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Mar 2020 · 158
too good to be true
laura-jessica Mar 2020
you're like sunlight, you light me up and show me the way when i'm around you
but
i cannot stay with you for too long or you'll burn me.
laura-jessica Jul 2019
it seems like you've disappeared, vanished, evaporated from my life. have you forgotten about me?
or do you just not choose to acknowledge my cries for me?
i chose to believe in you, everyday, but it seems like you do not believe in me.

have you given up or me?
am i a lost cause?
perhaps this is why you haven't been answering my prayers.

God, are you listening to me? i need you.
hello?
its me, are you still there.
May 2019 · 223
what is good?
laura-jessica May 2019
his dark hair,
his olive complexion,
his mysterious eyes,

drew me in like a moth fleeing to a fire.

but like the moth, going into what seemed good, ended with me getting burned.
Mar 2019 · 225
what a relapse feels like
laura-jessica Mar 2019
have you ever ate so much much that you started to feel sick?

you're full but they just keep feeding you and feeding you.

you get so fed up until you just *****.

and then after you *****.

you feel empty

and shaky.

fragile







that's what my relapse felt like.
Dec 2018 · 467
new life
laura-jessica Dec 2018
highschool

drug deals and parties,

drunk texting and ***,

condoms and bathroom make-outs,

diets and binges.


highschool
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laura-jessica Dec 2018
breakfast:
"I'm not hungry, mother. I will get something at school."
No, I'm starving, but I cannot eat breakfast because I have to thin.

Lunch:
"Oh, why am I not eating? I just had a big breakfast, friend."
No, I skipped breakfast because I have to be thin. I will not eat lunch because I  want to a have a skinny waist.

Dinner:
"Oh, Mother, Im not hungry mother. I had a big lunch!"
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No, I skipped breakfast, I skipped lunch. I am starving, but I cannot eat because I have to little thighs
:(
Dec 2018 · 1.9k
pretty petty lies
laura-jessica Dec 2018
im so sad
im so sa
im so s
im so
im s
im
i
im
im s
im so
im so f
im so fi
im so fin
im so fine
Dec 2018 · 200
No Means No
laura-jessica Dec 2018
No,

I don't want your filthy hands caressing my curves.

Please remove your hands from my chest, you're hurting me.

I am begging you, don't take away the only innocence I have left.

No, I don't want you on top of me, you're crushing my fraile body.

Stop it.


Get off of me.


No.


Please.



Shouldn't these pleas be enough for you to stop?
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Dec 2018 · 205
liar, liar, liar
laura-jessica Dec 2018
don't tell me you love me.

don't tell me you loved me if you broke me.

don't tell me you love me if you manipulated me.

don't tell me you love me if you wanted her body.

don't tell me you love me if you left me.

don't tell me you love me,

because you're lying.
Dec 2018 · 510
The Heart Mends
laura-jessica Dec 2018
sometimes to fix a broken heart,

you have to hurt it even more than the last time

it was in pain.
Nov 2018 · 425
she's better than.
laura-jessica Nov 2018
don't waste your time on a broken butterfly like me,

when you can have a blossoming caterpillar like her.
Oct 2018 · 181
broken effort
laura-jessica Oct 2018
i just now, fell worse,
just a scrape of a blade

let tears fall to my cheeks
that didn't damp for months

the rain from my eyes
that shouldn't have came today

for the pouring sorrow streaming down my face
pushed me into a dreadful relapse.

for the relapse washed away my months of broken efforts away
with my tears.

my cries of blue
and my arms of red
my efforts are broken
and better left unsaid.
Sep 2018 · 195
stick thin
laura-jessica Sep 2018
stick thin,

i want to be envied by girls
not the envious.

stick thin,

i want to see my ribs bulge out of my skin.

stick thin,

i want my wrist to be as small as 7 year olds.

stick thin,

i want to be as small as my self esteem.
Sep 2018 · 267
same old ending.
laura-jessica Sep 2018
when the cold tears arrive,

and the warm love rots.

the black darkness of hate,




stays the same.
oh hey, it has been a while!
laura-jessica Jul 2018
when I"m with my friends,
I'm loud and jumping off the walls.

like I'm on high.

but when they leave,
when its done.

there is nothing left.
nothing more than a silence.

nothing more than an after math of a high.
laura-jessica Jul 2018
you know that little rush of adrenaline you get when you're about
to fall?

that's what it feels like to have anxiety.

to be on edge all the time,
thinking you're about to be pushed over

into a sea of people
drowning you

it feels like





you






are





dying

inside yo
                  u
                      r
                        
                
                                   mi
                                              nd
Jul 2018 · 261
you
laura-jessica Jul 2018
you
you inflicted your broken problems onto me,
you should've known better than to cry on my shoulder
i was too young,
too innocent,
now breakdown in the middle of the night,

the way you did.
Jul 2018 · 220
trust?
laura-jessica Jul 2018
my trust can't be broken
if i never gave it
out to begin with.
Jul 2018 · 236
living to survive
laura-jessica Jul 2018
there is a difference between

living

and

just

breathing.
Jun 2018 · 235
had.
laura-jessica Jun 2018
i had a boy,
my boy.

he promised to love me,
but put a strain on my heart.

he didn't love me like he promised to me.

his lies are disgusting,
i even think his truths are fake.

it was bad enough you cheated,
but to lie to my face was even worse.

i had a little bitxh as a boyfriend.
Jun 2018 · 261
me not my
laura-jessica Jun 2018
you don't love me

you just love being between my thighs.
hey, i'm back
Jun 2018 · 230
...
laura-jessica Jun 2018
...
i can't do this.

i'm done fighting.

i'm done crying.

i'm done breathing.

i'm just-




      



    done.
May 2018 · 251
can you?
laura-jessica May 2018
can you hear my screaming silence
from where you're sitting?

can you hear my bleeding depression that seldom
slips out of my pale moon lips?

can you see my suffocating pain thats written in my eyes? its in fine print, but it is there.


can you see me? i am dying.
May 2018 · 426
fright in a mind
laura-jessica May 2018
sometimes i scare myself so bad,

i want to runaway from my own mind.
May 2018 · 232
no pay
laura-jessica May 2018
my brain is working overtime

until it eventually

breaks
May 2018 · 214
heart assult
laura-jessica May 2018
loving you feels so good,

but hurts so bad.
May 2018 · 196
odd comparison
laura-jessica May 2018
forgiveness is like drowning,
screaming than silence
Apr 2018 · 197
playful wounds
laura-jessica Apr 2018
dance through the pain
everyone cries to.
Apr 2018 · 426
pressure weather
laura-jessica Apr 2018
when the clouds cry,
why doesn't anyone ask why its sad,
instead of pressuring it into

false sunshine?
hm, something to think about
Apr 2018 · 197
feelings
laura-jessica Apr 2018
feelings often get in the way.
those **** feelings..
Apr 2018 · 227
daily eating habits
laura-jessica Apr 2018
binge,
cry,
get angry,
stick my fingers down my throat,
make myself sick until i ***** blood and bile,
repeat.
Apr 2018 · 176
happy.
laura-jessica Apr 2018
i'm happier.

the world the brighter,

the roses smell nicer,

the music sounds better.

i'm happier
hmm the reason is a secret, but it makes me happier.
Apr 2018 · 212
Untitled
laura-jessica Apr 2018
when my poetry draws a picture in your mind,
what do you see?

do you see a scared little girl?
                     or
do you see a strong women?
hm
Apr 2018 · 304
um what?
laura-jessica Apr 2018
14 year old girls in my high school are out here getting pregnant, mean while i cant even get a boy to text me back?
Apr 2018 · 230
remedy for a sad girl
laura-jessica Apr 2018
party.

drink.

forget.

repeat.
Apr 2018 · 197
would you?
laura-jessica Apr 2018
if i told you it was love, would you believe me?
laura-jessica Apr 2018
i can't do it.
i can't go on another day, depressed and not loved.

wait.
not loved?
what?
i'm loved?

i'm loved right?

the old light bulb is my mind,
constantly flickering from on and off,

but i can't fix it, not even with my tools.

i don't want be here,
i want to be alone.
i just wanna end it.

am i loved?
wait.
when was the last time someone said they loved me?
i'm not loved?
i'm loved.
i'm loved right?

i'm scared it's dark,
and it keeps getting darker.

where's the light?

was there a light?
i don't know.

thats stupid.
i'm stupid.
just a series of thoughts in my head
Apr 2018 · 289
The Kids are Not innocent.
laura-jessica Apr 2018
his lips are soft like a sweet child's blanket,
but his tongue likes to naughty dance with mine.

i can feel his passion on me and we both got combusted into it.

his hands gripped on my petite waist like he was riding a bicycle.

he tastes just like vanilla,
he's just as sweet as buttercream.

his cheeks are like an oven,
burning up around me.

he's anything but innocent,
but he's more than just a 14 year old boy.
Apr 2018 · 277
don't shoot
laura-jessica Apr 2018
when did my safety,
become victimized by a gun?

what made you want to s
                                             h
                                               o
                                                 o
                                                   t   a gun at our future?
what made you want to h
                                          u
                   ­                      r
                                       t  us?


when did my safety become the 2nd priority?
Apr 2018 · 193
Untitled
laura-jessica Apr 2018
i've seen things, but all the wrong sights.

i've heard things, but all the wrong words.

i've done things, but all the wrong doings.
Mar 2018 · 191
bothersome.
laura-jessica Mar 2018
i do not write to impress,
i write express me.

if you do not like it,
could you please leave.
i hate it when i get told what i'm feeling, what i'm not, or how i should feel. you do not know my feelings unless i write it. people tell me how to write, i love constructive criticism, but do not tell me how to write. yes i am young, but that really shouldn't matter, it truly bothers me when i get told "it wasn't real love." or something along the lines. if you don't like my poetry that is okay, you valid to have your opinion, but i am valid to know my own feelings. thank you.
Mar 2018 · 200
boundless
laura-jessica Mar 2018
i would give all i own,
everything i will own,

to feel pain again,

because i don't feel anything.

I understand pain is horrible
but how can it be more terrible

than this infinite silence that lives inside of me?
Mar 2018 · 199
back a while
laura-jessica Mar 2018
i died a long time ago,
but i'm still here.

my body is here,
but without a soul.
Mar 2018 · 151
rut
laura-jessica Mar 2018
rut
i've  
       been
               feeling          
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Mar 2018 · 138
Untitled
laura-jessica Mar 2018
old or young
pure or not
we all unite,
into one song.
Mar 2018 · 160
Untitled
laura-jessica Mar 2018
the sun can cry,

like the rain.

the rain can shine,

like the sun.
Mar 2018 · 342
star sky
laura-jessica Mar 2018
what happens when one star dies, in the sky of one million?

does the whole sky seem dimmer?

or does it stay the same?
Mar 2018 · 152
tell me your honest opinion
laura-jessica Mar 2018
what do you think of me and my poems?
i really want to know!!!!!
Mar 2018 · 160
like, like, like, like
laura-jessica Mar 2018
boys like girls

girls like boys

boys like boys

girls like girls
Mar 2018 · 261
cut
laura-jessica Mar 2018
cut
i am trying to cut myself out of this body.
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