphoria Mar 2016
Kakalimutan ang wakas
Walang maiiwang bakas
Ng panandalian **** pag-alis
Sa puso kong tumatangis.

Maghihintay ako
Sa muling pagbalik mo
Walang alaala ng mga pangako
Na natiling nakapako

Kaibigang aking mahal
Patuloy akong magdarasal
Lilimutin ang kahapon
Wag lang akong itapon.
Kahit sa tula nalang...
Feb 2016 · 755
On A Scale of 1 to 10
Euphoria Feb 2016
On a scale of 1 to 10, how deep is your love?
It is deeper than ocean and the abyss therein,
Deeper than any thought of love I have within,
My love is limitless and almost feels like a sin.

On a scale of 1 to 10, how happy were you with him?
I feel like a star in the galaxy, a feather mid-air,
The first hello and beginning, nothing can compare.
With him, all i can taste is a burst of eclair.

On a scale of 1 to 10, how hard did you hit the ground when he left?
It felt like a roller coaster crashing to the ground,
A sudden crash of waves and thundering sound,
I hit the ground and was never found.

On a scale of 1 to 10, how will you rate your pain?
It aches more than having my bones broken,
Much painful than all goodbyes and words left unspoken,
My pain left me scarred, holed, and shaken.

On a scale of 1 to 10, how far is your heart from him?
How hard is it to tell people where you're actually at? It's harder than any question I've ever need to answer.
Feb 2016 · 4.5k
Paano naman ako?
Euphoria Feb 2016
Paano naman ako,
Sa mga oras na naisip **** iwan ako?
Hindi mo ba napagtanto
Nasasaktan din naman ang puso ko
Dahil sa agwat at oras na tayo'y pinaglalayo.

Sinta, paano naman ako?
Hindi mo man lang ba naisip na ako'y nahihirapan din
Sa walang humpay na pagbulong na lamang sa hangin
Ng mga salitang gustong sambitin
Habang sa mga mata mo'y ako ang nakatingin.

Mahal, paano naman ako?
Sa mga oras na lumilipas na tayo'y magkalayo
Hinahanap ang yakap at halik na mula sayo
Ang mga oras na maaaring magkasama tayo
Ngunit sa panahon nalang pinaubaya ito.

Sabihin mo, paano naman ako?
Ako na alam **** sinira ng kahapon
Nabahiran ng kasinungalingan at poot, nababasag sa pagdaan ng taon
Paano naman ako mabubuo,
Kung kahit ikaw dinurog ako at hindi naging totoo?
Ang sugat ng kahapon ay patuloy na gagambala sa gunita.
Jan 2016 · 478
Toss coin
Euphoria Jan 2016
You were the nice guy
Til you flipped the coin around
And broke the broken
I asked for the bad boy and that was my mistake. Dedicated to the boy whom I thought would save me from me.
Jan 2016 · 427
To You
Euphoria Jan 2016
Every line, every rhyme
I let you live every time
Every poem and every song
I dedicate for someone wrong

Now, will it be too much
To let me live in your poetry?
Though I know the emotions do not match
I want to be alive in your symphony

I've  written too many about you
To you whose worth I never fail to see
To you who hides what's true
The man who had always failed to see me
Dedicated to the love which died a year ago, to the love who never once had seen me, to the love I kept on the darkest parts of me, to all the love that broke the broken.
Jan 2016 · 318
Point One
Euphoria Jan 2016
And then I woke up
With the heart to seek freedom
From my yesterday
Dec 2015 · 301
12.27
Euphoria Dec 2015
Twelve twenty-seven*
I'll carry this memory
Of hell and heaven
Where does reality begins and ends?
Dec 2015 · 10.7k
Eclipse
Euphoria Dec 2015
As the sun wraps his arms around the moon,
She craves his touch like it'll be gone too soon.
The warmth he gave was burning her skin,
Caressing her very soul within.
As they eclipse and darken the bright sky,
She can't help but wonder why.
After all this time, she's been waiting for him
But now it's here, it's not as good as it seem.
Because as the clock starts to tick,
Her insides start to feel sick.
Soon the eclipse will be over
Leaving her mind with more thoughts to hover.
As his light touch her darkness,
She found herself in another madness.
What craziness has fate brought
To let them eclipse for only a thought.
We eclipsed once again.
Dec 2015 · 416
12.12.15
Euphoria Dec 2015
In a day of storms and shrouded clouds
That cover our hearts and blended minds
I'll call unto you, my beloved moon
I'll wait for you til you see me soon

Oh the love you give was a borrowed light
That illuminated me all through the night
With the sun my heart bleeds for now you're out of sight
You left me with nothing but doubt and fright

Oh dearest moon, please don't leave
Like welcoming a new season, my heart will grieve
For a new moon would not come
Because there is only one you out of all the sum.
Nov 2015 · 5.7k
Halik
Euphoria Nov 2015
Ang unang halik ay ninais maging wagas
Tulad ng pag-ibig sayong hindi pa rin kumupas
Sinabing mo saking walang pagtingin
Tinapos ang lahat at tinapon sa hangin

Ngunit, sinta, ano ito?
Isang halik ng impokrito?
Bakit idinampi ang mga labi
Gayong umalis ka na sa aking tabi?

Isa ba kong laruan sa'yong mga mata
Na magbibigay saya sayo kapag malungkot ka na?
Napakadaya mo naman, sinta.
Hindi mo ba naisip na ako'y nasasaktan na?

Sabihin mo sa akin, aking mahal.
Ano ba ang katotohanan dahil ako ay nakagapos at sakal
Sa magkasalungat **** salita at gawa
Na hinahagupit ako ng walang awa.
Sep 2015 · 5.6k
Tama na
Euphoria Sep 2015
Tama na dahil masakit na
Masakit na ang hawakan ka pa
Hawakan ang mga pangarap na minsan nating pinagsaluhan

Tama na dahil ako'y pagod na
Pagod na sa pag-alam ng iyong dahilan
Sa rason kung bakit nga ba ako'y nagawa **** iwan

Tama na dahil sapat na
Sapat na ang mga luhang pumatak at pinagdaanang sakit
Mula ng mawala ang iyong malasakit

Tama na dahil tapos na
Paulit-ulit na sinasabi sa sarili na tapos na ang 'tayo'
Ang minsang ako na ninais maging sayo

Tama na dahil ayoko na
Ayoko nang umasa sa mga pangakong napako
Mga pangakong naiwang hanggang salita na lamang

Tama na dahil ako'y bibitaw na
Tulad ng walang pakundangan **** pagbitaw
Sa tayo na naging ako at ikaw at naglaho noong naisipan **** umayaw.
Ilang beses ko na nga ba sinabing tama na?
Sep 2015 · 622
Toxic
Euphoria Sep 2015
Toxic.
You were a posion to my heart
I should have known from the start.

Toxic.
Breathing the same air as you sickens me.
Breathing gets harder with the face I see.

Toxic.
I'm dying inside,
Every night with my eyes wide.

Toxic.
When did you become a poison?
You took away all my reason.

Toxic.
Intoxicated with treacherous love,
You took everything I have.
You're a toxic to my life.
Sep 2015 · 576
One Drunken Night
Euphoria Sep 2015
It was our first kiss.
You’re drunk but didn’t miss.
I ought to break away,
But your lips made me want nothing but to stay.

With need and passion,
Gentle with your possession.
We aren’t meant to do this,
But what could I do when you put me to bliss?

Tell me, is this what you hid?
Waiting to get drunk before you did?
The courage you lack to take the risk,
Drunk and lost, you did in a brisk.

"I love you" is what you said
But you take it back, to **** what's already dead.
Your contradiction is killing me.
Your actions put me in agony.

Lost in the moment,
You put me in euphoria and torment.
Your hands are exploring and careful.
I'll get drunk in this before you get regretful.

Your drunken thoughts and the words you say
They're all I need to keep me at bay.
We almost did what we shouldn't do.
We almost got lost in it, oh god, you know it's true.

I guess you got sober.
Before we know it, it's over.
When all is done and said,
Your contradiction went beyond what I can comprehend.

"Don't touch me!", is what you blurt
*******, you know that will hurt.
Your messed up mind left nothing but tears,
To this girl who loves you and has nothing but fears.

When the morning came, I'm still in pain.
You decided to deny, to make your thoughts sane.
We pretended like all is well.
But we know *we already parted ways
though no one can tell.

One drunken night, and that's all it takes
To disturb this mind and all that makes
This heart doubt and bleed
With the drunken thought of where this path will lead.
One drunken night with someone I once held so valuable, my perfect contradiction, the man that may be considered as my greatest love.
Sep 2015 · 429
C.M.R.Y.
Euphoria Sep 2015
Can we go back to cared for and love?
A time you said we'll always have.
Reaching out to the distant you
Leave me not, I begged of you.
Over in three months,
So much for the good dreams.

You brought me back to reality.
A journey back to agony.
Remembering the last days,
I think I am never enough.
No, not for you.
My dedication to the one who filled the bottle.
Euphoria Aug 2015
I'm calling on your name tonight
Even though this doesn't seem right.
I still call on you
Because for me, you're all that's true.

I'm calling on your name tonight
And my chest starts to feel tight.
I wouldn't because I couldn't.
I couldn't because I shouldn't.

I'm calling on your name tonight
with the hope that you might
Remember your love for me
Because I'm still far from free.

I'm calling on your name tonight.
When can I feel alright?
Aug 2015 · 445
Cold
Euphoria Aug 2015
I was told to let you go
But I have to let you know
Pain is something I cannot hold
So I tried and tried til my heart got cold.
Aug 2015 · 370
Untitled
Euphoria Aug 2015
My chest feels tighter,
With every breathe of pain
When I hear your name.
Aug 2015 · 368
12:32 AM
Euphoria Aug 2015
"It would be nice to be you"
**** it,
if only you knew,
The damage that was hidden to your view
And what you see isn't all that's true.

The *perfection
you see
Is only a facade set upped by me,
Preventing you to see the agony
The melancholy of wanting to be free.

Do you know how hard it is to pretend you're strong,
Overlooking all the things done wrong,
Trying to always get along,
So you'll have somewhere to belong?

Never put me in a pedestal
Nor treat me like the most special.
Because to be like me is to be mental
*A withering flower with its last petal
No one's perfect, no one will ever be so don't tell me you want to be like me.
Aug 2015 · 511
The Critical
Euphoria Aug 2015
Make good choices
                            
                           ­                  *Tell me how with all these voices?


                 Can you be my saving grace?

                                                        ­  To wipe my mascara- stained face.

                             Blissful and melancholic, I've had my days

           To get through this, you say there are many ways

                                                 But the storm is here to stay.

                         You say, "You'll get through this, come what may."

                I appreciate how much you believe in me,

                                      *But these chains aren't here to set me free.
One melancholic afternoon, I was reminded of how much an old friend believes in me so much.
Aug 2015 · 864
08.20.15
Euphoria Aug 2015
With ink stained finger tips
I seek the only crimson that drips
Out of passion or of pain
It doesn't matter, this is keeping me sane
Fill the pages with my own sap
Please don't give me that crap
You know no pain
Til you've had your hurricane
So stop acting cool
To me you are nothing but a fool

*end
Aug 2015 · 648
Arguments
Euphoria Aug 2015
Challenge this lethal mind.
Make sure not to leave anything behind.
Come on, propose your arguments!
I'll be hearing all your sentiments.
This is no war between us,
Nor me being an ***.
This is a battle inside me
Of who I think I am and who I think I should be
Got inspired after some reading on theories on self.
Aug 2015 · 499
I Crave for Thee
Euphoria Aug 2015
I crave for thee
My home and security
My prayer and destiny
Thee, who accepted me

I crave for thee
My today and eternity
The man who treated me specially
Until he woke up from reality.

I crave for thee
But you're the one who couldn't see
The worth of what could be
And the man who shattered me
I crave for thee in all honesty but I know we cannot be.
Aug 2015 · 768
Call
Euphoria Aug 2015
Ring. Ring.
Please answer me.
Ring. Ring.
I beg of you, hold me close.
Ring. Ring.
I am craving for your touch.
Ring. Ring.
A single hello wouldn't hurt
Ring. Ring
It hurts to miss you this much.
Ring. Ring
I'm falling apart.
Ring. Ring.
This is breaking me bad.
Ring. Ring.
The abyss of my heart is far too dark.
Ring. Ring
Help me and my lethal mind.
Ring. Ring*
This will probably be the last call.
The subscriber cannot be reached
Aug 2015 · 419
Choice
Euphoria Aug 2015
Yes or No?
Stay or Go?
Win or Lose?
We were all bound to choose.

You chose to leave.
I chose to grieve.
You told me you still love her
You chose to say it's over.

To live or to die?
I made my choice with a sigh.
Heart, mind and soul shattered,
I forgot that I also mattered.

— The End —