Do you ever look back on your old work
Do you see the flowery attempts at depth
And quickly brush the pages away?
Do you feel from reading it the purpose with which you wrote it,
Or are you overwhelmed with 'how silly is sounds'?
The whole point of poetry in sound,
But if we cannot convey our intent in the framework
Do we risk falling into pop poetry?
Or is the framework a cage?
Five beat, seven, five
Dear God, only so many can go unnamed
Without driving us mad.
Rip out the pages?
Catharsis for not just a moment,
But not forever.
One day, we will wonder-
Images dance in flashes through our minds
That word we hear
The way the rain falls through the leaves
Or light glints off leather book covers-
And not remember.
It will flit around our minds
But we will never catch it
Because we will never be who we were.
The Sun is burning the wrong color
A street lamp instead of a god
Newspaper shreds blow down the street
A wet Silence
The empty glare clings
A fog you can't see without
Scalding the Horizon
The Sun darkens with the blood of the Sky
Day's fatality on His hands
A ruddy end
Florid in its death throes
The gray creeps over
Until fading to the black of decay
The black of the womb
The gray of the Dawn
Pale thighs stained pink with Life
The golden infant crowns
Body still tinged with blood
Heaven lifts Her child
Trying to see His face
Only to lose and birth Him again
The silence of the lambs
Pulls the shepherd from the sheep
The brightness of the Sun
Pushes owls into sleep
The song of the nightingale
Awakens the dove
A child in the city
Deprived of trees' Love
I see it:
In your cautious movements,
From the stillness in your stare,
On your skin.
I hear it:
In stifled hisses of pain,
From metal tinkling in your bag,
On the playlist of songs that scream-
YOU ARE BROKEN
I smell it:
In your sleeve- desperate bleaching,
From your bag- antiseptic,
On your skin- salt and iron.
I taste it:
In your food- why won't you eat?
From your drink- tepid and untouched.
On your lips- cold...
Salt and iron again.
I feel it:
In your summer-sweat long sleeves,
From your stinging tears on my chest,
On your skin-
Sunken lines raised and rising.
I know it:
In our skin,
From from our past,
On flesh that will never let us forget,
But will always remind us to forgive.
— The End —