I looked into my grandpa's eyes
In my daughter's face disguised
My son's hands now strong indeed
Just like my dad's I see.

Temperament like calm currents flow
From generations long ago
Eyes hazel gold so beautiful
Passed to me ... ages old

Grandma gave her that tenacity
And there's Meema's willful personality
My son took Peepa's tender heart
That feels the pain of another's lot

High cheekbones a dead give away
Of Comanche heritage displayed
Blonde hair like one we never knew
His life cut off way too soon

Deep poetic waters flow
Music locked inside us rose
From history past revealed today
Sweet sung lullabies relayed.

Unknown tears that flowed from souls
Pain and hardship we'll never know
What did it take to bring us here
What suffering did they volunteer

Archives of history living in me
Within me the keys to great mysteries
Treasures buried deep inside my soul
Tapestries of lives sewn together as a whole

Fragments of you, pieces of me
Weaving together delicate filigrees
Illustrious building rise from the grave
Living forever through endless age

Your Word becomes the stakes that crucify this flesh
Your truth becomes the thorn that pierces this pride
The sword it rips into my soul and renders it dead
The painful cries ring out inside, to live again then I must die

I'm dying just to live again
I'm drowning just to swim again
In the rivers of undying life
Awakened from a mortal's plight

I'm running after You
I'm reaching after You
O Lord, find me - find me!

In the valley of such dryness; in a land of barrenness
A song I sing of plentitude - faith's song of mercy met
The well of waters burst forth in me - a wellspring of His life
No long is it I that live, the life I live is Christ's

What is truth?  Where is it found?
It's in that place I don't want to see
It's beneath the masks where I hide
It's where the rubber meets the road
It's that right choice I choose to deny

What is truth?  Where is it found?
It's the ray of hope where no hope is found
It's who I am when no one else is around
It's the narrow road where few will walk
It's that place of identity beyond all our faults

Truth is the hard choice I can't seem to assert
Truth is the reality shut off behind walls of hurt
Truth is hard yet brings us such healing
Truth hurts, yet gives hope through believing
Truth is light in a world of darkness
Truth is the reflection of God's holiness

You've ripped open the lid of protection
You've torn down the walls of self-preservation
I'm stripped bare before You - no covering of self remains
Just when I though I had my kingdom secure
Just when I though I had perfected the act of surety

I have girded myself upon pillars of another man's vision
I lay in the vineyards of an angry man's dreams
My vineyard I have forsaken behind walls of disillusionment
Being yoked up with a man's burdens of works
I look at the walls surrounding my hopes
Vines of youth now overgrown and wild; forsaken and empty

You came with Your sickle and cut into branches of coldness and fear
You tear apart the thicket of my soul to find hope of fruitfulness
You break down the walls of separation and call me out
"Come here!  Come here!  Breathe again the long lost breaths of refreshing!"

How do I depart from the expectations of those I am yoked to?
How do I escape the despising of those who have created my place in this world?
How do I go?  Where is the trail of those who have walked this way before?

I see You through tears of fear and shame
I see You through tears of desire and desperation
Your eyes pierce through the deception I found comfort in
Your arms reach past this world I found security in
Your voice strikes into the center of a child's heart long gone in a world I don't belong

I want only You!  I need only You!
I'm ready to rebuild the old places
I'm ready for the pain of purging
Come, Lord Jesus!  Come!

The arrow pierces into my soul
It buries deep, the point so cold.
The archer's hand once held mine
Such love and joy - our hearts entwined

Poison begins to seep inside
In God's hand I must abide
The stinging pain brings doubt and fear
The one I loved and held so dear

How can it be - why can't he see
O dear Lord, please strengthen me
My heart resists the walls of anger
My faith stands up against what I cannot answer

The poison tries to ravage me
Doubt inflicts such misery
Lord, I call upon Your Name
So distraught, Your word I claim

Your hands they lift me out of this pit
My eyes on Yours I now fix
I'm taken up from this fleeting life
And carried to a different plight

Angry voice crying out
I'm confused, what's this all about
Your eyes look on the men You touched
The *****, the blind - You gave so much

There, the woman with her son
You met her when it seemed his life was done
Year after year that lame man did wait
Until one day, You changed his fate

So may faces once needed You
How could they now just turn from You
How deeply You knew the heart of man
Deceptive, fallen - hopeless circumstance

Yet, You laid down all you have
Despite the arrows, You became our salve
Forgive me, Lord, and make of me
That servant like Your Son I'll be

I'll heal the broken and give sight to the blind
Although, there'll be those I leave behind
The hurt, it stings as the arrows plunge deep
But, it's your life, not mine - I will seek

Thank You, Lord, for showing again
Your, love, Your grace - and what I gain in the end

O Lord, mighty God
How awesome and powerful You are
You rule with justice high above
In heights above the stars

With one word, You spoke the heavens
With one word, founded the earth
With love in Your heart, You called man from the dust
You filled him and gave him his worth

Your knowledge is too high for me
Your wisdom I cannot attain
At Your feet I humbly bow
I will never be the same

You are God - there is no other
Greater than what eyes can see
Yet fear still grips me, with doubt I still struggle
I've hidden my face from Thee

So many idols remain in my life
Things I've refused to let go of
Selfishness, pride - they rage deep inside
But I lay them now down at your feet

My eyes I fix upon Your truth
My heart I set upon Your Word
I'll run this race with strength from You
A new creation to finally emerge

Forgive me, Lord, and cleanse me within
Renew this darkened mind
Change me, transform me, purge out the sin
For You I lay down my life

You are my God, there is no other
Greater than what eyes can see
Your power's at work changing me
Who You have purposed I'll be

There is no love like that of my Savior
It's as deep as an ocean; higher than mountains grandeur
In my deepest of sorrow, it lifts me
Though surrounded by trouble, it saves me
Make me to know your love more and more
May I share Your love to all who are poor
You've taken me out of deepest distress
You've set me on high; from my enemies give rest
When my heart was broken and shattered from sin
It was Your hand that held me and restored me again
O how I love You, my God and King
O how I love You, my Savior and Friend.
Though my love's not enough to repay what You've done
Teach me, O God, to give back to someone.
O to know the height and the breadth
Of Your love - to know its width and its depth