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Or be a watch dog
Inhabit a world where I have purpose
With ease of life features
I wish AR devs would
Hurry up with it
Being told who is friend or foe
Leaving less woe
Rising up to my Call of Duty
For Honour of King and country
In a magical realm or
A faraway utopian dystopia
Breaking the laws of physics
That bind us here.

Have you ever been so far down,
You anticipate the thoughts?
Those thoughts, the ones where
You want to end it?
You say it and need the help
Desperately
But can't get it anywhere.

You get it and don't feel better after it.
Come away with the news you expect
Anxiety. Thought so
Depression. Not shocked
Autism. Wait, what?
Oh it's only mild
That's not any better
How do you cope?

Why is it that a cold day
Warms me more inside
Than all the hot summer days
I left far behind
Nothing can heat my soul
No emotion or flame
Makes me hot or happy
My black heart beats
For no one as the
Blood of the snake
Seeps through my veins

Today I collapsed,
The pressure in my head
Forced me down,
while the pressure outside my head
Tries to make me rise up.
In my mind
I’m already dead
Just waiting around
For the final nail
To seal the deal.
Body and mind in the final
Competing for my head
On their wall
Once I’m dead.
What a strange trophy,
Why not an elk instead?
The prestige of killing oneself
The honour of your brain
On a shelf.
The ultimate control,
Until death no longer scares you.

We put our lives
In case of emergency
To keep you safe at
Night, while you sleep;
Knights in blue armour
Rough and tough
Men and women ready
For selfless action
So that your slumber
Is peaceful and protected

Grades
Just numbers on a page
So why do they
Say that I am of age
To do one of the five
Jobs where I'll probably rage
Constantly deteriorating minds
At their lack of success
In a fixed race
For a school to impress
A larger group of those
That quite frankly couldn't care less
Provided they get the
Same number of mindless
Workers each year as
Consistency is never to depress
For this is my future
A number that I cannot nurture
All who look at think
They know my nature
So wrong they are
The months of torture
To be just above average

Trust is delicate, more delicate than
Ancient China, silk or spider webs.
Trust is the hardest thing to earn
It can never be bought or bribed
However is so easy to break,
Easier than damp paper
Easier than making water ripple.

If you trust no one, believe me
Your life will go no where
Trust yourself or no one else will
You’re your biggest asset
If someone breaks your trust,
Don’t look to them waiting for them
To ask your forgiveness