Gale L Mccoy: Poems

Jun 2020 · 222

Gale L Mccoy Jun 2020

the brightest white is a thin layer
of clouds spread across the sky
thick enough to warp the sunlight behind
all that has shape and color
diffused

#color #sky #light #diffuse

Apr 2020 · 204

equilibrium is not a flat line

Gale L Mccoy Apr 2020

equilibrium is not a flat line

climbing a mountain and coming back down
picking up pace after a long break
dancing and running out of breath
waiting for eyes to adjust to the darkness
getting blinded by the light
a sore throat after yelling
bruised skin after impact
sweating in heat
shivering in cold
a hot burning fever
swelling flesh
a dizzy spell
and a healing process

#change #climb #break #equilibrium #healing

Feb 2020 · 140

fell asleep in arctic waters

Gale L Mccoy Feb 2020

fell asleep in arctic waters

seaweed stones and sand
layer on layer over old clothes
made me so heavy deep at sea
in a state of survival
i hibernated in frozen waters
till tide took my body to hot waters

i had to rub skin raw
to grow light enough to breach surface
naked once more
i stand back on the island of my own

#hibernation #body #raw #water

Jan 2020 · 132

insatiable

Gale L Mccoy Jan 2020

insatiable

insatiable child
you are akin to a black hole
only seen when consuming

you’ve thrown yourself
to the wilds just to prove
you can beat back the wolves again

you’d open the door
to a plane in flight
just to feel the wind
on your burning flesh

you’ve gone so far
that you have to yell
to be known

#blackhole #wolds #wolves #child #yell

Jan 2020 · 216

familiar

Gale L Mccoy Jan 2020

familiar

knowing a place
tastes like vibrato on my teeth
the cafe au chocolate tastes like milk today
eyes closed, I can guess it’s maker
sometimes i sit in my car
let the cold seep in
because it doesn’t matter where i am

what is the difference between content and malcontent

#cafe #content #knowing #cold

Dec 2019 · 228

I think something was waiting for me there

Gale L Mccoy Dec 2019

I think something was waiting for me there

I drove slow through a ****** of crows and knew something was calling me to a place abandoned
If the wind hadn't bit so hard I think I might have pulled over and walked to the weathered down guts of a barn by roadside

#wind #cold #crow #road #abandoned

Oct 2019 · 270

leaf emoji

Gale L Mccoy Oct 2019

leaf emoji

i tapped a curled up tiny white spider
off from my money tree
how nice it must have been

#leaf #thoughts #spider #tree

Oct 2019 · 157

i hold my own leash

Gale L Mccoy Oct 2019

i hold my own leash

i'm more of an optimist now
than i was as a child
i've seen past my own walls
and have decided i will walk
as far and for as long as i want

#optimist #freedom #child #growth

Sep 2019 · 218

sloth

Gale L Mccoy Sep 2019

sloth

how to i remove the topper
stomped on top of my head
why do i see through
lime stained goggles
no amount of elbow grease
unscrews the top
nor clears the glass

when were these
peanut butter walls built
the thoughts like gnats and flies
pile in layers to the wall
clear away one and
another grows grotesque
like an apartment
paired with depression

all i want is a clean slate
to build a new

#filth #depression #mind #sloth

Sep 2019 · 691

let me

Gale L Mccoy Sep 2019

let me

I whisper to myself
no, I write to myself
cause the clack of keys
is a sound unreadable...

"let me be ugly"

#writing #whisper #ugly #control

Sep 2019 · 428

plans for 09/13/19 near midnight

Gale L Mccoy Sep 2019

plans for 09/13/19 near midnight

made up of wind over wind over earth fueling fire
no water to smooth the edges and clean out the soot
flow down with gravity instead of float to the head
so soak, let the lake fill cracks in the psyche
permeable skin, drink through feet
push off from banks
become the moon in the water

#moon #lake #gravity #wind #fire #earth #water #psyche

Sep 2019 · 288

moon basked

Gale L Mccoy Sep 2019

moon basked

water so still
i see my face now
like a rising moon
...
the water is not clear
so i must go deep
into moon basked lakes
...
i dive into myself

#moon #water #self #reflection

Sep 2019 · 234

catalysis

Gale L Mccoy Sep 2019

catalysis

built a puzzle out of my surroundings
till it makes the perfect formula
the catalysis: energy

#puzzle #perfect #energy

Jul 2019 · 274

mimic

Gale L Mccoy Jul 2019

mimic

a fight, tooth and nail
fingertips on glass
snarl breathless and feral
as breath fogs the mirror
push more
till your hands wrap around
the bare throat of
whom dares take your face

#feral #mirror #fight #face

Jul 2019 · 650

i forgot what time felt like

Gale L Mccoy Jul 2019

i forgot what time felt like

this is the life i want to live
I say from the ground
no it isnt
but itll be part of it
time
to have it to waste and wallow
the time to let myself be swallowed

#time #wallow #waste #life

May 2019 · 223

wine glass heart

Gale L Mccoy May 2019

wine glass heart

my wine glass heart
meant to fill with
skies i'll claim
blue to peach to white
i dropped it
with wine drunk hands
painted the remains
with the skies
it was meant to hold

#wine #glass #heart #sky #drunk

May 2019 · 184

if i blow will you burn my house down?

Gale L Mccoy May 2019

if i blow will you burn my house down?

little flame
i am a gust of wind
i don't want to feed you
into something all consuming
i've rid of all my flammables
the only thing you can lick at
is me

#flame #wind #consume #burn

May 2019 · 288

when green light floods in

Gale L Mccoy May 2019

when green light floods in

is it trust or negligence
to move forward when lights blind
to believe
/there is road ahead
/you'll survive the fall
/impact will be swift

#lights #trust #neglect #road #fall #survive

May 2019 · 372

you or your creations

Gale L Mccoy May 2019

you or your creations

you poisoned the tree
now eat its rotting fruit
the maggots in your stomach
must eat

#rot #maggot #eat #fruit #tree #poison

Mar 2019 · 267

Icarus Floats

Gale L Mccoy Mar 2019

Icarus Floats

and the laws say
you must be heavy
weight down and burdened
or else you'll float
and to float means to
pop pop pop
when you get to close
to the sun

and the mother says
you must hold on
for if you slip
you'll know loss
and as you let go
they tell you "we warned you"
spinning the thoughts
of sky to how far away
the ground is going to be

and your hands say
this isn't meant
to be held with such
an iron grip
the burning sun
can't possible hurt more
than the weight of gravity

and your eyes say
who's to say the sun
is even the destination

#icarus #mother #law #gravity #sky #sun

Mar 2019 · 324

good mornng

Gale L Mccoy Mar 2019

good mornng

walk into the cafe
know eyeliner and glasses
hide what needs to be hid
accept the compliments
tell a stranger your issues
talk about good vibes
drink some coffee
be an hour late
get a free drink
cast a sickly glow
buy some tea
burn your tongue
realize everyone in this cafe
is as ****** up as you

#cafe #coffee #tea #stranger #hide

Mar 2019 · 440

save your progress

Gale L Mccoy Mar 2019

save your progress

im very tired and
ik theres no value in saying that.
but it pops up like a windows update
14.56 minutes before force reboot
save your progress
i press restart as
ive made no progress to save

#tired #update #progress #restart

Mar 2019 · 742

busy busy bee

Gale L Mccoy Mar 2019

busy busy bee

busy busy bee
now you like it
now you're running from-
what are you running from?
their standards wallpapered
over your raw skin
why do you wear it?
you've never liked
the color yellow
you know you can't
fly through water
busy busy bee

#bee #standards #yellow #water #running #raw

Mar 2019 · 180

routine

Gale L Mccoy Mar 2019

routine

she leaves her hovel
and goes 4 doors
down to the cafe
they close in 5 minutes
so she walks back towards
her home
and goes next door to the bar
she looks for a familiar face
she could go behind the bar
it's too cold to go outside
she didn't grab her id
she sees no familiar faces
so she goes home

#home #social #bar #familiar #cold

Mar 2019 · 171

[.003]

Gale L Mccoy Mar 2019

[.003]

rainbow in the details
when the lense focuses
is it the tint of my glasses
or the bend in the sign

#unreality #rainbow #focus

Mar 2019 · 261

[.002]

Gale L Mccoy Mar 2019

[.002]

the world is rendering
in these rabbit eyes
a basilisk turns to stone
in their reflection

#unreality #rabbit #stone #reflect

Mar 2019 · 500

[.001]

Gale L Mccoy Mar 2019

[.001]

hollow me out like a jellyfish
remove my spine-heart-brain
so serine in these
celestial waters

#jellyfish #hollow #waters #unreality

Mar 2019 · 173

one sided

Gale L Mccoy Mar 2019

one sided

for you
where it should ache is hollow
regret for what I don't feel
it died so long ago
and I let it fester under your
apparent disinterest
I kept it in display
for solidarity's sake
a dead thing on a stake
and it's not that
you were the murderer
but more of
we kept the pitiful thing
alive too long after
too many stab wounds
life support of the novel kind
words not ours sewn like
frankenstein's monster
I pulled the plug
and you still don't see
you're talking to a corpse

#friendship #end #neglect

Feb 2019 · 277

raw

Gale L Mccoy Feb 2019

raw

raw
the word repeats
raw raw raw
the word describes
overwhelm - truth - vulnerability
raw meat
is what lays inside flesh
raw as is my poetry
meat picked off my bones
for consumption
it tastes different
as everyone seasons it
cooks it
prepares it
and i serve it raw

#raw #meat #food #poetry #truth

Feb 2019 · 442

a flame with out breath

Gale L Mccoy Feb 2019

a flame with out breath

for 8 days i struck you down
deconstructed myself
it isnt over till
i toss that trinket into a river

you, my dear,
have been the first ive cursed
in a long long time

your effect
truly was a flame to the wind
this town will harbor you no sanctuary
as it never did

what you hold
is a false crescendo
you'll have to use your own breath
to fuel your own flame one day

#flame #breath #curse #fire #wind #magic

Feb 2019 · 246

discounted valentine's day chocolate

Gale L Mccoy Feb 2019

discounted valentine's day chocolate

self-love is /gorging /buying /hoarding
the discounted chocolates
in the darkest corner
brands unheard of
the forgotten relics
considered a step below the rest
to become a delight to enjoy
for those whom
valentines day does not serve
discount chocolate
doesn't care for the reason it's consumed
just that it's consumed
entirely
and with abandon

a prompt a writing friend gave me! 'discounted valentine's day chocolate'

#chocolate #valentines #day #forgotten #consume

Feb 2019 · 191

fury [day 8]

Gale L Mccoy Feb 2019

fury [day 8]

watch as they tell you to let it blow over
tell them eight days is a very long storm
and you didn't have the resources prepared for this
you love a storm as much as the next
but not when you are the storm
banging against the windshield of your car
howling howling howling

#storm #car #eight #days #long

Feb 2019 · 655

[lover] polaris

Gale L Mccoy Feb 2019

[lover] polaris

the night Polaris kissed me
i was a princess trapped in a tower
hair too short to reach the window frame
let alone to be a lifeline for salvation
i could see them from every pane of glass
i was kept behind

i had been blowing kisses
to Polaris
as if they were my lover
for several seasons past
that star and the space i was contained
were the only things that stayed the same

and they
they they they
came a long way just to shine a little

a tiny
tiny tiny tiny
light crowned in a foreign world

still substance enough to
return a kiss

from a prompt 'the night Polaris kissed me'

#sky #star #light #trapped #space #shone #hope

Feb 2019 · 183

radio silence

Gale L Mccoy Feb 2019

radio silence

isn't it funny how you can simply
stop
talking with anyone
and after a long enough time
its like they never existed?

the biggest tragedy here
is how they let it happen
and how i let them let it happen

a reminder
that i lived without them before
and can live without them now
why am i so sad about it still

i dont need anyone but
oh goddess
i want

im sorry i ran out of energy
glasses up for anyone who's tried
to keep with me
through the radio silence

drunk poetry time

#silence #tragedy #friends #want #energy #connection

Feb 2019 · 238

unpacking poem

Gale L Mccoy Feb 2019

unpacking poem

Unpack the worst thing that has ever been said to you, what in their life made them treat you this way? - a prompt given from jillian rabideau's writing live stream

"she's never going to change. she'll never learn"
my mother's eyes on me
stone sea blue-gray and staring right through
i fled round the corner into my room

another round of the same words-the same eyes
the same ways-every goddess ****** day
and that scream
this woman, so hysterical
didn't recognize her child that night
she saw a mirror she couldn't smash

#prompts #mother #parents #eyes

Feb 2019 · 511

a very heavy star

Gale L Mccoy Feb 2019

a very heavy star

the stomach in the palms
of our very hungry hands
spits out acid
reminiscent of the same
gas in nebulas
it pools around our heads
a halo of thought
twisting and spiraling ideas
till it collapses in on itself
falls to our feet
becomes a very heavy star
rolling further away with
each step we refuse to take

see the star wants
to be chased
each stomp makes it jump
releasing a flare
that makes it lighter
stomp and chase
till your star is floating
or else
it will grow ever heavier
a very very very heavy star
falling in on itself
taking you out with it

#star #nebula #space #chase #float #hunger

Feb 2019 · 786

uninstall program?

Gale L Mccoy Feb 2019

uninstall program?

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please try again
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please try again...
[ ] has run out of solutions
please restart the program at your earliest convenience
after you have spent enough time away to forget all prior interaction
start the program and resume from the beginning
...
you can not uninstall the program without administrators permission
please enter password to continue...
password or username incorrect...
forgot password?
YES NO
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forgot username?
YES NO
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please insert your email
we will send you a new identity to your email
if you do not see it within 10 minutes
you're SOL

#identity #forget #unreal #communication #error #try

Feb 2019 · 256

no romance

Gale L Mccoy Feb 2019

no romance

i dont want romance
the idea is glorious and pompous
and the longing to be something else
i still
never wish to fall in performance
nor duel reliance
all i seek are people
with commitment
not to me but to
meaning what they say
a bare backed willingness to be
honest and ambitious
their truest self in front of me
and thus allowing me
to be my truest self before them
and i wish
oh i still do wish
this would be considered
a simple friendship

#romance #true #honest #self #longing #wish #friendship

Feb 2019 · 268

abandoning

Gale L Mccoy Feb 2019

abandoning

the abandoning
it happens by the moon
and the noon
and you'd be a fool to think
it'll spare you

a double-edged sword
a wine glass with 2 different shades
of lipstick on the rim
a single shot glass and three empty bottles
the name of a stranger
drawn in saliva on a piece of leather

all that meets us is silence
a word we repeat on crescendo

#abandon #moon #fool #sword #wine #silence

Jan 2019 · 177

where

Gale L Mccoy Jan 2019

where

i can't read your words right now
how can i read anything
when i can hardly think
one foot in front of the other
i can't see what's in front of me
how
am i supposed to seek asylum
in your words
how
am i supposed to grab ahold of something
i can't conceive
i'm not here right now
and i apologize
as existing is an obligation
you can't back out of
you cant be
without being there
yet i'm existing
and i don't know where

#words #tired #life #exist #being

Jan 2019 · 300

time eater

Gale L Mccoy Jan 2019

time eater

empty pockets full of
rusted bells broken whistles
all the distractions
the time eaters

all the coffee and tea are gone
die in the dessert
or write yourself an ocean
to drown in

#modivation #distraction #time #ocean #gone

Jan 2019 · 240

My body

Gale L Mccoy Jan 2019

My body

I crave to be strong
these sparce muscles stand for what I've been neglecting
this body I wish to strengthen
as it is the vehicle to my success
I will arrive at the goal
with nothing less then this
flesh and bones and blood
and through time
I will learn to cater it's demands
as a mother coddles her child
for I am nothing more then
me myself and my body

#self #body #physical #love #care #ambition

Jan 2019 · 615

One way mirror

Gale L Mccoy Jan 2019

One way mirror

I think I'm afraid of being too honest
said the poet to their poetry
oh, don't worry
says the poetry
they only see a mirror
between the lines

#poetry #poem #mirror #lines #afraid

Jan 2019 · 183

paperweight shrine

Gale L Mccoy Jan 2019

paperweight shrine

I am in the middle of a wake
a paper weight holding down
the pondering, wandering thoughts
of a man who commuted suicide

in the magrins
people write their sorrows
in a dialect I recognize
but do not fully understand
I read them
because they hand them to me

it is not my sorrow to take
I have no right to it
but it is their sorrow to share
broken off into shards
passed hand to hand
in hopes the sharp edges
may dull in time

I will hold each shard given
warm them in my hands
dull the edges on my flesh
before I return it to the teller
So that they are one step closer
to a picture that no longer
hurts to touch

#sorrow #suicide #death #shards #recovery

Dec 2018 · 265

dollar store pictures

Gale L Mccoy Dec 2018

dollar store pictures

It's 716 pm
I've finally put something of my own
on these 13 ft walls
dollar store pictures
in a warm floral theme
they are swallowed by the white
3,5,7 I need more pictures

there's a painting that came
with the apartment
a phoenix flying down
it fell down
inexicplicably
and in putting it back up
now it flys up

I know this apartment is haunted
if not by it's past
then by the present mourning

#death #home #art #white

Dec 2018 · 106

Echo

Gale L Mccoy Dec 2018

Echo

I won't fight for the hollow

It won't echo in me

Dec 2018 · 97

Note. 10

Gale L Mccoy Dec 2018

Note. 10

Little girl
I want to hand you a truth I learned
Far too late

And I'm sorry I havnt kept up with
the war you claimed against apathy

Dec 2018 · 106

Cavity

Gale L Mccoy Dec 2018

Cavity

You want so much of everything
That you abandon your something
Instant gratification
Like a candy that makes you sick

Nov 2018 · 262

your name suits you

Gale L Mccoy Nov 2018

your name suits you

I met a woman who set flame
everywhere she stepped
and mourned the ashes that
remained

your name suits you
                                , I claim
no it doesn't
                               , phoenix replies
your name suits you
                               , she retorts
yes it does,
                               , I agree
blowing out her flames

#flame #fire #wind #names #woman #burn #morn

Nov 2018 · 213

I am [error]

Gale L Mccoy Nov 2018

I am [error]

I am the gust that
blew out the flame
and tossed the stone
I am the lady in white
one finger bloodied
and pointing
I am the hermit
crushed by the stone
I am something old
something new
and something glued
I am a doll
every string tied
not cut
I am whiplash
I am the impact
I am the looked upon
I am the try again
I am
I am
I am
[Error]

#wind #flame #crash #stone #try #look