he used me everyday
his favorite electric soul
power he did know
distance I did go...
abuse always did follow

one day he found me
drained, rusted,
& out of juice
our magnetic force
had finally come loose

he cried frantically
desperately fixing me up
with man made tools
It was simply to late
a dead lover was his fate

lucky he
able to revive me
with little life left
I vibrated with long pauses
I had to return with proper causes

told my boy, I'm no toy
now kiss my achy breaky heart
only then will I begin again,
only then will our love restart!

It creeps up inside you without a warning.
One minute I'm sitting there looking at you while we laugh.
Then it hits me,
Like a wave...
A wave of emotion.
I try to suppress it but it won't go away.
For days I question it.
I don't want to feel this way.
It needs to go away.
It'll only hurt.
Only make things worse.
I debate over and over if I should act on it...
Tell you how I feel.
Finally I gain the courage I need.
And I was right.
It only hurts.
Only makes things worse.
Something about feelings....
*****.

Your photographs are all I keep
I keep them all so I won't weep
I weep when thoughts of you go deep
Take out this heap, take out this heap.

Your photographs are memories
Memoirs of you that keeps my peace
My peaceful days are mine, at least
You give me ease, you give me ease.

Your photographs remind of you
You seem so near, you always do
Do you believe, you make me blue
Each time you go, each time you go?

So please, my dear, stay with me
Stay with me and let me see
See how our love can make us free
A love to be, a love to be.

i find it hard to breathe
and even the air
is weighing me down tonight

There is a sinking feeling in my stomach
and I feel the need to cry
all this water I had swallowed
when I once tried to drown
everything else
around me out

It feels weird talking to you
Like we're both too afraid
To laugh or make a joke
Or to say something that might prompt
I miss you, remember when we used to be friends?

That time is still too close
The cut I sliced into you
Has not yet become a scar

I'm still sorry I made you bleed
But you beat me and bruised me
Until I forgot how my skin looked before

Things aren't how they used to be
We didn't pick up where we left off
Because when I left you it was 2 am
And we were both in tears
Wondering if we would ever be the same

Now I'm trying not to bring up the fact
That I know everything about you
Because it might hurt to think about what used to be
And what if things have changed?
What if the person I knew so much about doesn't exist anymore?

Maybe you're happier now
I know I am
Maybe you're still trying to find a reason
I don't have an answer
For why I did what I did
I just knew I had to stop drinking the water
To get rid of the poison

This was probably a bad idea
Getting your hopes up
And mine

Sometimes I just want to cry
And tell you to love me
I want you to know me
I want you to fix me
I want you to break me

I want to be the most important thing in your life
The way I was before
And I want to break your heart
Over and over and over again
Please just talk to me
And think about me before you fall asleep
And pray that I love you back
Even though you know I never will

I want to annoy you
Until 3 in the morning
When we both should be asleep
I want to call you
When I'm drunk and alone
Because no one else will put up with it

The hardest thing I have to learn
Is if I really want you
Or a replacement
I guess I have options
I just need to take my pick

Please don't leave just yet
But stay oh so far away
Off in the distance
Where I can see your body
But don't have to read your face
Follow me wherever I go
Try to make no sound
And I'll look back but keep on walking
Until days like today
Where I just need to know
That you still care

Life reveals itself
One step at a time
Think things through and through
Keep yourself in line
The battle is going to be tough
Give it your very best
Never ever give up
Strive to be a major sucesss

delusions made me believe i was really living on a platform of some kind,





     now i'm one with nature like a leaf in the wind moving from place to place during autumn.