The world was not prepared to meet me.
My mother listened to soldiering footsteps; not to my inner cries.
Ears were deafened, and hearts were clamped down on.
I was conceived in double darkness; my fingers formed in midnight and stars.

My father ran away without plans of coming back.
My house was shattered inside my mother's womb.

I fell away from earth like wings made of flesh,
Fevered and forgotten.
They sifted through my mother's body and did not find me.
I was nothing but nothing died.
I died in the deaths of many people.
I died in many dyings.

To love you now means to love you from distance
My eyes swelling,
Heart desolate and longing
For the sound of your voice,
Warmth of your embrace

In the midst of despairing days,
Dreary nights
And sorrowful worries
Here, I love you from afar

In loving you there is no tomorrow;
Only today
If the world crushes on a beam of light in this moment,
Will I ever see you again?

You were never mine
But my heart is always yours.

In this society, the beautiful is more loved                
Accepted,                
Cherished,                
Adored,                
Held so dearly.                
                
Oh how difficult it is to hide                
The unlovely                
and ill favored sight.

I am not yours and you are not mine.
You belong to someone else.
But you're here, by my side, and in this cold and rainy night we embrace
the warmth of each other's presence.

Thank you.

Thank you for giving me the chance to be in this moment.

I know this won't happen again in the future, that's why I am truly grateful.

I love you.

The shattered parts of me continue to be beaten
My crushed emotions and little strength are slowly vanishing
The fuzz light of hope dims as time goes by.

My bones are weak;
My voice is getting small,
My fingers find it hard to grasp,
and my legs begin to tremble.

I am ablaze with sadness,
fear, longing, and doubt
The days are becoming slower and longer
My gaze is getting blurred.
Will I be able to find my way home?

Is this really it?
Won't I ever see your smile again?
Won't I ever have to hold your hand
And kiss you when I can?
Is this really it?
Our laughter,
Our tears,
Our happiness,
Our stories,
Our love.

Is this really it?

I can feel your hand on me fading
Fading, fading...
Slipping away
And I can no longer see....