ur arms are wrapped around someone
who's not me
u give light kisses on someone else's
cheek
u hold someone's hand and kiss
the back of it
i am the green monster of jealousy who
sees all of this from a distance

lead me on
then leave me
halfway

there are people in this world
who are so pathetic and vile
I just hope no one faces them
at first they're nice and calm
but what lies below those layers
is something unimaginably   h o r r i f y i n g
they can twist and turn your mind
m a n i p u l a t i v e is the snake in them
two-faced and sugar-coated is their p e r s o n a l i t y
toying with ur e m o t i o n s is what
they mastered in
their camo skin hides who they truly are

time is all I needed with you
time is all I didn't have
I saw you gulp down sanitizer like it was water
I saw you throw up after that like it was something you did
everyday

you probably did

time is what wanted
time is what we all want

I saw you pinch your *******
until it bled because you thought you were
infected.

you weren't

time is what I begged for
what I stole
what I borrowed
like the used band-aid
you had put on your finger

I'm so close to you
I want to kiss your nose
and all those moles
all the scars
and that huge birthmark

I think I'm going crazy

I want to touch you
in places I shouldn't be
I want to feel you
I want you
I want

we mean nothing in his life
that big
          black
                        E
              H    ­        L
                    O      
                                           of    n o t h i n g n e s s
                                                                 in his life
yes
thats us

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