the angels carry you away
because the devils on his way
you never deserved this life
crying alone every night
you've been acting strong
while everything's been going wrong
And every time you said you’re okay
You looked down and walked away
You fought this battle on your own
Praying every time you’re alone
You needed saving tonight
And for you, the angels would fight

Daddy don’t let me go
There’s so much that you don’t know
Mommy don’t leave me on my own
I can’t walk this road alone
It’s so hard to stay alive
When I dream about suicide
You don’t understand, I’m trapped in my mind
The place where monsters and demons hide
One thing I’ve learnt is that I can’t escape
There’s nowhere to run when you run from your fate

In my head even though it's already full,
Of webs and dust,
Pull the light,
My glass is half empty,
Now and yet I still run after the,
Stars and push them as far back in my,
Head as they will go,
I try so hard to be,
As happy as you are,
But I'm afraid it's not,
Enough.

When i was a little girl i thought i was in love
I thought love was just having a boyfriend
I thought that love was just saying he's mine
But i have never been so wrong

When i was 13 i thought holding hands was love
I believed that when you kissed it was love
My mom said my dad said he loved her and she knew that was love

The first time someone said they loved me
I panicked because it felt so wrong
It felt wrong to say i love you when you dont

To this day i still dont know what love is
Yes i have said it to people before
But that did not mean much
Love cannot be forced

My mom says love comes when the time is right
Stop wasting time looking for love
Live your life and make mistakes while you can
Love will find you

I Promise

No words of mine are good enough
I am happy you are free again

What are you doing?
How could you do that?
What were you thinking?
Dead eyes, blind gaze, blinking.
So. Many. Questions.
Lies upon lies as replies.
An endless web being spun in my head.
But everyone lies right?

You all think I'm crazy.
Get out of my life,
You're all nothing.
Lie!
Lie and say you're trying,
trying to help.
I know you'd rather die.
You're losing an uphill battle.

You'll never break me.
I'll never give in.
I can't be cured;
Because nothing is wrong with me.
You're the mental ones.
At least my lies are justified.
I'm content.
You. Are. Not.

I'll keep my conscience as my company, thanks.
For who would I phone?
Everyone is incapable of understanding.
No sir, I prefer to be alone.
Stop trying to relate before you start.
My heart is too cold and it's just useless.
You're useless.
Everything is useless.

Go, try and take me on the guilt trip.
I've been down that road before.
It's more boring than the person in the drivers seat;
Who's telling me of the greatest battles, fun facts, and feats.
Face hits the concrete.
Sorry, I think I fell asleep.
Your troubles do not concern me.

Why should I care about you?
I'm not you.
I wont sympathize, empathize, step behind your eyes;
To see your lies, your struggles
They're YOURS!
Not mine.
Stop crying, you're fine.
A few drops of blood wont **** ya.