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Nov 2018 · 410
Reality vs. Reverie
Lou Vaughn Nov 2018
Three years ago today, the moment he walked through the door, it wasn't deja vu, it was a memory of a fantasy I played out in my mind hundreds of times as a little girl, as a teenager, as a woman, finally catching up in real time - a fantasy of a man I would meet someday who would be all I could ever desire in a lover, friend, and husband.

Three years ago today, the moment he walked through the door, standing 6' 14", I recognized him immediately as the nameless, faceless man I imagined for years and I finally felt alive! authentic! electric!

Three years ago today, the moment he walked through the door, I fell irrevocably in love and I never want to put myself back together again.
Nov 2018 · 140
Regardless
Lou Vaughn Nov 2018
Regardless of our struggles, stresses, worries, and insecurities,
I love him.
I could lose everything in this world, but as long as I still have him,
I have everything.
#love
Sep 2018 · 2.0k
Ethereal Bliss
Lou Vaughn Sep 2018
Like a sinful seduction, I slip off the edge of sleep,
my eyes are drawn to the darkest shadows of my room... kinetically searching...
I seem to penetrate them, my mind breathes life into them,
they begin to stir and morph into the preludes to my peculiar dreams,
bizarre at first until inevitably familiar,
as if I had lived them indefinite times in the past... and infinite times in the future... remembering... becoming... unfiltered and unaffected...
my subconscious is my truth, awakened by my dreams.
I long to remain lost in this ethereal bliss.
Apr 2018 · 201
More
Lou Vaughn Apr 2018
Every day, I am convinced I couldn't be any more in love with him, but I will be...
Next week, tomorrow, even minutes from now.
I used to feel as if love was contained solely within my heart, but not with him;
With him, I am BECOMING love...
with my entire being.
Mar 2017 · 995
He Is...
Lou Vaughn Mar 2017
He is my ambitious sunrise
He is my blazing setting sun
He is the seduction of cobalt twilight
He is temperance undone

He is my luminous moon
His celestial eyes, the only stars within my sky
He is my world
He is my love
He is my why
Jan 2017 · 910
us
Lou Vaughn Jan 2017
us
Do you recognize me?
I remember YOU.
No, we will not SEE each other after death;
we will BE each other after death,
as we also were before life.
You will realize that I am you and you are me;
we are everyone and everything, even now.
We are synchronous...simultaneous...endless...
We are LOVE...ALL of us.

Jan 2017 · 940
Breathless
Lou Vaughn Jan 2017
There he is...standing in my doorway...
towering...smiling...glistening with confidence.
Is he real? Am I awake?
I have fallen so hard and so deep.
I no longer care where I am or who I am,
as long as he is mine.
May 2016 · 683
truth be told
Lou Vaughn May 2016
when I tell you I love the rain
it is because I love the way it feels on my skin

when I tell you I love the moon
it is because I love the way it looks back at me

when I tell you I love you
it is because I love you
Apr 2016 · 1.5k
Oblivion
Lou Vaughn Apr 2016
voice in whispered tone
like breathy saxophone
I hold a longing moan
within

fingers through my strands
ruin all my plans
the way your calloused hands
grip skin

lips that taste like truth
of gin and dry vermouth
pierced by sinking tooth
and sin

I memorize your face
as I fade from this place
forgetting all that time and space
has been
Feb 2016 · 847
Extraneous
Lou Vaughn Feb 2016
I am completely fascinated by humans:
their behavior
their emotions
their desires
their needs
or at least what they believe to be their needs

So fragile and vulnerable
filled with doubt
weighed down by insecurities
finding joy in the unexpected
always surprised by their own accomplishments
struggling with experiences they thought would be easier
but miraculously solving problems
finding ways to get by
making it through another day

My nights are often filled with lucid dreams
where the whole of humanity is contained within a zoo
They are the rare and exotic creatures I came to admire
...but I feel like a human impostor
A sense of paranoia begins to seep in
like the ominous heaviness you feel before a dream becomes a nightmare
I feel as if they've always known I am not one of them
They've known since the day I was born
They've just been playing along
until someday when my suspicions of self will be confirmed

Maybe that's what death is - the big reveal
Maybe this is how every human feels
Maybe I am human after all
I hope I am
Dec 2015 · 1.2k
Manifesting Memories
Lou Vaughn Dec 2015
Times I miss:
Post MTV but pre LOL
When Windows were just windows
and a mouse was just a mouse
When an unanswered phone call
meant no one was home,
not that they didn't want to talk
Getting letters in the mail
and mixed tapes from friends
I will take these times to bed with me tonight
They will manifest into new memories
created in my lucid dreams
so I will miss nothing tomorrow
Dec 2015 · 4.4k
Pluviophile
Lou Vaughn Dec 2015
I want to live in a world where umbrellas don't exist
where no one runs to get out of the rain
where everyone stops
with eyes closed
heads laid back
and arms outstretched
welcoming every drop on their skin
as if each one is an intimate kiss
falling from the sky
Oct 2015 · 1.5k
Fluffy
Lou Vaughn Oct 2015
There is a pillow that lies in your place
it cradles my head and accepts my embrace
I can still smell your vigor when I'm on its case
then I fall into death with a smile on my face
Sep 2015 · 1.2k
Acoustics
Lou Vaughn Sep 2015
fearless tires kissing wet pavement
jokes exchanged between laughing dogs
street lights whispering secrets to severed sidewalks
applauding leaves appreciating the evening's entertainment
Lou Vaughn May 2015
My mind is clouded by clear and sunny days
they are for dreaming
I am truly awake during still dark nights
that transform into electrifying storms
I feel empowered by every blinding bolt of lightning
that seems to illuminate the entire world
for a few scattered seconds
Mar 2015 · 4.5k
No Worries
Lou Vaughn Mar 2015
There is no such thing as a "waste of time".
In other universes,
you have accomplished almost everything;
in this one,
you will accomplish everything else.
Mar 2015 · 747
2 seconds
Lou Vaughn Mar 2015
If only I could have known you for 2 seconds,
I would have spent both of them kissing you.
Mar 2015 · 7.3k
DUSK
Lou Vaughn Mar 2015
bare trees seem to gather
along a purple fiery horizon
attentive and still
their envy turning from green to black
as they witness the sun's slow surrender
to the night's dark seduction
Feb 2015 · 887
Life and Death
Lou Vaughn Feb 2015
I don't like easy,
and I don't get discouraged
when things don't go as planned.
I'm encouraged by struggle and motivated by fear.
Someday things will work out for me,
but when they do,
I am certain I will be very close to death.
Jan 2015 · 3.1k
Paradise
Lou Vaughn Jan 2015
I had a dream about you...
We were standing in a garden
I gave you my evil eye
You gave me your Adam's apple
I took a bite and it tasted like forgiveness
My clothes were made of sin
Your boots were made of snakeskin
Paradise
Nov 2014 · 2.3k
My Man
Lou Vaughn Nov 2014
He's a thundercrash thorncake
Can crush you with a handshake
Juicy as a rare steak
Feeds my dreams

Owns a chartreuse shotgun
Is taller than the noon sun
Has me coming undone
Licks my pain

He's a cyanide thrill ride
A rollercoaster landside
Likes it by the bedside
Fills my ache

I am his and he's mine
Like succotash and sunshine
Exploding like a landmine
Save our souls!
Nov 2014 · 1.7k
RIGHT WRONG
Lou Vaughn Nov 2014
SOFT
I imagine your touch

HARD
to want you this much

TRUE
I hunger and ache

FALSE
you are not a mistake
Nov 2014 · 2.2k
To Do List
Lou Vaughn Nov 2014
laugh
whisper
caress
taste
take
ache
burn
Nov 2014 · 5.9k
Dreamers
Lou Vaughn Nov 2014
Recurring friend
Invite me to dream
****** me like a deep dark kiss
Fly with me
Fight the urge to fall
Waking is my nightmare
I fear I will soon forget you
Jun 2014 · 3.0k
Familiar Stranger
Lou Vaughn Jun 2014
Damaged goods
Hopelessly lost
My existence fading
Too tired to fight
Nothing left to cherish
Complete surrender

Hoping to suffocate my hardened heart
I locked it away in a padded box
Intentionally misplacing the key

Then you appeared...
Familiar stranger
Remembered soul
Such a perfect contradiction
Strong and gentle
Warm and cool
A serious man and a playful child

Rescued by your words
Saved by your compassion
You have awakened my emotions
From their deepest sleep

I breathe for you…I wait for you
Jun 2014 · 13.4k
Idioms from an Idiot
Lou Vaughn Jun 2014
You're all bark and no bite
How could something wrong feel so right
Wish we could've had just one night
But it wasn't in the cards

I'm alone here while you need space
Stuck between a rock and a hard place
It's the closest thing to any embrace
That I'll ever feel

Whether mountain or molehill
Tears are falling in my milk spill
I swallow down another hard pill
From my half empty glass

Vicarious atonement
Another happiness postponement
Damaged heart and stolen moments
Back to square one

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