If I could tell you,
every thing you want to know,
I would,
but my walls are to hard to take down,
but every time,
you speak to me,
they crumble to the ground,
and i hope, you'll be by my side,
when death succumbs to me...
beautiful boy who cares,
you sing a song that only I can hear,
I cant get enough of you,
the happy little messages you send to me,
i cant explain,
you aren't like other boys.
oh, beautiful boy,
I've never felt this way before!
all the other girls and  boys I've been with,
i never truly love this hard,
you understand my darkness,
you under stand my deadly thoughts,
Oh walk through the strawberry fields with me,

saying nothing is real,
walking on starlight and dancing in moon dust,
your  hair capturing the shine of the night,
i want to give you the universe,
and hold your hand,
falling through the sun by your side,
capturing the light of your eyes,
picture yourself,
falling through time,
what thoughts will flow through your mind?
your hands held in mine,
in synchronized meditation,
open up your third eye,
were your atoms next to mine?
did our souls entwine?
picture yourself,
laying in a field of grass,
with your head next to mine,
watching the butterflies glide,

the seasons are changing,
are you still next to me?
with the leaves off the trees,
this isn't electric,
this is calm,
with explosive colors,
i'm not falling,
i'm walking,
i'm willingly going to you...
are you walking to me?
do you picture it too?

Little did he know
every time
she said thank you
she was really saying
I love you.

my heart beats faster
faster
every time you look at me
every time you say "I love you."
I grow even more attached
my heart beats faster
faster
faster still.

Loneliness is trapped between two worlds,
Loneliness becomes bitter,
When left alone too long,
Loneliness hangs around, even when thought to be gone,
Loneliness is still there in a crowded room,
Loneliness never sleeps,
Loneliness has no boundaries,  
Loneliness can never be appeased,
Loneliness wants to feel alive again,
Loneliness can wear many faces,
However,
An exorcism will not get rid of loneliness,
A psychic cannot tell what loneliness wants,
Loneliness cannot be seen through,
And Loneliness does not last forever.

The day I met you,
I wanted to be yours,
I wanted you to be mine,
I fell in love with you,
My world seemed to change,
In a way, it never had before,
My world was a broken clock,
But when I met you,
My world became the Cascades of wonder and possibilities,
The day you said "I love you,"
Was the day I knew,
You are the one for me,
I am not used to being treated,
In a wonderful way, you treat me,
People I dated in the Past treated me like an object,
To move at their own whim,
You treat me like a human,
An equal,
You love me in ways,
I never knew possible,
I opened myself up to you,
In ways, I thought long gone,  
I hope,
To be yours in eternity.

The moon light shines,
A twilight night,
But even the beauty of the darkness,
Cannot compare,
To the Splendor of my lover.

The darkness,
A beautiful thing,
That surrounds my mind,
You are my light,
My life,
My love,
Without you
The tears stream down, for my problems come crashing in,
But when I’m with you,
The world goes scilent,
Your voice,
Better than music.
Draws me in,
But when you aren’t here,
I remember,
The painful touch of life,
The callas way it moves,
I miss you, when you aren’t online,
I wish you were here
I wish I could comfort you out of sorrow, but I cannot touch you,
I have known much pain,
But this hurts more.
Than any broken bone,
Or hurtful word,
I want to take care of you, to love you,
To share our darkness,
But I cannot touch you,
I cannot show you what you mean to me,
I love you
I love you
My dark soulmate.

The moon arose upon the dark night sky,
My lover lay still sleeping next to me,
His insipid skin shone bright, the beauty of he,
I arose; my fangs extended I can’t deny,
I assume you guessed that we cannot die,
As I wait I brew a *** of blood tea,
But the kettle screamed loud as a banshee,
My Dear, looked at me, a gleam in his eye,
He sat beside me, I can tell he thirsts,
“Dark angel” he charmed “lets please our blood lust,”
“Mon Cher” I murmur, “long as you’re with me,”
I bite her arching neck and the blood bursts,
You are the solitary one I trust,
This is survival, not just a **** spree.

A bright,
Sunny day,
Lots of people,
Walking down the street,
What fun we will have!
Come on!
Come on!
Let’s go play!
The sun is so bright!
Look at all the people, mom!
That woman over there is wearing a skirt!
I don’t think she should wear skirts.
Hey lady!
I don’t know you,
But I don’t think you should wear skirts!  
That wasn’t nice?
Oh,
Too late now!
Mom, look over there!
That guys face is funny.
Hey mister.
Your face is funny!
What do you mean where’s my mom?
She’s right over there don’t you see?
Aren’t bright
Sunny
Colorful days
The best?

What is meant for me?
I'm constantly walking through doorways, that have me slowly Falling out of the sky,
Falling,
Deeper,
Deeper,
Into a hopeless pit of UN-Returned love.
Watching the sky fall away from my grasp,
as the ***** hands of time yank me further down.
how much longer until I have nothing left?
how far away is the ground?
I see faces of beautiful people,
but as I reach out I see,
the ugly heart within.
I look,
through the hands of time,
that yank me further down,
to find the one,
destined for me.

What is love, and how should I describe it?
A smile, a heart that beats only for me,
A flickering star in your eyes, that lit,
Blue sky, a high mountain, the deepest sea.

Winds that gently carries all your whispers,
Flowers that smell like your breath in mornings,
The cold spring's rain giving me soft shivers,
The freedom of the soul, spreading its wings.

The rising sun that caresses your hair,
The rain that mingles with your happy tears,
The breath of life, the water, and the air,
Blissful seconds, hours, decades, hundred years.

My love for you will never cease nor die,
"Would none had ever loved but you and I!"

Someone asked me what makes me the happiest in this world.
honestly that  is my Boyfriend,
I know its dumb,
But he's my soulmate,
If there is such a thing,
That's him,
He is my silver lining,
His texts keep me going,
The hope of knowing,
That he loves me,
And i love him,
Is enough to rain in the negativity,
That people shove my way,
Every day,
I look forward to talking to him,
To seeing his face,
To telling him how much he means to me,
I am always going to love him,
I dont care what anyone else has to say,
I know,
In my heart,
He is the right person for me,
I'm glad I met him,
I now have something to look forward too in life.

I'm afraid of losing you,
what are you afraid of?
nothing.
you're not afraid of losing me?
no, I'm not.
why not?
because you're afraid of losing me.

The bleak empty horrors of emotions entwine my body,
Move me like a paper mache puppet,
I swirl and twirl,
I dance and fumble about,
I do not articulate my internal pain,
So I stab and jab,
And bump into the ones I love.

Never fall in love,
With a writer,
For a writer will grab your hand and whisper run,
As she pulls you,
Swirling twirling,
Through a world of imagination,
Never fall in love,
With a writer,
For she will drag you on adventures,
That you never wanted in the first place,
And all you could possibly say,
Is “as you wish”
So never fall in love with a writer,
But if you do,
Always tell her that you love her you’ll regret it if you don’t,
Never fall in love,
With a writer.

in the land of the living,
two dead souls fell in love,
two dead souls who cannot touch,
two dead souls,
dragged through pain,
left to rot,
fell in love,
two dead souls,
who only meet once a week,
stuck n a perpetual motion of anguish,
fell in love.

I love you,
I say it constantly,
I grasp you tightly,
I don’t want you to leave,
I love you,
The words roll off my lips so easily,
Because I mean it,
I mean it more than ever.
I love you,
I love the way you move,
The way you speak,
The way you look at me.
I love you,
Please,
I know things don’t last forever,
But I want this,
Oh how I want this,
To last forever,
I love you,
Please,
Never leave.

your eyes dazzle me, beyond belief,
you care,
even though the world was crule to you,
you love me,
which is still hard for me to understand,
but i dont want you to stop.
because i love you too.
i hope its not annoying,
that i tell you how much you mean to me,
i do that,
because i want you to know,
every day,
that you matter.
I love you seelenverwandter,
you make me happy,
when no one else does,
i want to be with you
Always.

Flip,
Flip,
Flip through the pages of a fantasy series,
Always a Series,
You don't want good things to end,
Emerging,
Bingeing,
Hiding,
Takes you away from the wicked and wild,
Cause these friends cant hurt you...

The blank sheet stares at you
   just your perception

That it's your foe
   a misconception

It's your partner, your friend --
   enfolds your verse in love

Breathe deeply... exhale
   your words dance above

My skin is green,
I’m gross,
My teeth are falling out,
Even my limbs are breaking!
My skin is green,
I don’t know why,
My clothes are ripping,
My hair is gone,
My makeup is smeared,
My skin is green,
I have a date tonight,
And I am gross,
My nails are chipped,
My skin is green,
The doorbell rings,
I shuffle over,
My date is here,
His skin is green.

You shine brighter than the stars in the country sky.
Your smile can light up a thousand rooms
You are absolutely, astoundingly gorgeous
Your hair is so free, never change it.
Your hair just adds to your gorgeousness
your mind, holds a thousand mysteries,
mysteries i can only dream to solve.  
your mind is a doorway to a thousand possibilities.
the way you think is a wonders thing,
a doorway to another realm of beauty unable to be seen by the naked eye.
you have such a brilliant outlook to the world around you.
your love burns brighter than a thousand suns.
warms the world and plants gardens.
your love could turn any day into a summers day.
 your love is a cocoon of safety and happiness.

will it work?
this relationship.
will it last?
you, with your beautiful Hazel eyes.
staring into my soul.
I love you.
will it last?
will it work?
will you say "I do." ?

my dad, his rage terrifies me,
the way he treats my mom aggravates me,
his constant neglect enrages me,
he is a workaholic,
sexist,
racist,
homophobic,
narcissistic,
trump supporting,
white man.
with a feminist,
bisexual,
free thinking,
Liberal
Daughter.
who never apologizes for things he does wrong,
never makes time to chat with his daughter,
who never cares,
about anything,
other than,
Himself.

my vivid dreams,
turn into helpless night mares,
and my calls for help ...?
are nothing but whispers in the night,
i am alone.
" will i always be alone?" i ask.
" you tell me." fate cooed

I was left broken again.
two relationships in a row.
why do I trust so easily?
all you do is crush me into little glass pieces in your hands.
at least this time there was someone to pick up the pieces.
I should just stop falling in love.
but I can't.
I can already feel myself begin to fall again.

My words scream and shout
“Notice me! Help me! I am in deep pain”
But yet no one notices their small cries,
And people continue to read and like and say
“lol, MOOD”
But they bleed and cry.

"hello, my love" a dark Gothic woman cooed.
" ah, at last, i can see my sweet beautiful woman"  a Gothic man with black hair replied.
you could see it in their eyes, they love each other, with all they have.

" WELL! son what are you doing over there come here" my mother and father called

Yes I am a girl,
No I do not want to end up with someone mean,
Or muscular,
Or extremely handsome,
Al I really want,
Is someone who will be kind to me,
Share a *** of coffee with me,
Be nerdy with me,
Watch horror movies, and doctor who with me,
Who give good hugs,
And is there for me,
They can have any body type,
I don’t care,
Please,
I’m so sick,
So tired,
Of all the guys,
Who only care,
About the thickness,
Of their ****.

I can see the poison dripping off your tongue,
As “Your too fat” cut deep,
I can see your fangs protruding,
You speak with disgust “ Are you transgender?”,
“You're not pretty enough” slither across my ear drums,
As your lies “long hair and makeup makes you pretty” make a fool out of me,
Your scales blister my heart,
As you use me up and twist me into a little doll,
I can see my blood spill out before me,
When you strike with harshened words “**** yourself” .
I can feel the venom coursing through my veins,
Up from the wound,
Towards my mind,
Someone please **** the venom from my wound!
So I do not become a snake of society!

A little seed
For a huge tree.
A drop of love
For eternal bliss

Drip.
Drip.
Drip.
The sound of a leaky faucet,
What, one may find annoying,
I find calming,
The pitter patter of rain on the roof,
The smell of oatmeal stuff,
The scratching of nails on the floor,
The sound of a sweet old dog snoring,
The sound of a pencil scratching on paper,
When the wind hits the house just right   to make a calm wheezing whistle sound,
The creaking of old stairs,
Soft music echoing down the hall,
Drip,
Drip,
Drip,
Of a leaky faucet...

There is a crack in my wall,
My wall was beautiful,
My wall was innocent,
But you made a crack,
In my beautiful wall,
The same way,
You cracked my heart.

He is now the color the dawn wears for me to behold each morning
no matter how bland and monotonous is the rising

He is the serenading hello conveyed by the birds' early lilt
when I'm amongst limping creature bound to wilt

He fills up the cup of my luscious refreshment-
a dose to quench me with merriment

He is that perking mood to start my day
and a pause to breathe fine in the middle of a fray

I know nothing beyond his name
and he's another bright portrait I cannot claim

I'd like for him to not just be a tempting limerence
that this may never be a departing sentence...

Oh fair mortals, heed my call
For I am the God of the hunt, mighty and tall
In forests deep and meadows green
My presence is felt, my power unseen

With bow in hand and arrows true
I roam the land, my prey in view
The beasts of earth, both great and small
Are subject to my aim, one and all

Oh how I revel in the thrill
Of the chase, with every skill
My keen eyes scan the terrain
For my next target, I shall not refrain

From the mighty stag with antlers wide
To the timid hare, I do not hide
For I am the master of this game
And all creatures within, know my name

But do not think me cruel or cold
For I am also the protector bold
Of balance in nature, I ensure
That life and death remain pure

So heed my call, oh mortal kind
For in me, your strength you'll find
For I am the God of the hunt
And in my realm, all creatures are one.

So when you wander in the wild
Remember me, the God of the hunt, mild
For in every creature, my spirit lives
And in their survival, my power thrives.

I approach the room
Just beyond the door
Darkness
Always looking for my love
Cobwebbed walls look intently upon me
Admonishing
Urging me
Run
Yet I will not leave without you.
The moon peers
through a broken window
Casting its blue light on my pallid skin
Blood red lips yearn to kiss you
Fingernails painted the shade of death  
Search in vain for your frail shoulders
Wine on the mantle
the color of deep crimson  
A half-drunk glass
A knife
A scream
I will never leave without you