summer day
It was just a summer day I remember,
I never had meet you but we talked,
I never seen you but I knew who you were
Seemed to be all a dream
But I can't seem to forget it
We walked
We talked
we even smiled at each other.
But it never ended my way,
It always ended with you choosing him anyways.
I tried,
but I failed,
even if today you long for me
I'm past your long,
because it was always my fail.

Haunted by a shadow
pressure that fills your body
Scared of Failure
Hunger for success

Long days with short nights
fear of the imperfection
Clustered in the gaps
of the arranged plans

What if they don't fit?
Will they accept me?
They're to big
I'm to small
Just want to be me.

There are son many things I offer
Why can't  you see that?
Now you say I'm selfcentered?
I never crossed my mind it was always you
You hate what I've become
Just had to do something for me
Now you choose black instead of white?
Just everything with white seems to slow me down
Don't you steal my heart!
Trust me, wouldn't even try, full of mines of lies surrounding it.
You say I never loved you?
When I have you my heart, was that not love?
Just don't want to loose you.
Its been lost for a while now

Young girl, brown eyes
***** blond hair,
A smile that lights up my eyes
Seems to be shy and grey
I Only see beauty
When she acts like a beast
She is such a cutie
***** she thinks i have cuddies
But the only thing i have
Is a gente heart and it longs for you

Thump thump foot steps roar
Thump thump till it hits sold core

Wush wush sings the wind
Wush wush goes my hym

Drip drip dances the rain
Drip drip abel blood in hands of Cain

Zzz zzz I sing today
Zzz zzz just wishing and dreaming of another day

Pains ment to be felt
Grasped and taken a hold of
It you don't,
It just grows until its unbarable

Who am I?
No one, but yourself knows.
Sometimes we loose the thought of who we are.
That doesn't mean we are lost completly
Sometimes it just gets cloudy
Like if no one understands or sees you as you
Well this makes you fell ashamed, fake.
Gives you a felling of utter hopelessness
That sinks, and burns.
The only way to know who you really are is by being yourself
Sometimes you might get put down, but not always.
Look in the bright side there are so many people someone is bound to be for you

Why do we hide crying?
Are we ashamed of our sentimental value?
Tears are ment to run down our cheeks
Fill our eyes, and relieve us from the strain
No one can be strong without ever being weak.

Forgiveness
What does forgive mean?
well in my definition of forgive,
It isn't to stop blaming someone
, its to be able to live knowing
someone did something to you
even if it means blocking it out.
In my case it isn't like that,
The more I block someone,
the more shame I bring to myself.
Not only for acepting,
but for letting someone go of a judgmental thought or action
It just all seems to incriminate myself.

Where there is hope there is life
Never loose that light
Even if its fading
Take hold of it and let it carey you

Why do they mean so much?
One simple no,yes,hate or even love
Can turn an awful day into a great memory.
Words have their sick and strange way to make the world spin around, what would we do without them?
We wouldn't be able to feel.
Words are simplely our way to show or speak what we have been thinking or thought

Why do we paint the world with colors?
If we are only living in black and white?

You said I did what?
Trust me when I say I didn't tap that
She told you ?
Well babe she is taking you for a fool.
Why would you ever do that?
Why would I change you for someone flat?
You were the best thing I had.
You make me feel like im so bad
Roumer has it,
You been around ****
***** for me
Just gonna have to refil the new clip

He was a nice guy
He saw and gave what he could
He lived for the service
Even if there was nothing in return

She was a stranger
hazel eyes and brown hair
Only knew one thing
To give love even if she was scared

He craved for someone just like him
To love and care without return
To love and protect him,
and what's left of his heart

She only wanted someone to honor her
where she could love and protect
to rob him of his sadness
Even if she was in the abyss of darkness

One day in the pub drinking his sorrows
sits by him an innocent girl made of glass
whom he could see even her deepest value
And that moment he knew

Lost in nightmare, she stumbles in a pub
lost in thought, sits by a stranger
Something felt off about everything,
For the first time she felt safe, protected.

Moments later, they look eyes.
They both felt their sorrows, and warmth

The man thought, only those eyes make me happy
The women closed her eyes and smiled
The man said my buy a drink?
The girl, women, stranger just nodded

Lost In thought I found love she said
the man responds the most beautiful surprise
comes always when you least  expect it

The distance between you and I
Forms a great gap,
We really can't see it or touch it
but it's there.
It feeds from us, nurturing off our agony
Day by day getting bigger, and deeper,
till one day, when there is so much agony,
that we become numb of life, and welcome death,
but just before we give in to all the darkness, comes a ray
a ray of pure goodness, a ray of courage to keep holding.
just a little push to climb that gap or even take away the distance.