Trying
Is
Really
Exhausting,
Dear
I’m tired
The
Heart
Endures,
Needlessly.
You never did finish that sentence
You told me to wait
for spring to come
to me
and
to you

It’s true what you said
the cold and frozen winter
remains here
and
lingers on

So I wonder if that’s why
you aren’t here anymore
to see
and
feel spring

It’s true winter feels so long
waiting is unbearable
for me
and
for you

And that’s why I hope
you understand that
your tears
and
your sadness

I can’t forget them any more
than you could
it hurts
and
it hurts

More than the spring
it’s you that I miss
my angel
and
my love
You weren’t contagious and I wish I could have told you that
I
thought
simply

I
worried
simply

I
told
myself

I
talked
it
through

And
I
know.

I
do
know

It
is
okay

I
don’t
have
to be anxious

But
God,
I am

Give
me
peace

Because
my
mind

Is
spinning
worrying

I
am
anxious

I
shouldn’t
be.

But
I
am

Let
me
sleep

please.
You know when you’ve talked it through in your head and you know logically everything is okay but you can’t help worry it isn’t and just....yeah. That.
Are you okay?
Are you alright, are you fine, are you good?
Are you adequate, are you decent?
Are you emotionally stable, sleeping without crying, smiling because you want to?
Are you breathing without questioning, are you waking up without trying, are you eating without throwing up?
Are you reading this poem right now and thinking no?
Are you thinking for the first time, will I ever be okay?

You will be okay.
You will be alright, you will be fine, you will be good.
You will be adequate, you will be decent.
You will be emotionally stable, you will sleep without crying, and smile for the happiness blooming inside of you.
You will breathe without questioning, you will wake up to a new day, you will eat easily
You
are going to be okay.
So please smile sunshine
It’s a fine new day
To be okay :)

- a.g.
just a reminder that everything gets better folks. please, please hang in there. i believe in each and one of yall.
Lightheart Apr 12
It’s not that I can’t get comfort from someone else
it’s not that I can’t talk to someone else
I just really wanted it to be you
More than anyone else, I really needed you
Lightheart Apr 12
Somedays I just want to throw it all away
pretend it was never important to me
be alone by my own choice
and not theirs
Somedays I’m just so sick of friendships
I just want to go back to my cat
and leave you all behind
before you leave me behind
again
Friendship sucks
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