Lachrymose and Lies

Lachrymose and Lies Jun 2015

Funny how we've made the choice
To die even before we are born

Funny how many attempts we can make
Before we finally fall

Funny how long it takes for the blood to run out
And leave us for once and for all

Funny how much your body can handle
When you don't want to deal no more

Funny how gas can make you laugh and cry
When you're locked in the car and don't even care why

Funny how many pills your system can take
When death is the option you've already made

Funny how long we can hang in the balance
Between the length of a noose and the floor

Funny how hard our dreams can hit us
And with the car we could never afford

Funny how heavy water can feel
When its welling up in your lungs

Funny how the ones who aren't afraid to do it
Are the ones you'd never guessed would jump

Funny how people start paying attention
When you're holding the gun to your head

Funny how our own thoughts eat us alive
Aren't we all just better off **dead?

#suicide #depression #life #death #disorder #dead #help #amused

Jun 2015

Death-throws

She did

She made me ,you know.
Remove blades from their housings
And sheath my soul.
Drive knifes and daggers into her back.
Part the flesh from bone.
Coward she cried. But gritting her teath for more
Shed lie here on on my bed. Or sprawled across the floor
Shed block my paths out.
My routes through the doors
She would make me harm herself
When she couldn't any more

#why #tired #getting #itried #tohelp

Jun 2015

Death-throws

Facade'

Don't be afraid
the man says in tears

Its perfectly normal
the doctor winces

You'll feel better in no time
*the therapist smirks

#help #me

Lachrymose and Lies Jun 2015

Too Much

It's like your heart
has no obligation anymore
It's the kind of burn that throbs for an hour
and what seems like
an eternity
It's that heavy drip that clogs the drain
where there once was
flowing warm joy
It's when you can't tell
if it's beating for them anymore
or even yourself
It's the cruel realization that waits a lifetime
to bite you right where it counts
In the feels
It's the ultimate sacrifice your body makes
to keep you from hurting;
Or so it likes to think
But the truth is
it's just too much to feel love
Hate
Lust
Envy
Desire
Joy
It's too much to feel anymore
when your head just wants
your heart to
stop
.

#love #broken #heart #pain #too #much #ache #cruel #heartache #anatomy

Lachrymose and Lies Jun 2015

Downing Meds With ***** 10w

You can't judge a poem by it's likes and trends

#poems #10w #like #random #trend

Lachrymose and Lies Jun 2015

Time Will Tell

I'll be watching you
As you sleep under the moon
Two days since you last saw noon
Wrapped up in your cocoon
You'll be holding me
Wishing only to be
Everything you can't set free
At least that's how it seems
If only I was yours
I'd rock you to the core
Release you from this bore
And burst you into spores
Baby you gotta let go
I promise you I know
Your anxiety it shows
Like a black shadow on your snow
Still you can't move
It's too much only to prove
That you can't win or lose
When the strangling hands groove
The night treats you well
As daylight brings us hell
Reducing every cell
But only time will tell

#depression #pain #anxiety #time #dark #her #him #you #me #hopeless

Lachrymose and Lies Jun 2015

Threshold

We all have a story
Your friend who died last night
Has published his
The least you can do is read
And acknowledge it
The authors achievements
The boy who got dumped
Feels a pain
Just as great
As you did when your father
Beat you half to death
We all have different thresholds
So never tell someone
They don't understand
Because in some way they do
The scars are all the same
On the inside

#truth #depression #pain #death #anxiety #loss #hurt #reality #scars #grieve