Shame seeps into my being so easily,
it finds a home in my stomach and mind,
it never waits for an invite or a greeting.
My whole life you have been the cause of my shame,
I lay awake thinking of the things I have said,
thinking about my every move and breath around you,
wondering if I have embarrassed myself yet again.
Yesterday I realized you are my loved one, my blood,
but I do not deserve the gut wrenching shame
that you grace upon me with your company.
Today I am shameless,
today you are no longer a threat to my confidence.
In time I will love myself,
in time you will be nowhere in sight.
I have always struggled with the feeling of embarrassment or regret, it has led me to the darkest moments of my life. These feelings are brought upon by someone always telling me I should be ashamed of myself. Today I feel free, so I wrote a poem as one does.